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Cepatlah Jumaat!!!

2012-02-01T13:35:00.002+08:00

Hari nie baru hari Rabu... esok Khamis ..then JUMAAT!!!!

Naper excited lebih jer Jumaat nie? Sebab weekend yang panjang ke?(Isnin dan Selasa I cuti yerr..Maulidur Rasul n Thaipusam..jgn jelessss wahai bukan-warga-kerja-negeri-Selangor) Itu salah satu sebab laa...cuti panjang...byk planning.. hari Sabtu g Raub, wedding Mr Hubby nyer opismate.. 1st time nak attend Indian Wedding..so cam excited gak aahhh... hahaaahaaa...

Tapi sebab utama kenapa aku tertunggu2 hari Jumaat sebenarnya Jumaat adalah 3hb Febuari 2012, iaitu tarikh appointment I untuk buat 3D Scan dekat Vision College Kelana Jaya. Lama you tunggu tarikh nie (buat appointment dari December 2011 lagi taoo!!)

Baby..baby... jumaat nie jangan shy-shy ngn mommy daddy yer. Baby jangan la main sorok2 muka.. baby suker sangat letak tangan kat muka kan.. nanti time 3D scan jgn buat camtu lagi yerr.. ;)

Oh tak sabarnyerr!!

Government, Private Clinic?

2012-02-01T09:27:00.004+08:00

Salam uollss....

Okay, actually baru2 nie, on last Friday to be exact, aku telah kembali menyambung lawatan ke government clinic di seksyen 7, shah alam tu, setelah dua bulan meninggalkan sessi lawatan dan menyambung lawatan kat UMRA je... sebab kekangan masa dan stress sebab kena pegi selalu and kena menunggu yg amat lama. Dari sihat boleh jadik sakit2 tao, kesan psychology sebab menunggu nie. (cube la bawak bersabar sket kan.. hehee)

Anyway, reason of why I return back to government clinic, simply because of my GDM. Buat BSP sendiri kat rumah, everyweek, tapi asek ader bacaan fail jer. Cheq pun risau la noo kot2 ada effect kat baby pa...

Kira hari Jumaat tu pergi walk-in jer, first kena sound kat nurse di registration kaunter tu pasal ikut suka hati aku je nak walk-in. Katanya, akan didahulukan orang yg ada appoinment dolu... haaa...nah.. lama la kena tunggu eventho aku orang ketiga ikut giliran nombor. Sabaq la noo...

Dah tu..tunggu punya tunggu, lastly after check perut, nurse bawala buku aku g jumpe doktor, sebab aku kan under BSP. Dia cakap doktor nak jumpe. Tunggu pulak giliran nak jumpe doktor. Jumpe doktor apa lagi, kena la sound sebab lama tak datang, buat BSP sendiri, saper nak review. Then the doctor goes on cakap pasal risk of a GDM mother to her baby, baby maybe mati dalam perut laa..orang lain pun keje jugak but have time to come la... and so on. Cakap memang tak berlapik (dlm hati... takkan la aku tak kisah, that's why aku pegi private buat check-up eventho tak pegi government. Keje bukan nyer ikut suke je bile2 nak amek cuti. Kompeni nak tutup lagi, nak kena handover project to Bangkok lagi.. hurm, malas nak explain kat doktor tu, biar je dia marah... that's means she really concern about her patient and the baby health... aku diam je bila doktor marah2, sebab takut teringgi suara pula kalau menjawab.) So doktor set appointment hari Isnin tu buat BSP di klinik and hari Selasa, jumpe doktor untuk review result.

Hari Isnin tu buat BSP macam biasa.. nasib baik dapat lari dr office jap. 3x ulang-alik dari seksyen 26 ke seksyen 7, di bawah panas terik... oh terasa jauhnyer perjalanan dan terus fikir, after this ubah ke klinik seksyen 19 je, dekat sket ngn office nak lari2 keluar cenggini. Malam tu, confirm2 rasa nak demam dan sakit kepala sangat (nasib baik ada Bye-bye Fever extra cool!!)...okay badan I memang manja... sebab selalu memang terperap kat office je... stay dalam aircond... xder keluar time cuaca panas2 ya amat.

Bacaan BSP ari Isnin tu pun sangat cantik. Alhamdulillah, xder yang over the range. Selasa tu, cam biasa, dalam pukul 7.30pagi dah tercongok kat clinic untuk jumpe doktor. Aku anggarkan kejap je, sebab jumpe doktor je kan and I am the first person. Minta Mr Hubby temankan sebab masih penat nak drive, gara2 ulang-alik buat BSP semalam. Terima kasih dear sebab terpaksa bersama-sama sacrifice masa :)

Tapi lama jugak la kena tunggu doktor. Dalam pukul 9.00++ baru nombor aku dipanggil. 1j30min melepak dekat kerusi yang xbest (tanpa buat apa2). Menambahkan penat dan sakit belakang, tapi kita sabar je la..cuba memahami tugasan seorang doktor.Hari tu jumpe doktor lain pula. Doktor terangkan bacaan BSP normal dan schedule 2 minggu lagi utk buat BSP, jumpa doktor dan check perut. Aku pun tanya if boleh transfer ke seksyen 19, dia cakap lagi better macam tu...hehe..memandangkan lokasi rumah dan office lagi dekat dengan seksyen 19 tu. Then doktor scan tengok baby pe semua dia cakap okay. dia soh aku amek darah dan suntikan ATT (utk kancing gigi).

Dalam pukul 10.15am barulah selesai semua dan Mr Hubby terus hantar aku g office. Penat betul. Harap2 lepas nie dekat Seksyen 19, better sket, jimat masa menunggu (mungkinkah??) dan masa / minyak keta untuk ulang-alik.

Kenapa aku pilih government clinic jugak dari private walaupun terpaksa mengorbankan masa yang banyak di situ:-
1) Harus akui, di government clinic everything is free... hehehee...
2) Dah ada GDM, senang kalau dorang nak pantau.. kang nak kena amek insulin ke, admit hospital ke apa.. senang sket
3) Semuanya direkodkan dalam Buku Merah, senang kalau apa2 jadi, doktor boleh rujuk kat situ
4) Memang plan nak deliver kat Government hospital, takut ada complication, kat private, kalau ada complication hantar ke government jugak kan
5) Dah ada history baby meninggal, risau tu tetap ada
6) Kat private pergi jugak, tapi lebih kepada nak buat detailscan saja, dia xder check hemoglobin atau blood sugar, kalau nak buat,boleh jer..heheee... bayar je lah kan :) .. kat government kan free...

Lebih kurang 3bulan je lagi nak ulang-alik klinik. I try not to complaint too much and hope my superior would understand, plus can complete my task on schedule. The most important thing is to ensure baby grows as a healthy and happy baby. ^__^

Mood..Moody...

2012-01-30T16:47:00.001+08:00

Mood tak berapa besh sekarang... bukan sebab tak happy... bukan ada sebab2 tertentu jugak.. atau ada sebabnyer... maybe badan penat.. otak penat...

cuti duduk rumah pun penat... keluar jalan2 pun penat...

nak bercuti lagi??

For me (and baby)...

2012-01-25T15:16:00.005+08:00

Asyik2 shopping untuk baby je kan.. hehe... kali nie I beli something for me pula (on top of buying more baby stuffs :D... it might be taboo for some old folks sebab beli barang baby awal sangat, but lagi bagus beli time masih larat lagi nak jalan-jalan shopping and survey2 lagi kan, furthermore semuanya di bawah kekuasaan Allah).

Inilah bendanyer yang aku beli:-

Holga Fish Eye Lens

Dah lama oo cari benda nie asyik takde jer.. so biler dapat tao ade stock, terus je rembat tanpa fikir panjang, but mahal lah jugak kan..dalam RM140... pas nie target nak beli wide lens plak.. then nak beli kamera sprocket.. hehee... bilenyer ntah ler.. lps pantang la kot... skang masih fokus nak lengkapkan checklist baby dulu.

Antara contoh gambar hasil daripada fish eye lens ...

Tapi nie bukan gambar yang aku amek... hehe..nie curi dari google jer.. susah la xder kamera digital.. nak load image kat blog pun susah... Kena tunggu beli henset baru dolu... ala nak beli henset biasa jek... mana ler da budget nak cekup samsung galaxy S2 atau iphone 4s.. nak beli henpon nokia biasa ja... lagipun aku bukan pengguna tegar internet... cam xberbaloi beli mahal2..baik beli laptop Acer S3 kan... suker betul..nipis jerr..

Anyway, semua2 tu kena tunggu dolu..masuk wishlist dolu.. ;)

But dalam shopping2 for my stuff, ade jugak la beli barang baby... kali nie kitorang beli:-

Tomme Tippee Feeding Bottle
- antara Tommee Tippee & NUK akhirnyer pilih Tommee Tippee sebab murah sket dari NUK. Plus suker ngan design dia.. hahaaa...yg penting banyak review cakap bagus untuk prevent colic and closely resemble breast-feeding

Ini pulak Autumnz Breastmilk Storage container. Senang nak simpan susu untuk baby nanti bile dah start keje balik... or nak kuar dating ngn daddy, baby still boleh minum susu mommy walaupun kena tinggal :) Beli Autumnz sebab ianya murah dan BPA free.

Yang nie Autumnz Breastmilk Storage Bag. Ada double ziplock untuk prevent leaking and dia dah pre-sterilized. Tapi gunanya pakai buang... belipun sebagai tambahan kepada simpanan susu, takut nanti tak muat peti ais kalau guna bottle je. Guna storage bag nie memang sangat2 menjimatkan space. Kenapa Autumnz punyer? Reasonnyer sama, sebab ianya kualiti dan murah berbanding jenama lain.

Then tambah lagi koleksi pampers baby, dan benda2 kecil yang lain.

Sambung pulak shopping next month lepas mommy dapat gaji yer ;)

Another story bout baby...

2012-01-12T08:20:00.002+08:00

Ingat tak entry lepas aku cerita pasal buat detail scan kan... then dapat dekat doctor and sonographer yang agak tidak best (bahasa kasarnya, agak hampeh dan menghampakan). So alih2 ada lah sedikit kerisauan dihatiku akan kesihatan baby. Buat pula baby nie macam ikut mood je, ada time bukan main menendang2, ada time, seharian, sunyi jek. Buat aku tertanya2 baby okay ke? Nasib baik ader fetal doppler yang beli hari tu, so atleast boleh check heartbeat (kekadang susah nak jumpe jugak heartbeat dia, suka main sembunyi2 baby sayang nie), tengok kiraan okay, so macam lega la sikit.

But then hati masih tergerak2 mengajak suruh jumpe doktor, so lastly, hari Isnin lepas, aku pun mengajak Mr Hubby pergi ke klinik. Mr Hubby ape lagi, nape nak pegi klinik, kan belum sampai sebulan lagi... eee.. byk soal pula, dear, ikut je lah kan... :p

So semasa sampai, kami request nak jumpa doktor yang kami suka, nasib baik dia ada. Semasa pemeriksaan, doktor explain yang everything looks good.

"Air ketuban bagus. Can you see the black image surrounding the baby, that's the air ketuban" -Ok, great, lega hati mommy
"This is baby's finger, see, baby is twitching the finger" -So cute!!
"This is baby's leg, wow baby has big feet" -Big foot?? hahaa..no wonder baby kicking mommy's bladder so hard
"Baby have sharp chin, baby is gonna be a tall person" -Haha, maybe, but I'm not tall, maybe baby take after daddy.. daddy has big feet as well :p

Overall, the growth is normal and the EDD during u/scan follow my actual EDD. But doktor nasihatkan penjagaan makanan. I've told her about doing the BSP test myself, but then she say if it doesn't look good, there's no choice than to take insulin.. so scary, if I'm taking insulin, I am gonna have to deliver the baby at 38weeks instead of at 40weeks.

Well, kita monitor betul2 sepanjang masa 2 minggu nie, if still not good, I have no choice than to follow doctor advice.

Apa pun, bersyukur sangat2 atas kurniaan Mu ya Allah. Semoga baby terus sihat dan happy di dalam. :)

Masih Shopping Lagi...

2012-01-09T15:50:00.003+08:00

Yes, I am guilty as charge. I think I've already been infected by shopping mode. Why? Because it seem like I cannot bring myself to stop from buying things. But do know, most of the things I bought are for our lil junior. Mommy really want the best for you dear. I wanna have everything ready once baby arrive. Baby have to know that you are really wanted and mommy and daddy are ready for you.

Oh yeah, last Saturday was the Sogo Sale Preview for SCard and Maybank Member. We arrived at Sogo at almost 8.30am as we already anticipating crowd as the sales open at 9.00am but it still caught me by surprised as the carpark almost full already. Can you imagine that!! And there were lines of people lining up at each of the sogo entrances. Luckily we arrived early so there was no problem getting a parking space (still can see two to three empty parking space :p) and we queue up along with other people.

There was a nice girl lining up behind us. She was the one who fill us with the information about the sales. Thanks to her, Mr Hubby went to make an SCard for RM12 to enjoy a RM10 voucher for every RM100 spent, while I mind the queue. Because I already know what I wanted to buy there, so I asked the nice girl on which floor is the baby's department and after the entrance door open, we quickly, straight away went there.

I think we have quite a bargain for Stroller, CarSeat, Travel Mattress, BathTub,2pants and 1 belt for Mr Hubby, and an extra RM110 voucher to spend later, so we could buy more of the baby stuffs... hahahaaa...

Our shopping list didn't stop there. On Sunday, we when to Jusco and Fiffy, so more and more additional things are added to the shopping list. And yes, I am also guilty of online shopping (great bargain for Bottle Warmer, as retail price is RM79.90, and I get to buy at RM63 (include postage ;)).

So next week, looking forward for delivery of Jingle Jungle Bottle Warmer, more baby's and mommy's apparel from OneBabyWorld and of course, custom made, very cute baby pillow.

My final confession, I am running out of money so quickly. Gotta get hold of myself as I have another 3months++ to go. Still have time to buy, no NEED to be so RUSH to buy things... but I so cannot help it... baby's things are so cute!!!

Shopping and shopping

2012-01-03T16:15:00.004+08:00

Alhamdulillah, ada juga sedikit rezeki sempena meraikan berakhirnya tahun 2011. Walaupun tak banyak, ok jugak daripada tak merasa langsung...

So apa kitorang buat.. of course shopping barang2 baby. Excitednyer mencari barang baby. Alhamdulillah, dah dapat beli baby cot dan beberapa barang kecil2an seperti barut, towel, blanket, diaper sket2, romper & etc. Macam awal je kan bershopping... hahaa... happy sebenarnya sebab setiap kali check up baby dalam keadaan baik je. Cuma skang nie uri baby masih di bawah, harap2 by week 28 nanti, dah makin jauh dari pintu cervix.. kalau tak, maybe ada complication and kena c-sect. Minta-minta dijauhkan... Amin.

Sekarang nie tengah berkira-kira nak beli stroller, car seat, bottle warmer (sterilizer?? ye, i mmg first time mom yg semua benda nak..inshaAllah, akan digunakan dan dimanfaatkan nanti sepenuhnyer) and breast pump. Masih ada lebih kurang 4 bulan lagi, so kalau satu bulan beli satu dua barang, rasanya okay kot. :D

Nak kena check balik shopping list dan budget balik. Yg mana penting kena didahulukan, yang rasa macam more of convenience than neccessity, kena hold dolu. :)

" Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku bermohon pada-Mu, jadikanlah anak didalam rahimku ini, seorang muslim yang beriman, seorang penyeru yang benar, jujur dan ikhlas ke jalan-Mu, dan menjadikannya indah dalam pandangan kedua orang tuanya, saudara-saudaranya dan kaum muslimin. Dan berikanlah dia syahid setelah panjang umur dan memiliki amal baik. Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku belindung pada-Mu untuk anak ini dan keturunannya daripada syaitan yang terkutuk. "
"Ya Allah, mudahkanlah masa mengandungkannya dan melahirkannya, dan mudahkanlah jalan keluarnya. Engkaulah ya Allah yang telah menciptakannya, menumbuhkannya, menyempurnakannya dan meluruskannya"
AMIN.

end of earth year

2011-12-28T16:31:00.002+08:00

pejam mata, buka mata, pejam lama sket, pejam lagi...pejam lagi, buka mata... oh sudah nak habes rupanya taun nie. Tinggal tak sampai 4 hari ja lagi (3hari lebih sket..hehee)...

Kalau ikut Mayan Calendar dan cerita 2012, tahun depan kiamat la dunia nie.. hehee... mana ada.. soal akhir dunia nie hanya maha pencipta yang tahu, sebagai manusia yang sangat naif nie, kita hanya boleh prepare je... manatao..ntah2 esok dah kiamat...

Dah nak end nie macam nak re-cap ja apa terjadi sepanjang 2011 nie.. nak cuba try ingat balik nie...

1)Resolusi nak jaga kandungan baik-baik dan jadi seorang ibu yang baik sebab masa dah masuk tahun 2011, aku dah 2bulan mengandung
2) Majlis Pertunangan adikku sabri tanggal 5Feb2011
3) Majlis Perkahwinan adik iparku, Asmah pada 13March2011
4) March 2011, dapat tahu kandunganku menghidap Multicystic Dysplastic Kidney
5) 4April2011, 10.10pm, aku melahirkan baby Firdaus melalui induction ubat. He was a stillborn.
6) 22-25April2011, Mr Hubby and I pergi bercuti ke Tioman untuk menenangkan fikiran
7) 5June2011, Majlis Perkahwinan adikku sabri
8) 24August2011, pregnancy test come out positive. I'm pregnant again!!
9) 6-26Sept2011, Mr Hubby went Offshore to T'ganu
10) 27Sept2011, 1st visit to clinic to confirm pregnancy (dating scan @7W2D)
11) 20October2011 - Detail Scan to screen for Down Syndrom risk at UMRA
12) 23-25Oct2011, percutian ke Cameron Highland bersama Mr Hubby
13) 28October2011, Spansion announce to close down KL Facilities in December 2011
14 14November2011, My car was broken-in and my laptop, camera, pendrive was stolen
12) 1Dec2011 - My SIL lahirkan baby Adam
13) 23Dec2011- Anomaly Scan for baby. Found out baby gender :)

hehee... itu saja yang ingat (hahaa..tu pun sebab ada tulis dalam organizer).. lain2 event tu, kalo ingat nanti boleh la update kat sini.

Maka inilah entry penamat bagi tahun 2011. Semoga tahun 2012 nanti menjadi tahun yang lebih cemerlang lagi. Perkara yang dinanti tahun 2012 nanti:-

1) Move out from Shah Alam
2) Find a new job (probably start in July/August
3) Selamat melahirkan baby in early May nanti :)

Anomaly Scan aka Detail Scan

2011-12-27T08:15:00.004+08:00

Last Friday, was our appoinment to check for any abnormalities with baby, and finding out the gender as a bonus. I was very excited, not to mention was very-very anxious and nervous.

Straight away after work, Mr Hubby come to fetch me, and we arrived around 7.15pm, just in time as the appoinment is at 7.30pm.

However, my excitement was short live as I was dissapointed with the sonographer, who seem too serious, (not friendly, no smiling) and she just point here and there, and when we asked question, she seem bothered and relucted to answer us :(

I am still happy tho, because currently everything seem normal, even the kidney and the amniotic fluid looks normal. The sonographer keep on repeating that even it seem normal, I need to re-scan again because we might missed some other problem. I understand that, but for her to keep repeating it, not only make me feel stupid, but it also tend to make me worry. What I want to know if the current growth, I know the possiblity that anything can go wrong along the way, but still, doesn't she understand my concerns. Why she need to make me more worry when everything right now is proved to be fine.

Okay, just let put that aside (I would never wanted her to be my sonographer ever again!!!), thank to Allah that baby is growing normal and heatlhy. And for my next detail scan, I have to ensure not to be perform by her, or maybe do it some where else.

To add to my dissapoinment, when I went home, and inserted the CD to see the image, it was BLANK!!! yes, she gave me a BLANK CD!!!! Sorry to say but I am really not happy with the service. How could they let somebody like her perform the scan, it is not a government clinic, its a PRIVATE!!! and I PAID for the service!!

Just hope my next visit would be more pleasant. really2 glad the baby healthy!!! :)

BTW, we got to see the gender as well... just as we expected!! :)

Spansion Last Day Phase 1

2011-12-23T16:09:00.002+08:00

Akhirnya harinie datang jugak. Hari di mana majority staff Spansion perlu datang keja. Pasnie... bye..bye..bye...

Sedih.. everybody take2 pictures. Hanya tu la nanti bekalan memori dan kenangan di masa hadapan. Ingat ke boleh la keja lama di sapnsion kan, tapi life goes on.

Sekejap lagi pukul 4.30petang ader farewell party untuk semua staff office. Yang shift punyer turn, dah selesai sudah. Ahhh... pasti syahdu-shahdan je nanti. Eventho baru setahun lebey kat sini ... dan tak sempat nak kenal semua orang... ooo... sayu..sayu...

But beside that, aku still rasa sedikit excited. Bukan excited sebab semua orang dah nak pergi, nanti tinggal je lah beberapa kerat ja staff nak melakukan tugasan terakhir sebelum Spansion officially tak wujud lagi di Shah Alam ini...siyes sunyi nanti... tapi aku excited sebab harinie adalah hari yang dinanti untuk detail scan...

Semuga semuanya berjalan lancar... neves gilerrr!!! and harap2 boleh tahu gender baby jugak (br boleh start shopping for baby clothes!!

Appoinment

2011-12-16T08:25:00.003+08:00

Yay! Dah berjaya dapatkan appoinment untuk buat 3D scan kat Vision College. Lambat lagi, bulan february nanti, sebab 3D scan kalo buat dlm WW26-WW30 baru dapat imej yang cantik. Saja je set appoinment awal2 sebab orang cakap kat situ selalu penuh jer jadual dia, sebab murah (RM90) dan service nyer bagus. Gambar pun banyak diorang bagi.

Vision College nie lokasinya kat Kelana Jaya. Aku tahu pasal college nie pun masa buat detail scan kat klinik kesihatan hari tu... dan dia ada offer buat FOC detail scan kat vision college juga.. tp memandangkan tak boleh nak amek cuti buat sementara waktu nie and detail scan is more because of fetal health concerns, so better let the expert do it. So detail scan proceed kat UMRA je.. sebab hari tu baby firdaus nyer complication pun didetect oleh sonographer kat UMRA. So I have much more faith with them.

Exact date untuk 3D Scan appoinment adalah 3 February 2012. Ahh.. lambat lagi... tak sabar rasanya... pas nie boleh la masukkan gambar tu dalam scrap book baby.. :)

Happy 2nd Anniversary!!!

2011-12-13T08:01:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah, mommy n daddy dah 2 tahun bergelar suami isteri. Dalam masa 2 tahun nie, banyak juga dugaan yang mendatang. Pahit manis kehidupan... tak lari jugak dari gaduh kecik2, sampai gaduh besar2... tapi semuanya hanya mematangkan fikiran, dan merapatkan lagi hubungan suami isteri. Kalau tak bergaduh, macam mana nak berbaik kan.. hehee...

Malangnya, Sabtu tu daddy kena food poisoning... kesian daddy, seharian muntah2 dan cherry-berry... mommy pun hanya masakkan bubur nasi untuk daddy, perut tengah sakit, nak makan apa pun tak best kan... but on Sunday, daddy feels a bit better so we went to ikea, keluar pun dah tengah hari. Ramainya orang... sedangkan takde pun sales kat ikea tuh... and mommy really hates crowded places. We end up buying nothing, cuma Jalan-jalan cari makan... hehe... dah lama tak makan kat Thai Express The Curve tu... makanannyer.. okay lah, the green curry was a bit overcooked, and the SomTam have too much garlic and peanut to my liking...

Anyway, enough about that. What we do during the anniversary day... hehe, mommy manage to persuade daddy to go to zoo... lamanya tak pergi zoo... Kami sampai dalam pukul 10.30pg. Just in time untuk Animal Show @11am. Pertunjukan Singa Laut, Binturong, Burung Kakak Tua... menarik jugak sebab the animals so cute. Then, berjalan pusing2 sampai kaki mommy cramp. Penat betul.

so lastly... setelah yakin dah habis pusing satu zoo, mommy and daddy go get the tram ticket. Sesajer nak pusing satu round lagi sebelum balik. Harga tiket RM3 sorang. mahal jugak. Seingat mommy, dolu last time pergi (sebelum berkahwin ngn daddy), tram tu naik free je. Tak pelah, mahal kan nak maintain haiwan2 dalam tu. Yang tak bestnyer, haiwan2 kat situ pun macam dah kurang. Zoo Melaka lebih menarik kot sebab haiwan nya lagi banyak kan.

Mommy and Daddy headed back to the car @4.30pm. Lamakan kitorang jalan2 kat zoo. Bukan selalu datang, so kena make sure cover semua...walaupun mommy feet really is killing me.

Oh ya, the best present we had for the anniversary... sebenarnya, on that Saturday night, baby was kicking quite hard. To mommy surprise... mommy could feel baby kicking when put mommy hand on tummy. Mommy quickly ask daddy to feel it to. Amazing!!!! Rasa seronok sangat sebab before this hanya rasa baby kick gently inside, never got to feel that hard kick like that night. Mommy just can't stop laughing because feel so happy. Surely the best present for mommy and daddy and we are so excited and happy.

Mommy doakan semoga Allah sentiasa merahmati famili kecil kita dengan penuh rasa kasih-sayang, saling menghormati dan melengkapi satu sama lain. :)

3Day-Weekend again

2011-12-09T16:05:00.002+08:00

Kurang lebey satu jam lagi maka tamatlah sessi bekerja bagi minggu ini. Because the Selangor Sultan Birthday falls on Sunday, so on Monday (12/12/11), Selangor dapatlah public holiday. What makes it great, mestilah, hari Isnin itu adalah Wedding Anniversary ke-2 bagi aku dan Mr Hubby (bessnyer cuti on anniversary). Cepatnyer masa berlalu...rasa macam baru semalam kawin (hehe..ngadenyer ayat!!)

Apa yang penat memikir... how to make our second anniversary meaningful. Yalah, inilah masa dapat green-light nak romantik lebih2 sket kan... (bukan hari2 ke mmg mengade nak romantik lebih2 :p)...

If our dear unborn son, Ahmad Firdaus survive the tragic ordeal, mesti sekarang dia dah berusia 4 bulan... dan pastinyer would be great having a son celebrating our anniversary... but God Most Merciful, baby Firdaus dah pastinye masuk syurga... hati ibu mana tak happy bile tahu anak nyer jadi penghuni syurga kan :) dan dengan rahmat Allah juga, kandungan ku pun dah masuk 5 bulan... Alhamdulillah.. semoga selamat dan dipermudahkan hingga ke akhirnya..

Okay back to anniversary planning... so pilihannya samada nak masak and have romantic dinner at home atau makan luar di restoren dalam suasana romantik... atau set a picnic basket and went off to some place quiet and serene to spend time together... atau jalan2 pusing KL, pergi taman ke, zoo ke, atau museum ke... ataupun tengok movie, karaoke, main pool... shopping boleh masuk dlm list jugak ke... ataupun buat semuanya sekali... hahahaaa...

entahlah..undecided lagi.. harap2 mr hubby ader idea yg lebih bess kan.. :)

p/s: to mr hubby, thank you for two wonderful years of being such a faithful, loving, caring, and understanding husband. you are the best... and I wanna spend today, tomorrow and forever more with you by my side.

Nak Poyos Sebentar...

2011-12-07T16:55:00.002+08:00

Honestly, today is really makan2 day... Rasa macam semua makanan sedhap sesangat(squid, prawn, chicken, fish)... tambah sedhap sebab bos belanja kan.. makan free.... hahahaa...suka...

Terfikir juga, naper sekarang macam byk makan ye... then kalo cuba control( sebab nk control blood sugar), mesti badan rasa lemah... lapar sangat... susah jugak.. badan minta makanan, otak bilang ngak boleh sih...

Then terfikir... oh my growing belly, it must have everything to do with my growing belly. Seriusly, when most of the clothes no longer fit, and u r having trouble sitting properly because ur belly gets in the way... I am pretty much happy actually.. to see my belly getting bigger and bigger... seriously, no word can describe the excitement... Can I say that the growing belly is an indication that my baby is growing big and healthy?

Semalam malam first guna fetal doppler, excitednyer dengar baby nyer heartbeat, eventho bunyi dia agak faint.. and kejap2 hilang... I know my baby is in there... Seronoknya jadi perempuan, dapat merasai pengalaman macam nie.

Sekarang really2 can't wait for my next detail scan. Semoga Allah sentiasa memelihara kesihatan baby dan melindunginya dari sebarang penyakit. Amin.

Tekanan Darah (Blood Pressure) - How To

2011-12-05T14:07:00.002+08:00

Perkara yang patut kita tahu jika nak ambil tekanan darah (BP) sendiri.

1) Nak ambil tangan mana, kiri atau kanan ye?

- Kedua-dua tangan kita boleh memberi bacaaan yang berbeza ketika kita mengambil bacaan. Untuk tentukan tangan mana yang perlu digunakan, pada mulanya kita perlu mengambil bacaan dari kedua-dua belah tangan. Selepas itu, pastikan, tangan mana yang memberi bacaan lebih tinggi. Untuk bacaan seterusnya, sentiasalah gunakan tangan yang memberi bacaan lebih tinggi tadi. Jika perbezaan antara kedua belah tangan adalah melebihi 20mmHg systolic (bacaan atas/top number) ataupun melebihi 10mmHg diastolic (bacaan bawah/ bottom number), segeralah merujuk kepada doktor mengenai bacaan anda.

2) Bagaimana nak ambil bacaan?

- pakai baju lengan pendek atau mempunyai lengan baju yang longgar yang boleh disenteng dengan selesa
- sebelum mengambil bacaan, berehatlah selama 5 minit. Seeloknya duduk di kerusi yang bermeja, dalam suasana tenang dan merehatkan lengan di atas permukaan meja yang rata. Pastikan "cuff" di lengan anda sama aras dengan bahagian jantung. pastikan lengan dalam keadaan relax dan tidak tegang
-cuff dendaklah dipasang rapat tetapi tidak terlalu ketat (pastikan kita boleh memasukkan dua jari diantara cuff dan kulit)
- semasa bacaan diambil, jangan bergerak atau bercakap.
- ambil dua atau tiga bacaan berasingan selang 2 minit. Jika anda mengambil dua bacaan, pedulikan bacaan pertama, dan hanya mengambil kira bacaan kedua. Jika anda mengambil tiga bacaan, pedulikan bacaan pertama, kemudian kira purata bacaan kedua dan ketiga sebagai bacaan BP anda.

3) Berapakah bacaan normal bagi saya?

- target bagi pesakit tekanan darah tinggi adalah mengurangkan bacaan. Jika diukur di klinik oleh nurse atau doctor, bacaannya mestilah dibawah 140/85mmHg. Jika di rumah, dimana anda lebih relax, bacaan sepatutnya di bawah 130/80mmHg. Kadang-kala bacaan ini sukar dicapai dan doctor anda mungkin meletakkan target berbeza untuk anda.

4) Apakah faktor yang boleh mempengaruhi bacaan BP saya?

- Antara faktor sementara yang menyebabkana tekanan darah naik ialah senaman, mengambil minuman beralkohol, merokok, pundi kencing penuh, bercakap, gelisah, gembira, dalam kesakitan dan banyak lagi. Adalah dinasihatkan untuk merekodkan aktiviti yang anda lakukan sebelum mengambil bacaan sebagai rujukan untuk doktor anda

Untuk informasi lebih lanjut, boleh klik disini

Health Gadget

2011-12-05T13:38:00.002+08:00

Ada masanya, mesti kite tertanya-tanyakan... tubuh kita nie betul2 sihat ke? Takut sebenarnya bila dengar cerita yang orang seawal 30-an dah boleh kena serangan jantung, dan yang paling menakutkan, bile kite tak tahupun kita ada sakit tu, bile dah tahu, dah sampai tahap kronik pun.. yelah... siapa yang betul2 pergi jumpe doktor saja2 untuk buat medical check-up kan... kite jumpe doktor pun bila kita dah tak tahan sakit tu.. takat pening, migrain sikit2, selalu ambil panadol, takpun ponstan je.. doktor pun tiap kali kiter pegi atas sebab kecil2 nie, dia check kite nak tak nak je (dh la bayar duit konsultasinyer), bile minta MC, boleh la pulak buat muka yg seolah-olah menuduh kita nie saje2 buat sakit nak dapatkan MC (dh pernah kena nie, last2 terpaksa ambil unpaid leave sebab betul2 sakit, tp doktor takmau jugak bagi MC)

Anyway, disebabkan faktor-faktor ingin memonitor kesihatan sendiri (almaklumlah, usia pun makin meningkat, lifestyle lak memang laaa sangat tidak sihat..xder perkataan exercise pun dalam kamus harian), dan kebetulan ada PWP offer kat Guardian, so akhirnya Mr Hubby and I beli juga Blood Pressure Monitor (niat nak beli Omron, tapi dah Guardian punya murah giler... jadi laa..). Disebabkan ia barangan PWP, harganya cuma RM99.

(Yay!! dah ada BP monitor... hehe..so Mr Hubby, please watch out ur BP... bahaya kalau tinggi sangat ye)

Dan untuk my GDM condition, memang dah beli Glukometer, AccuCheck Performa pada pregnancy lepas. So tak perlulah nak ulang-alik kena ke KK buat BSP test setiap minggu. Sorry la ye Doc, keje saya nie tak boleh selalu ambil cuti, terpaksa la monitor sendiri and gi private je untuk check up sekarang.

Oh ye, hari ni juga aku purchase (online) Fetal Doppler, mungkin esok dah sampai (excitednyerr!!). Fetal Doppler nie gunanya untuk dengar heart beat baby dalam perut nie, juga boleh baca berapa bacaan pulse dia. If baby distress, bacaan terlalu tinggi or rendah, tak payah tunggu next appoinment doktor, boleh terus jumpa doktor untuk elak kejadian yang tak diingini. Kita hanya berusaha sehabis baik untuk pantau dan jaga kesihatan baby, yang lain, terserah kepada Allah. Lepas dh berusaha, of course la kena panjatkan doa pada Pencipta kita, semoga semuanya sihat dan selamat. :) Boleh baca pasal Fetal Doppler disini --> FETAL DOPPLER

So, lepas nie, nak beli apa pula... :p

Vision Scan @ KK

2011-11-29T16:29:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah, baby sekarang dah masuk WW18. Hari ni kite g check up kat klinik kesihatan. Lama betul, dari pukul 7.30am sampailah kembali ke kereta pukul 12.30pm.

Hari ni juga patutnya mommy dh kena buat BSP, tp dah ader appoinment check perut, then buat Vision Scan lagi, kalau nak buat BSP lagi.. ahh..penatnyer nak berkampung kat klinik tu.

Tadi check semuanya nampak normal. Lega hati mommy bile doktor kate baby okay je semua. Tapi biasalah, mommy kena tegur sebab tak buat BSP hari nie, terus bagi appoinment untuk buat BSP esoknya. Penatnye memikir nak menunggu kat klinik tu, tambahan pula, BSP ni memang asek nak kena tunggu selama dua jam untuk setiap test, lepas makan...

Okay cerita pasal vision scan pulak. Tunggu lama biasala kan, tapi semasa scan pun sangat lama... mommy raser ade la lebih satu jam sonographer tu scan baby. Mommy pun sampai dah tertido kat situ.. hehee.. Kata sonographer, baby ni active sangat, asyik bergerak2 je, so sangat susah ambil measurement. Kesian baby, mesti baby gerak2 sebab lapar kan, hehe... sebab waktu tu mommy pun lapar, tak sempat breakfast, pastu dah masuk time lunch pun... confirm lapar... nasib baik bawa air kosong, so teguk air je, habis satu botol air...

Yang agak melegakan hati mommy, bila sonographer kata no abnormalities detected... meaning semua organ-organ baby (kidney, bladder, heart, femur, ulna & etc), kedudukan uri dan baby position, saiz dan bentuk semuanya nampak normal. Heart rate dalam 146bpm. Dalam erti kata lain, alhamdulillah, syukur ya Allah sebab baby dalam keadaan sihat2 sahaja. Still, nanti kita akan check up on baby lagi week20, tak tahu lah nak buat detail scan kat private yang bayar rm100-rm120, ke nak ke vision colleage je which is FOC, kena tengok masa la camner.. kalo tak dapat nak manage masa, kite ke private je, laeipun mommy dah buat appoinment on 26 Dec nanti.

Esok kena ke klinik lagi... tak apelah, untuk baby.. walaupun terpaksa kena ambil unpaid leave esok sebab mommynyer leave dah tinggal zero... huhuhu...

As long as baby is fine and healthy, everything else doesn't matter much. Love you baby darling!!!

Mari Tambah Vocab :)

2011-11-25T10:50:00.002+08:00

ESPOUSED

Synonym :- take up, adopt, support, back, advocate, promote, champion
Antonym :- oppose

ESPOUSED VALUE

Definition:-
Corporate values and morals important to an organization. Espoused values contribute to the development of normal standards of the organization for how it conducts business now and in the future

ESPOUSED VALUE vs ENACTED VALUE
Espoused values stated values and norms preferred by organization meanwhile enacted values are norms that are exhibited by employees

Minum Air

2011-11-23T16:09:00.002+08:00

Percaya atau tak, antara perkara penting yang agak susah buat aku adalah untuk minum air. Mana taknya... aku mampu bertahan seharian hanya dengan meminum segelas air saja. Bulan puasa pun tidak begitu payah bagiku sebab selalunya aku jarang merasa dahaga (kalau dahaga pun selalu dapat je tahan sebab dh biasa tidak minum).

Pernah juga aku kena demam panas yakni suhu melebihi 39C, gara-gara mengambil ubat yang memerlukan aku minum banyak air, tapi aku biarkan je... suhu badan pun naiklah. So apabila doktor menyarankan aku untuk minum air antara 1.5liter ke 2liter sehari, memang ini suatu tugas yang berat.

Untuk tingkatkan semangat agar aku lebih berusaha mendapatkan jumlah liter air yang disarankan, aku membawa botol mineral 1.5liter ke office dan misi ku setiap hari adalah untuk mengosongkannya (kadang2 gagal jugak, tinggal 1/2 atau 1/3 lagi but I try my best). Mr Hubby pun selalu bagi semangat dan berpesan... minum air... minum air... hehe.. yalah darling...

Aku ada juga mencari di internet, sebab mengapa aku memerlukan jumlah air sebegitu dan kesannya jika aku tak ambil benda nie seriously. Apabila dah faham kenapa dan mengapa kena buat macam tu, semangat makin berkobar... yalah... untuk kesihatan baby kan, so no kompromi... kalau babitkan aku je.. hehe..keje nak mengelat ja lah...

Conclusion, I must teach myself to love water and consume water volunteerly and making it a habit. :)

My Year End Luck

2011-11-16T08:47:00.003+08:00

Actually, it is not really of a luck, but more to misfortune. Each year end, I always had a misfortune. May it be car accident or my car tyre being stolen. This time, it was my car being broken in and they stole my laptop bag, along with the company laptop, my digital camera, usb broadband, handphone, pendrives and my loose change purse. Not to mention, all my documents and pictures (which is priceless) in the laptop. And they spoil my car lock as well.

Yes, a split second decision and a 10 minutes stupidity. Normally, I won't leave my laptop bag in the car, but on 14/11/2011, 5.30pm, in Econsave Kota Kemuning, I decided to leave it because I would only be fast as I only want to buy some prawn to cook for dinner. Reason, because it gonna be quick, it's still early, 5.30pm and usually a lot of people, I park at the front side of Econsave and I hide my laptop bag under the carseat. All that doesn't prevent this misfortune happening, as if they already know I have laptop in the car (I am a frequent visitor to Econsave, maybe they have seen or aim me before :(

Yes, it is stupid. Now it was never really safe anywhere, even in broad day light or with a lot of people. I should have KNOWN BETTER... What done is done... My total estimation lost is RM6k and I need to repay for the company laptop, which is less than 1-year-old, and the secureID Device which cost around rm300. (there goes my bonus, and my severance package payment)

One thing I can say about this experience is, the police was really helpful, last time I remember accompanying my friend for police report and that's it, no follow up or what ever, but after I lodge a police report, I was directed to Section 9 Police Station to see the Sergeant who's gonna handle my case as they have open the case for investigation. My statement was recorded and I was also given the contact and need to provide them the laptop serial number, just in case...

I never hope of getting my things back, but it surely would bring me great satisfaction if the criminal are caught. There are too many bad and evil people nowadays. Before they burned in hell, I do hope they would suffer a lot of pain and misery and pay for what they've done in this life as well.

Materialistik

2011-11-14T08:34:00.004+08:00

Semalam, masa mr hubby and I dalam keta, tetiba je kuar topik nie... pasal kenapa budak sekarang, kecik2 pun dah perlukan duit yang banyak? Biasalah ada generation gap kan, so we compared dengan zaman kitorang dulu.

Dulu-dulu, mak bagi duit sekolah masa sekolah rendah rm0.50 je. Sebab bila makan kat kantin, beli nasi/ laksa rm0.30, air sirap/ kordial apa2 perasala rm0.20. Bukan sekadar sebab duit dolu lebih besar, sekarang mana nak dapat laksa atau nasi lemak sepinggan rm0.30 kan... tapi kalo naik harga pun xbeza sangat rasanye... yang beza adalah portion. Dolu ada la tiga empat urat laksa untuk rm0.30 tu, tapi xkisah, makan jer. Then nasi lemak dengan telur yang dipotong spuluh(hehe..yeker), tapi mmg kecik benarla.. ikan bilis dua tiga ekor dan sambal, okay rm0.30. okay la... kalo nak beli gula-gula pun sebiji lima sen, so rm0.10 dapat la dua biji. Aiskrim coklat vanila kegemaran aku dulu rm0.40. Aiskrim Cornetto dah dianggap cam luxury item dah sebab mahal.

Kalo mintak duit kat mak pun sebab nak beli keropok atau gula-gula. Xpun pergi makan laksa kat gerai PakLong... dalam RM2.00 dah cukup... Laksa sepinggan harga rm1.00 je. Barang lain mungkin nak beli alatan sekolah, pemadam rm0.10, pensel rm0.20... benda2 macam tu lah... then baju t-shirt yang sehelai rm5-rm10.

Sekarang, selain bebudak mintak duit nak hang out dengan kawan2 kat paling lekeh pun KFC la kan... then nak tengok movie lagi, karoeke jamban la... oh yer.. xlupa jugak duit untuk beli top up handphone utk bergayut ngan awek (dolu pakai fix line jer, xleh gayut lama2, kang mak check bil tinggi, konfem kena rotan, dulu2kan mana ada handphone)... nak duit mintak jer... sekali mintak mesti rm10 ke atas (rm10 standard org susah la kan)... so tak terkejutla... kalo budak usia 12tahun dah pecah rumah, jadik pencuri, gangster, kaki buli, pemeras ugut... sebab kecik2 dah banyak pula keperluan yang menginginkan duit. Kita dulu xpeduli sangat benda tu semua. Kalo ayah dan mak ada duit lebih, diorang bawa la kita jalan-jalan dan makan-makan, kalo tak, tak ade la jawabnyer.. xder nak demand2 kan.

Dolu masa darjah 2, aku kena tampar dengan cikgu dihadapan kelas... malu sangat dengan kawan2. Rasa marah sangat dengan cikgu, balik beritahu ayah, siap kena marah balik sebab bagi cikgu marah, kalo sekarang mesti jadik kes polis sebab cikgu dera pelajar...

Entah la... banyak bezanya, dolu kalo budak2 berkumpul mesti bermain kejar2 atau masak-masak, sekarang setiap orang dengan handphone tak pun ipad, xpun psp ditangan. Macam dah xkisah nak bersosial secara in-person... nak bersosial pun dalam facebook, takpun twitter... Parent pun nak diamkan anak senang je.. kasik je main handphone, iphone, ipad dan apa2 gadget la.. bila anak dah leka... diam lah mereka... Ada baik dan ada buruknya, tapi macam tak betul pula bila tengok, di restaurant.. makan ramai2 satu keluarga tapi masing2 sibuk belek iphone atau ipad... macam tak kena je.. bukan masa tu lagi sesuai kita berborak2 dengan ahli keluarga?

Memang dunia sekarang tanpa sempadan, tapi sempadankanlah diri kita ikut akal, ilmu, iman, dan juga berdasarkan sempadan agama. Jangan lihat siapa yang nasihatkan kita, tapi dengar intipati nasihat tu, kalo ada betulnya..tak salah kita ikut kan...

Hehe.. konten bercampur baur... itulah.. hanya menulis ikut suka ja.. apa saja yang terlintas di kepala.. :p

Hari Raya Korban

2011-11-09T09:59:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah, Ahad lepas dapat juga kita meraikan hari raya aidiladha. kali nie beraya di Kajang, rumah mertua. dan kat rumah mertua ada buat korban.

Lepas sembahyang raya, kami semua pergi beraya rumah nenek di Kajang, kemudian singgah di rumah bapa saudara Mr Hubby, Pak Mad. Hampir semua orang ada di situ sebab moyang, nenek, bapa dan ibu saudara dari Johor semua turun situ, almaklumla, esoknya Pak Mad ada buat kenduri, sempena rumah barunya. Cantik Pak Mad renovate rumah. Nampak besar dan selesa.

So lepas beraya di rumah Pak Mad, kami kembali ke rumah my MIL untuk persiapan korban. Lembunya dari semalam dah sampai, muka dia cool je, maybe dah tau nak dikorbankan kerana Allah, alhamdulillah, lembunya xder buat perangai sangat. :D

First time aku tengok orang sembelih lembu, dah lama teringin nak tengok, tapi selalunya korban buat di masjid, dan seperti biasa kalau di kampung asyik sibuk di dapur dan layan tetamu, tak sempat nak ke masjid nak tengok pun. Memang excited jugak la.

Dalam keseronokkan nak tengok lembu dikorbankan, aku terlupa. Aku terlupa yang aku dah mengajak mak (mak dan ayah tiri bersama dengan adikku dan isteri nya ke Melaka pada hari Jumaat tu) untuk singgah Kajang dalam perjalanan balik dari Melaka hari Ahad tu. Masuk saja ke bilik untuk solat Asar, aku tengok di telefon ada 6 misscall. Semua dari mak. Panggilan terakhir pukul 4.16ptg. Aku tengok jam di hadphone sudah pukul 5.09ptg. Ya Allah, mesti dorang telefon sebab nak datang. Hati dah rasa bersalah sebab terlupa bawa handphone bersama... rasa terkilan juga sebab tak dapat jumpa mak dan adikku. Mak dah bawakan sayur keladi yang aku pesan sebelum mak pergi Melaka dan pulut untuk aku.

Aku call mak balik tapi mak dah berada di sungai buluh. Ada nada kekesalan dan marah sebab aku tak menjawab panggilan sedangkan mereka dah bersungguh-sungguh nak datang. Adikku pula tak teringat jalan nak ke rumah MIL ku. Aku rasa bersalah sangat. Macam mana aku boleh terlupa langsung. Mungkin sebab kesibukan dan rasa excited sangat nak tengok orang sembelih lembu.

Malam tu aku telefon lagi. Mak macam dah okay. Alhamdulillah, harap mak tak marah lagi. Minta maaf ya mak, memang tak disengajakan. Aku sendiri harap sangat mak dapat singgah di Kajang sebelum pulang ke Kedah.

Itulah, memang kita tak boleh seronok sangat, sebab nanti kita terlupa sesuatu yang penting. Ini memang patut dijadikan peringatan dan pengajaran untuk diriku yang tak terlepas dari kelemahan manusia, iaitu sikap lupa.

Teringat sayur keladi mak. Kempunan la tak dapat makan... huhuhu...

Test

2011-11-02T14:05:00.003+08:00

Life has its millions of tests and we would never know which one would belong to us, in any given time.

As much as life has granted us with many beautiful surprises, some of it is not too pretty and most probably make us end up questioning, why did this has to happen to me, especially when we are already in a tight spot.

The best thing to do is to take on anything positively. Each thing has two side, the good and the bad. While lingering on the bad side, and not venture through the good one, we may forget, maybe there's a more exciting path lie ahead, and we would never know if we stop too long and never make that very difficult first step.

Reminder to myself, hang on there. Believe everything gonna be alright and everything happen for a reason. :)

3D/4D DetailScan

2011-10-19T10:55:00.005+08:00

Date: 19 October 2011

Tomorrow is the day we gonna have our second prenatal visit. On the first visit, the doctor advice us to go for detail scan when my pregnancy has reached 3-month or in week12. We agreed as this is to screen out any possible abnomalities that could occured. The appoinment is set for tomorrow and God knows, how nervous I am waiting for tomorrow.

My first pregnancy, my baby was diagnose of having multicyst dysplastic kidney which affect both of the kidney and drop the survival rate to zero percent, means that the baby cannot survive after birth because there is no treatment to fix the problem. Although it was a very hard decision to terminate the pregnancy at 5months, knowing that my baby heart still beating strongly, we were left with no choice.

You can read about the condition here and here.

After the confinement, we have been trying hard to conceive again as the lost was too painful to bear. And Alhamdulillah, Allah is truly Merciful and Loving. I feel so blessed when after two cycles of my period, the test result come back positive. Thank you Allah for granting our wish.

So tomorrow would be the first detailscan to detect any abnormalities, although it still cannot detect the multicycst kidney problem. We are gonna have another detail scan schedule for that purpose when my pregnancy reaches 5 or 6 months.

I am so nervous but pray hard everything would turn out alright. I love you baby. Please be strong and healthy.

The details scan turn out to be good news. The reason for the scan is to screen out down syndrom by measuring the nuchal length. Thankfully, baby measurement is 0.8mm, which is really low risk. The risk would be high if the measurement is more than 3.0mm. Thank you, Allah.

Surprise

2011-10-19T10:48:00.002+08:00

Date : 20 September 2011

Suatu hari di bulan Ramadhan.

Sebelum berbuka puasa.
Isteri: abang, raya dah nak dekat. nanti abang bagi kad raya kat saya boleh? Kita main tukar2 kad raya.
Suami: hahaaa... bolehlah, nanti abang bagi ayang kad raya.
Isteri: guna ja yang dah ada. kat dalam drawer ada banyak, yang lama2 tu. Saja ja nak seronok2...
suami: OK

Selepas berbuka puasa.
Isteri: Nah, kad raya kat abang
Suami: eh cepatnyer
Isteri: abang bacalah cepat...
Suami: Nanti tunggu raya la abang baca
Isteri: Ala.. abang bacala sekarang

(Suami pun membuka sampul kad dan buka kad)
Suami: eh, apa nie?
(Si isteri hanya tersenyum tak menjawab)
Suami: apa maksud ayang?
Isteri: hehehe.. positive laa...

(Si suami masih melihat kad raya kosong tak tertulis apa2 kecuali tertampal dua test strip (pregnancy test) yang menunjukkan dua garis purple)

Suami : Alhamdulillah (suami masih lagi tersenyum)

That is how I told the good news to my dear husband... wanna wait for a later while but was too excited that need to let it out soonest. Now I am 2-month-happily-pregnant. Alhamdulillah.

When tomorrow comes...

2011-10-19T08:12:00.000+08:00

Truly can't wait for tomorrow... *wink...wink... :)

"Jar Of Hearts"(Christina Perri)

2011-10-16T21:00:00.001+08:00

I know, I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half a life
And now you want me one more time

[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half a life
And now you want me one more time

[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

Project Started

2011-10-10T11:01:00.006+08:00

Finally, Sabtu lalu kitorang melancarkan plan 101.... destinasi pertama... (kedai dia nama PhotoCraft, kat Asian Avenue, Sunway Pyramid).

And I get this...

and macam biasa Bhutan nak interprem skali :p

Lens kecil tu Macro Lens and self-mirror. Kenapa aku pilih Instax Mini7s... hehe.. memula I am thinking between Mini 25 and Mini7s, then I got to know that we can attached Holga Wide Lens and Holga Fish Eye lens kat Mini7s, tapi susah nak dapat kat Malaysia, tanyer2 asyik takde stock je.. takpe..nanti turun Johor, boleh g Singapore, dengar kata kat sana ada. Mr Hubby cadangkan amek Instax 210, guna wide film, besar sket gambar nyer, instead of credit card size picture, but then film besar, kamera dia pun besar jugak laa kan... and I really wanna have those fish eye extension lens which only Mini 7s have...

Banyak lagi benda nak kena beli tapi nampaknyer akan bermulalah project a.k.a hobby baru tak lama ja lagi... nak tau ape dia... heheee..tunggu bile dah siap nanti ;)

p/s:- thinking of buying another analogue camera... lomography is gonna be a great new hobby...

Darah

2011-10-06T14:42:00.005+08:00

Rasenyer ramai yang tau kan, baru2 nie ada kes kat hospital yang si ibu yang baru lepas C-zer utk lahirkan baby, telah dimasukkan darah yang berlainan dengan kumpulan darah beliau dan meyebabkan berlakunya komplikasi. Apa taknya, darah O di masukkan darah A, mana boleh... bahaya sangat.. mcm manalah benda macam nie boleh terjadi...

Kalo diikutkan, kesilapan kecil macam silap cucuk jarum sampai tangan lebam2 ke, boleh dimaafkan, tapi kecuaian macam nie yang boleh membawa maut jika tak dikesan... bayangkan kalo jadi kat kita atao keluarga kite...

Nape cakap pasal darah harinie... hehe..sebabnyer semalam Mr Hubby dok mengomel kata nak derma darah. Last time derma darah time sebelum bulan puasa, so sekarang ni dah dua bulan, boleh la nak derma lagi... w/pun seeloknya 3 bulan, tapi dah biasa, xder masalah ape.. okaylah...

Mr Hubby darah O, so elok sangatla nak derma kan... semua orang boleh pakai darah dia, kalo aku perlukan darah pun boleh amek kat dia... heheee... penderma universal la katakan. Aku pula darah A. Yang peliknya, selalu bank darah nie kekurangan darah A dan memerlukan darah A. Tak ramai orang darah A g derma darah ke? Apa pun, Mr Hubby tak dapat guna darah aku... sedihkan... so dia kena derma banyak2 so nanti kalo dia perlu darah, banyak darah O kat bank (hehe..boleh ke nak fikir macam tu... mcm kelakar jek :p)

Derma darah nie seronok... sebab lepas tu badan kita dapat bina darah-darah baru, so kita pun lebih sihat. Tak sakit pun. Moral diri pun rasa bes sebab rasa macam dah membantu orang, walaupun kita tak tahu siape yg kita bantu.

Sekarang nak godek2 kat mana ader roadshow kempen derma darah nie, nak gie PDN susah, maklumla...kitorang jauhkan. Selalu cari2 kat web dia tengok mana lokasi terdekat dorang buat. Harap2 adalah nanti. :)

Untuk Jadual Dan Lokasi Pendermaan Darah boleh rujuk di SINI

My Sister's Keeper (Jodi Picoult)

2011-10-04T17:03:00.004+08:00

It have been a very long while since I have done any reading. I love reading so much, as much as I love writing (tho not being very good at it), but time always a constraint and I found myself more and more difficult to finish reading even one book a week. Last time, it only takes me one to three days to complete reading a book. However, last weekend, I bought myself a book. Actually, I am not planning of buying any book (most book I bought recently are about cooking, and I seldom cook too... hahaaa).

It was Mr Hubby idea to enter the bookstore and get a book for him. while he was on his never ending conquest, I went on and browse a few book on the shelf. Browsing through the title, and reading some of the synopsis that the title interest me. Then I come to this book "My Sister's Keeper". Reading the synopsis then read few of it pages and it got me hook. Nevertheless, I pick it up and went over the counter. Keshing!!! The book is mine.

It really quite interesting. It's a story of a mother (Sara), who has a child (Kate) suffer from leukimea... because there's no matching donor, the doctors and the parent decided to try "create" a donor. So the mother, Sara actually have the doctor's create a specific embryo, with a genetic that would suit her sister without any complication. And Sara would gain another daughter (Anna) as a result. After series of blood tranfusion, tests, to the point that Anna need to give up one of her kidney, Anna decided that it's enough. So she file a suit to her parents for the right over to her own body.

The emotional and drama really keep me reading on and on. Cannot imagine what I'll do if I am in the same situation. I am still in the first chapter (only reading few pages at night before sleep), just can't wait until it get to the juicy part.

A good reading. It already been made to a movie, eventho I never knew bout the movie. Hope can finish it before end of this week. :)

A Short Synopsis

Anna is not sick, but she might as well be. By age thirteen,
she has undergone countless surgeries, transfusions, and shots so that her older
sister, Kate, can somehow fight the leukemia that has plagued her since
childhood. The product of preimplantation genetic diagnosis, Anna was conceived
as a bone marrow match for Kate - a life and a role that she has never
questioned… until now.

Like most teenagers, Anna is beginning to
question who she truly is. But unlike most teenagers, she has always been
defined in terms of her sister - and so Anna makes a decision that for most
would be unthinkable… a decision that will tear her family apart and have
perhaps fatal consequences for the sister she loves. My Sister's Keeper examines
what it means to be a good parent, a good sister, a good person. Is it morally
correct to do whatever it takes to save a child's life… even if that means
infringing upon the rights of another? Is it worth trying to discover who you
really are, if that quest makes you like yourself less?

SOurce FROM JODIPICOULT

Plan

2011-09-29T12:27:00.002+08:00

Remembering the good ol days, when I was very ambitious, full of passion, and on top all of that, I like being very spontaneous. Meaning, if I wanna do something, I just go and do it without second thought, because the only thing that matter is whatever happening at that precise time. Never think of any consequences. And of course, it landed me in a big pile of mess, most of the time. I am bless though as whenever I've messed up, there's always someone or some event that turn up to get me out of it. Talk about being lucky (of course not all the time, life isn't full of bed of roses after all).

Learning from the mistakes, I adore the benefit of having a plan. Therefore, whatever I am doing now, especially if it's a big thing, I would prefer having a plan laid out first before ever thinking of diving into the hot water. Some people may interupt now and then, without knowing, they actually are messing up with the plan and sometimes instil some lingering thoughts that keep swimming in my head. Once a while, whether I realize or not, it influence my decision making ability, and I would have a change of plan (don't really like it when it happen, but maybe it is the Plan of the bigger forces, Allah know the best plan there is for us, we just need to believe and pray hard).

But, nothing beats of having a plan. One of the goodness of it is having time to prepare. May it be financially , physically or mentally. We need to be prepared in all aspects, so no matter if the result is good or bad, we can contained the consequences, and strive towards living a better life. It is so easy to succumb to our injured heart or soul and blame the world for letting it happened because the right things were never the easiest thing to do in the first place, but if we choose the right way, be rest assure that everything would be alright. A year or two from now, we would be looking back and be thankful that we have make the right choice after all. :)

Home

2011-09-28T16:32:00.002+08:00

On Tuesday, around 1am, my other half have safely arrived home (alhamdulillah, syukur for his safe journey home). Funny tho, because he has those unkept face, with mustache and goatie... ayayayaaaiii... i never saw this kind of image before... luckily, the next morning, it's all gone... now that the face I've been longing to see... clear, smiling face...

so one by one my checklist are being uncheck. We sent the washing machine for repair.. quite expensive tho, around rm280 but to buy new one would cause more so maybe we try repair first, if it broke down again, then it's time to buy new one. My washing machine is now 6 years old already... 5 years warranty also expired edi. (I always find that things only go wrong/ broken just after its expiry date, hurm, then why I always bought that extra warranty period? haha... I am a consumer after all)

what else to write?? oh my mind so blur... actually just wanna go home. so lazy to work today... apalah... asyik terbayang2 katil je.. sleepy head..sleeepyy head...

nanti2 la merepek lagi.. bye..

Finally...

2011-09-26T13:35:00.002+08:00

Tonight is the moment I've been waiting for, inshaAllah Mr Hubby gonna be back home.. yay!!!

Now I can continue with all my pending plan, which include... I wanna treat myself again @Famous Thai Restaurant... I wanna eat SOMTAM... shedapnyerrr... meleleh2 air liur (drooling abess!!) juz by thinking about it...

So happy and excited to welcome Mr Hubby home.. It has been 3 very long weeks since I saw him... oh sangat menyeksakan... macam mana la pasangan yang terpaksa berjauhan berbulan2 tu survive yek...

Last night I have trouble getting sleep. Imagine my eyes were still wide open @4am.. I don't know at what time did I sleep but I woke up again @5.45am. No, can't go back to sleep after that. And I am anticipating that I would be super drowsy at work today, to my surprise, I am more alert that I usually was. Weird!!! Maybe it was the excitement of waiting for my Pumpkin Pie, Honey Bunny, Labu... hehee...

Last Saturday, my sister came here and we went to my niece's house in Telok Gong, Klang. It was my first time going there even tho the place is quite near to my house... maybe after the first time, there'll be many2 visit to come. My sister cooked her special Soto Ayam, and my niece served us her Rendang Ayam kampung, eaten with Nasi himpit... I memang sukerr giler ayam kampung... after kambing and itik laa..

She doesn't stay overnight @ my house so on Sunday, I am all alone again. It was very bad since I am not feeling well. Nobody to take care of me... so sedey :'(
Oh, that might be one of the factor I can't sleep as well...

so there's a lot of reason to be excited when knowing my other half coming back. I hate being alone for so long... Now my mind could only think of taking off for vacation... why?? Stress work and etcetera..etcetera....

Pray that mr hubby would have a smooth and safe journey home. Amin.

Malacca Again

2011-09-19T13:39:00.002+08:00

Sudah hampir dua minggu Mr Hubby offshore, really hope by this week, he could already come home. There are so many pending items nak buat, tp saja ja nak tunggu Mr Hubby (bukan xleh buat sendiri).. biasa la..org dh kawin nie manja sket, dolu masa belum kawin boleh ja independent. Orang nak tolong pun takmau..semua nak buat sendiri.. girl power la katakan... hehee

Last weekend adalah a long weekend (3-day-weekend) sempena hari Malaysia. So following initial plan before Mr Hubby knows that he need to go offshore, our plan was to go to Malacca... konon nak raya rumah2 sedara mara kat sana... sadly, tak jadi, but I still went to Malacca, it's great that my friend can accompany me until Malacca (she's going back Muar, so her sister would fetch her from Malacca), kalo tak drive sorang2... bosan...

Okay cerita pasal weekend di Malacca, sampai sana on Friday around lunch time, so take lunch, send off my friend to her pick up point, then lepak2 doing nothing at my sister house. On saturday, all of us go to Blue Lagoon, PD, picnic and BBQ. Memula cuaca memang nampak sangat macam nak ujan, then tetiba, rintis2 hujan itu di bawa pergi oleh angin yang berlalu, alhamdulillah, so acara BBQ kitorang dapat berjalan dengan lancar.

Ada macam2 seafood for BBQ, ketam, udang, ikan merah, ayam dan sosej... then my sister masak nasi goreng and keowteow goreng some more. Wallaweh... banyaknyerr makan... Pas perut masing2 dah kekenyangan, apalagi... kite ke laut laaa untuk MANDI!!!!! Masa kitorang turun mandi, air yang pasang tadi dah surut... so JAAUHHHH benor laaa kena berjalan mencari kawasan yang agak2 dalam... hahaaa..penat berjalan tao! Dah siap mandi, bedal satu round lagi makan, then balik.

Esoknya pulak, my sister masak laksa and bihun sup sebab kawan my sister's hubby nak datang. Sedapnya layan laksa... dh lama xmakan laksa cam tu... really taste like homemade cooking. Dua pinggan laksa dan 1 pinggan bihun sup tao, aku sempat makan sebelum bersiap untuk balik KL. (banyak nyer makan kan)

Still continue journey home with my dear friend. Seb baik jugak sebab there was a traffic jam along Seremban - Nilai road. Ada eksiden la pulak. So perjalanan 1j45min telah memakan masa 2j30min... xper2, asalkan selamat sampai, syukur alhamdulillah...

Kalau cuti, time really flies... kejap je dah Isnin and back to work with the headache and stress of never ending task. Makan gaji..macam tu lahh...

Hope2, one day dapat jadik boss sendiri... Insha-Allah :)

Reading Alert!!!

2011-09-15T20:04:00.003+08:00

Don't believe everything you read on the internet. I am, as many of us are, love to get my information from dear Mr.Google. Almost everything from programming issues, romantic surprise ideas, how to DIY, to the point of self diagnose for any health complication or concerns.

I remember meeting up with my Gynae and when I explain to him what I have read and ask him to verify my finding, he really just laugh at me. He said, people love to be their own doctor and it's not good. We put ourself in a difficult position where we would worry ourself to SICK (death is too harsh a word :p)...

After laughing he finally explain in great details of what and what. Yeah, he's the expert, that's why I pay for the high fee consultation... hahahaaa... so DONT BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU READ!! Your doctor would know best :)

Same goes with every other things. As for DIY to see it works or not, you just gotta try yourself. especially any tips people claim to works miracles... aight!!!

Void

2011-09-12T17:58:00.002+08:00

Sad...sad...
sebab Mr Hubby still outstation... still super lonely @home... :(

Sad... sad...
sebab ari sabtu lepas, waktu nak cuci laundry, washing machine broke down... sebab dah letak air n detergent, end up kena cucian tangan... takkan nak hantar dobi lak baju yg dah basah dan berdetergent... alahai...

Sad... sad...
task @work now overdue... back to being delayed... bad2 reputation...

actually... I'm not really that sad... small matter la benda2 atas tu, but the top list tu yg tak tahan... really2 miss Mr Hubby... baru 1 week berjauhan, dah rasa lama giler.. and Mr Hubby said it's gonna be for another 3weeks... alahai... lama nyerrr!!!

Hurry back home darl, really2 missing you a great lot!!!

Otak

2011-09-11T21:15:00.003+08:00

Dalam otak, ada macam2 benda... yg gelap, hitam, kelam... yang putih, terang, cerah... yang indah, berwarna-warni, dan penuh misteri...

Hurm... banyak benda kan.. semua bercampur baur... happy, yes, skang mmg happy... Alhamdulillah, syukur sangat dengan segala kurniaan Allah... dlm happy2, terselit jugak rasa risau, sedih.. macam2 lah... tapi normal lah kan... bess sangat kalo kita boleh choose apa yg kita nak keep dan yg mana nak delete... oh mana ada thrill hidup kalo macam tu kan...

yes, yes, life dan cabarannya... Insha-Allah, +ve thinking lead to +ve outcome

Tak mo stress2... be happy..happy... even if sad, make it a happy-sad (macam citer amitha bachan tu.. hehee)....

Entri Lepas Beraya di Kedah

2011-09-06T08:07:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah, kehadiran 1syawal lepas terasa meriahnya. Kali nie turn aku lak beraya di Kedah ngn Mr Hubby. Sebelum balik Kedah, kami singgah tido Kajang dolu hari Sabtu tu, then ari Ahad baru gerak balik Kedah.

Nasib baik la trafik tak teruk sangat, cuma jem disesetengah tempat ja. Semua berjalan lancar dan kami selamat tiba kat umah kakak aku kat Kg Selamat dalam pukul 5petang kot. So kena tunggu jugak utk buka puasa. Then my sister bgtao buka puasa kat rumah SIL dia di Tasek Gelugor. Best betul makan. My Sis buat Soto ayam while her SIL buat lauk kerabu kacang botol, kari ikan, ikan goreng, bess sangat makan ramai2.

Esoknya, hari Isnin, pagi2 lagi, kami ramai2 balik ke Kupang, Baling, Kedah. Esoknya kan rayerr.. :) Sampai kampung, semua dah sibuk2 prepare nak masak lemang. Mr Hubby excited betul nak buat lemang. Tok lapikkan buluh dengan daun pisang, PakLong Cop tukang sediakan buluh dan masuk beras pulut dalam buluh. Mr Hubby, me and my bro jugak sibuk2 nak masukkan beras pulut jugak. Then mak pulak masukkan santan dalam beras pulut tu.

Dah siap, angkat g tempat bakar. Pak Tih lak bertanggungjawab naikkan tempat bakar. Org kedah panggil "Panggaq Lemang" hehehee Mr Hubby sekali lagi berjaya mensibukkan diri nak bakar lemang jugak. Banyak jugak lemang buat kali nie, dalam 50 batang ada kot, sebab PakTih dan Paklong Cop pun ada share depa sekali :p

Pas dah siap lemang, buat ketupat palas pulak. First time aku pass balut ketupat palas. Sebelum nie buat asyik jadek ketupat betina ja.. so sonok gak aa sebab dah berjaya. jgn pasnie lupa lak dah laa.. heheee

Hari Raya pertama, ramai2 g sembahyang raya di Masjid Kupang. Pastu biasa lah g raya umah sanak saudara yg lain. Uish.. makan ja kan hari2 raya niee...

Kami balik semula Shah Alam hari Jumaat, tu pun terkena jem jugak... penat jugak laa.. penat makan plus perjalanan yg asyik sangkut2... xpelah..xjem, tak rasa meriah raya kan.. kata kakak aku.. :p

Sebab hari raya asyik makan jer... so minggu nie aku terus sambung ganti puasa dan puasa sunnat. Bagi badan rehat sket. Nanti weeken makan lagi, open house lee katakan, so apa salahnya kan puasa waktu weekdays.

Selamat hari Raya semua.. jgn makan banyak sangat time open house ;)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri :)

2011-08-25T12:09:00.001+08:00

Voucher

2011-08-23T05:32:00.005+08:00

Tanggal 23 Ramadhan, so lagi 7 hari jek nak raya. Semangat raya dah ada... tapi baju raya belum beli lagi.. hehehe.. nk kena tunggu mr hubby beli baju dia dolu, sebab baju dia punya lah susah nak dapat... sabar je la kan...

Hari Sabtu lepas, kitorang menghabiskan voucher yang aku dapat.

Kan tempat keje aku salu jek buat contest. selalunya tak pernah menang pun. Tapi bulan nie, alhamdulillah, rezeki aku plak. Walau tak banyak, jadilah kan. Rezeki...

Voucher KFC aku dapat dalam contest teka siapa pemenang perlawanan bola sepak antara staff Spansion. Kitorang guna buat berbuka puasa di KFC, dapat la merasa O.R Quater Chicken yang dengan black pepper sauce tu. Aku tak suka sangat sebab sangat masin. Nasib baik kitorang order snake plate jugak.

Voucher RM50 sebab menang photo contest. Gambar aku hantar dapat tempat ketiga ja. Ok la kan.. hehe... dapat la aku beli handbag satu di Parkson. Tambah another RM50 jek... parkon kan tengah sale. Belian RM150 akan dapat voucher RM10. So dapat plak extra voucher RM10. Belum guna lagi. Nantilah, time cari baju raya.

Lastly voucher Jusco, dapat sebab menang game time TeamBuilding. aku guna untuk beli 2 kotak air Peel Fresh dan 3 katon Vitagen. Ingat ke nak amek la kasut atau baju di Jusco, malangnya, satu pun aku tak berkenan... tak pe... buat beli air jer untuk berbuka puasa. Janji free kan..

Itulah saje update saye kali nie.. sekian...

update Jumaat

2011-08-19T12:05:00.005+08:00

Nak update..nak update gakk... banyak citer nie.. tpkan.. gambar xder dlm laptop ni lak...

Kena tunggu balik rumah lah nampaknyerr..

[update selepas balik umah]

Nak update pasal:
1) Buka puasa ngn best fren masa sekolah rendah dan sekolah menengah dolu.. siyes.. dh berpuluh tahun tak jumpe (always feels old when I said this.. hehe)
-- inilah gambar kitorang.. dah ada anak pun dorang, aku ja masih blom ada rezeki..

Tengah2 tu namanya Ann, satu kampung ngn aku dolu. satu kelas masa sekolah menengah sampai form 3. Memang rapat sangat dolu. dolu ayah dan mak aku selalu keje shift malam, so Ann dan Olynn (sorang lagi kawan kami, xder kt dlm gambar nie) yang selalu teman aku. Kitorang kalo dah lepak sekali, macam2 gossip. Kuat merayau dengan basikal sampai seharian, balik ja kena marah ngn ayah Ann... hahaha padan muka.

Yang tepi tu Zura. Member sejak sekolah rendah. Dari darjah 1 xsilap aku. sampai sekolah menengah kitorang rapat. Selalu gie camping sama2, masak beger tepi sungai, buat kajian tempatan sama2. Memang bess sangat dolu.

Malam tu, kitorang first time jumpa setelah lama lost contact. Wajah nya xbanyak berubah, tapi style of course dah berubah. makin ayu dan cantik kan. Anak-anak dorang, Afrina(anak zura) dan Husna (anak Ann) sangat comel kan??

2) Biskut MIL (tart nanas) and Mr Hubby (choco chip cookies) buat... I cuma jadi pembantu merangkap tukang sibuk.. hehee
-- Ini dia biskut yang berjaya disiapkan. MIL kasi kitorang satu balang satu jenis. TQ mama... hehe...dapat la buat bekal balik kedah nanti..

3) Muka buku - antara kebaikannya, dapat contact balik budak2 belajar masa sekolah rendah.. oo bestnyerr... harap2 balik kg raya nie dapat jumper some of them.
--Ini lak photo masa sekolah rendah... darjah 4Merah, sekolah Kebangsaan Tasek Gelugor, Pulau Pinang... boleh teka tak yang mana satu aku.. :p

Aku no 3 dari kiri.. baris depan sekali..comel kan [ahhh, perasannyer!!!]

4) Atos; time for service again
Esok masa untuk service Atos. Tukar timing belt,alternator belt, aircond belt,ATF, tayar pe semua... sebab..?? kan nak balik raya nanti... lagipun korang nak tau usia tayar belakang aku. Kat tayar tu tertera tahun 2005, means dah 6 tahun usianya... hahahaa... gila kan pakai tayar sampai 6 tahun.. nasib baik xde apa2. Sebab dolu setiap kali nak tukar, tengok bunga dia tebal laei..skang pun bunga still tebal, tapi dah keras nak mampus laa tayar tu..amik selekoh kalu laju2.. mau buang tayar tuu.. mintak simpang la jauh2 kan. Tayar depan dah 3 kali tukar, cepat betul botaknya. Memang tayar belakang lansung xmakan bunga, tapi tayar depan... hurm.. maybe sebab berat engine kat depan kot..entahlaaa.. Anyway, service kali nie sangat penting. Banyak benda kena tukar la tu.. boleh nampak $$$ melayang..tapi satgie nak p cari barang kat kedai sparepart jer.. jimat sket kan.. bw bengkel bayar labour charge jek..

Hopefully nanti selamat perjalanan pergi dan balik berhari raya.. Insha-Allah..

Diabetes?

2011-08-15T08:10:00.003+08:00

On last saturday, I have this dizzy and light-headed feeling that lasted until Sunday. Mr Hubby suggested maybe because I slept too much (normally I do not sleep during day time because it would cause me headache) due to lack of sleep (lack?? hehe.. it's more to pushing my self to sleep later than I usually does). But I just don't feel good.

So after 2hours of breaking fast on Staturday, which we have singgang daging, sambal belacan with ulam kacang botol and fried chicken, with homemade soy beans drink, as our menu, I did some blood test. The result is quite shocking because it reads 8.5 while my husband only 6.1 (and we have the same thing, with the same amount)...

This really gets me worry. You know, I really afraid if I had diabetes. It one of the disease I was really afraid of. So for now on, back to watching whatever I ate. Especially white rice. I know its not THAT BAD, but I just have to take precaution as I don't want it to be worst.

Really hope I could control this. :(

Nasi oh nasi...

2011-08-12T08:09:00.002+08:00

Memang, kalo ikutkan, bulan puasa nie tak nak makan nasi, tapi disebabkan Mr Hubby kurang suka makan benda2 berasaskan noodles, susah sket kan. Lagi pun kat cafe tempat keje nie, xbanyak pilihan lain kecuali nasi (amboi..banyak nyer alasan...)

Actually, my workplace memang ada sponsor RM4/day untuk meal allowance. So sebab bulan puasa kan xmakan, so biasanye akan tapau bawa balik lauk atau kuih ke rumah. Dolu dah try amek kuih-muih, balik pulak masak pasta, atau makanan western lain, tapi selalunyer kuih muih tu cam terbuang jer sebab dah kenyang makan benda lain. Nak tak nak, untuk elakkan pembaziran (dan tak payah susah2 masak kat rumah... hehe), kire dterpaksalah aku tapau nasi dan lauk balik.

Memang dah dua hari nie makan nasi, tapi aku ambil nasi sebungkus jer, share dua orang ngn mr hubby (saja xnak masak nasi.. kang nasi terbuang jer), then amek lauk. Semalam, aku tapau nasi sebungkus, isi ikan sweat sour, kari ikan tongkol (ikan amek seketul jer) dan bubur lambuk satu. Niat hati biarlah bubur lambuk tu makan untuk sahur. Tapi, on second thought, biler dh sampai rumah, terfikir, best nie kalo beli roti cicah kari ikan tu... hahaha...

Sayur kat cafe memang dorang xder buat, so balik semalam just masak sayur jer, cendawan and broccoli, masak dengan sos tiram, letak lada hitam sket. Done! Berbukalah kami dengan nasi sorang separuh, sayur cendawan broccoli, dan ikan sweet sour. Itu pun punyalah kenyang. Mr Hubby kata, bulan puasa perut jadik kecik, tu sebab makan sket pun dah kenyang... memang betullah tu.

Bubur lambuk tak bersentuh pun, letak dalam peti ais jer bersama dengan kari ikan. bangun sahur, aku panaskan bubur lambuk dan kari ikan. Mr Hubby makan roti cicah kari jek, aku lak makan bubur lambuk separuh, pastu roti dua keping. Kesian bubur lambuk tu, tak dapat dihabiskan jugak. Simpan dalam peti ais lagik... nak buang sayang, rasa membazir pulak.

Hari nie memang kena beli sket jer. Dah tahu selalu makan tak banyak pun. Kang membazir je makanan tu... sayang...

Sahur esok pula, niat nak buat Banana oat milk shake. Banana bekalkan tenaga, dan oat mengeyangkan, rasa cukup kot untuk bertahan sepanjang hari...

Hehe..panjang lak membebel di pagi Jumaat nie... macam la korang nak tau sangat apa yang aku makan kan... apapun, bulan Ramadhan mengingatkan kita agar bersederhana. Ambil kesempatan nie kaji balik diet harian kiter. Kita orang Malaysia nie memang banyak dapat penyakit disebabkan makanan. Kena jaga sangat apa yang masuk perut.

Makanan asas kesihatan. :)

Envy

2011-08-11T15:22:00.003+08:00

"Each time you look at other people's life, and the envy creep in your heart, know that there's someone out there, envying your life. Anyway, you choose how to live your life, so no point in envying others"

Hehe... entry tak boleh blah... nak sedapkan hati...

Happy 11th Ramadhan!! Semoga Allah menjauhkan kita dari rasa cemburu dan iri hati pada orang lain. :)

p/s: korang penah rasa tak, tetibe macam sayang sangat kat hubby? Sesungguhnya Allah memang mengetahui pasangan yang terbaik utk kita kan... dan menghembuskan rasa cinta kita pada pasangan kita <3

Menu Sihat ke?

2011-08-10T15:43:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah, dah sepuluh hari kita berpuasa kan... ntah nape ntah...puasa tahun nie rasa bess sket.. hari 1st puasa, siyes perut lapar giler.. dalam kol 10pagi camtu dah pening kepala, rasa loya dan perut berbunyi2..tapi dah masuk hari ke-4 , ke-5, dah okay... pastu makan sket pun dah kenyang. Makanan walaupun dah masak sket atau beli sket jer, punyer la susah utk kami laki bini habiskan. Hehe.. ada chance turun beratla nie kan nanti... :p

Disebabkan Mr Hubby nyer kolestrol naik, (berat pun naik jugak.. hehe), aku try la nak kontrol diet dia, (diet aku jugak la). Sebolehnya, nak bagi menu2 sihat jerr.. tapi susah juga tao nak sediakan menu sihat. Masakan melayu tahu-tahu jelah, tak bersantan, mesti berminyak, bergoreng... yang berlemak dan berminyak tu lah yang sedap.

Ingredient utama adalah oat. Baru aku tahu rupanya oat nie boleh masak banyak benda. Kata orang, masak apa pun, campak je masuk oat. Asam pedas, sup sayur, bubur nasi, lempeng, cucur, dan banyak2 lagi la... tapi kata nak sihat, so kalo makan oat tapi asyik bergoreng je, dah jadik tak sihat... kena yang berebus la kan.

Pilihan pula terhad, sebab Mr Hubby nyer luka operation kat ibu jari kaki belum heal lagi. Jahitan pun belum buka, so xleh la nak masukkan seafood or ayam. Asyik2 ikan.. takpelah.. ikan kan baik untuk kesihatan. Rehatkan sikit perut nie dari bekerja keras. :D

Tak de ape pun nak cerita sebenarnyer. hehe ..tengah malas nak buat keje, sebab otak blur.. buntu takde idea.. so rehat kejap..

back to work now!!

Eye Test

2011-08-08T07:53:00.005+08:00

Alhamdulillah, weeken lepas dapat jugak balik rumah in-law buka puasa di sana. Niat awalnya, hari Sabtu nak berbuka puasa di sana, sampai2 saja, MIL suruh buka puasa umah nenek, sebab atuk asyik sebut2 jer.. laeipun, haritu waktu buat makan2 umah nenek sebelum puasa tu, kitorang tak dapat datang. Anyway hari Ahad tu, dapat jugak buka puasa umah in-laws sebelum gerak balik Shah Alam.

Nak cerita..pasal ape nyer.. okay, first, yesterday, Sunday, pergi lah ke MINES untuk beli contact lens yang dah habess.. Jauh kan pergi nak beli contact lens, kenapa.. kat Shah Alam xder ke? Sebenarnyer..waktu awal2 lagi, back in 2007 memang aku sangat suka g kedai spec tu, Sunglasses and Vision World kat Mines. Salah satu sebab ialah customer service dia sangat bagus. Laeipun, masa dia check mata, dia check betul2. Last time aku malas nak pergi Mines, buat spec kat kedai dalam Carrefour Bukit Rimau, baru last year, tapi power macam dah xbetul dah, betul ke time dia check mata? Dia buat eye test gitu2 jek... tak detail pun...

Test card untuk test mata ... hehe

Berbalik pada eye test, nasib baik hari aku pergi, dia punyer senior optometrist ade. Memula niat nak amek colour lenses macam biasa... biasa lah aku sangat suka kaler2 kan... but then after eye test sangat terkejut tengok power... last time aku di perscribe dengan power -5.75(R) dan -6.25(L), sekarang check2, dia cakap dah naik sampai -6.50(R) dan -7.50(L)... ayoyo... pastu dia terangkan yang mata aku makin teruk sebab lapisan paling luar mata dah makin menghilang, so mata cepat kering terutama kalu xpakai contact lens. So dia advice guna extended wear contact lens untuk dapatkan oxygen flow yang bagus. Kang takut mata lagi teruk. Dia jugak advice aku buat eye test every 6 months. Huhu, sedihnyerr... Hati mula terfikir nak kumpul duit buat laser treatment untuk betulkan mata. Xyah pakai spec or contact lens dah.

Nak tak nak... aku terpaksa lupakan colour lenses dan amek yang clear punyer for extended wear. Normal wear walaupun lebih murah, it's not good for long run. Tak apelah... still boleh pakai untuk special occasion kan.. :)

Tapi optometrist tu explain sangat details. Dia cakap if nak lagi bagus pakai yang daily punyer, tapi maintainance sangat tinggi kan kalo nak guna tu, so dia suruh tunggu next month biler new product keluar, lenses yang last for two weeks. One year would only cost around RM400. Kira okay sangat la kan... :D Sebab dia nak aku tahu rasa perbezaan antara daily and montly lense, dia bagi 3 pair daily lense as trial.

Itulah cerita pasal test mata aku. Kena banyak2 makan carrot pas nie.

Untuk berbuka tu, kitorang pergi bazaar ramadhan kat Bangi. Beli Roti John satu, Murtabak Singapura satu (lebih kurang sama ngn yang masuk jalan2 cari makan tu, tapi aku rasa biasa jek, murtabak biasa lagik best), mee bandung muar satu, dan air lai chee kang. Kat umah lak, my MIL dah masak bihun goreng, kari ayam dan pizza. FIL amek bubur lambuk kat masjid. Pastu ada cucur udang lagi. Banyak kan makanan... hehee.. tak apelah sekali-sekala, makan ramai2...

picture credit to mr google

Have we become careless or CARE LESS now...

2011-08-04T07:59:00.004+08:00

Story nie baru je happen yesterday. Pity mr hubby sebab kena admit hospital to remove his toenail yang rosak teruk. So after 1day admitted into the ward for the operation at KPJ Specialist @Shah Alam, mr hubby dah boleh keluar. Kesian dia jalan henjut2 sebab masih berbisa lagi kesan pada toenail tu. Bayangkan toe yang memang akan terasa tekanannya biler kite berjalan kan. Bertambah kesian sebab kena check out sendiri sebab time tu aku keje... :(

Then tengahari semalam, after check out, mr hubby berjalan la dengan terhenjut-henjutnya, slow sangat dia jalan nak pergi ke kereta di parking. This is at PARKING LOT yer, yang normally people would put sign like 20kmph, most of us never follow the speed limit, right? That's include me as well, but we never speeding in parking lot, especially in hospital compound. Well, mr hubby wanna cross the parking road to his car, when a lady driver, instead of give way to him to pass first, she just drive thru, almost hitting mr hubby. What's the rush for? Imagine if you are at his place??

It would do great different if you give ways to sick, pregnant lady, elderly, kids when they are crossing the road. I remember having a cute boy rewarding me a wave and a smile of thanks when I gave way to him to cross, and it make me smile a whole day because I have did something good that day.

Come to think, I do admit that some Malaysian drive like mad, and this people are so selfish that they never think of other driver. Having a maniac skill of I-am-the-best-driver-in-town attitude, and exposing others to danger everyday. No wonder you can read about fatal accident on the road, daily in the newspaper.

Just try your best to be courteous, not becoming too coward by driving extra slow in highway or take forever to enter a roundabout or too brave until not caring about other safety. After two times involved in accident and having an awful time having the car stranded in workshop for months, I seriously don't want to experience it again.

Yes, I am in support of courteous driving skill and a better parking skill.

Factory Shutdown

2011-08-01T16:12:00.004+08:00

Start sudah hari pertama bekerja masa Factory Shutdown. Memula ingat mmg besh nie wat keje xder org nak ganggu2.. ataupun telingaku diterjah oleh suara hi-pitch Aso itu, namun, reality xseindah fantasi. Memanglah electricity ader, tapi aircond... NO AIRCOND!!! dah ler hari pertama start puasa kan... sabar yerr..sabar...

Panas nie.... memang panas.. xder kipas lak tu..suffocate giler... kepala sile jgn start sakit yer... [napelah boss xkasik jer permission work from home] sedih...sedih... demi mencari sesuap nasi.. xapelah... ada orang siap kena kerja di bawah matahari terik lagi, takpun kena berdiri seharian... bersyukurlah dengan pekerjaan yg kuperolehi ini :)

Masih ada 4 hari to go bagi menghadapi situasi ini... Moga dapat bertahan hingga ke akhirnyerr... [macam lerr trukss sgt kondisi nyer kan... hehehe]

okay2... kepada semua yang beragama Islam, selamat menjalani ibadah puasa. Doakan supaya puasa kita tahun ini lebih baik dari tahun2 sebelumnya. Ingat, puasa bukan sekadar menahan lapar dan dahaga, hati, mata, anggota badan, percakapan, etc... semuanya kena jaga yer. Insha-Allah :)

SETERESSS!!!!

2011-07-25T16:39:00.002+08:00

Dah lama xder entry seteress kan.. dolu asyik2 stress, skang kurang stress sket.. tp arinie stress.. sebenarnyer ade je ari2 stress.. malas nak blog pasal tu.. sebab xmo layan stress, pujuk2 je ati supaye hepi2 je.. stress sangat2 pun, buat sakit jiwa jek...

Arinie kenapa stress.. sebab database.. dorang tukar server.. abess dblink tak function.. dah add balik... tapi laei dua degil sangat..xnak function jugak... eiii..geram sangat... taktao sebab aperr... kalo semua access ditangan sendiri lain la.. nie diluar bidang kuasa... tp yg membuatnyer kata dah okay... still xboleh jugak tapi..salah kat mana.. nak buat ape laei nie... mencik sangat!!!

hurm.. tunggu time nak balek jer.. siyes nak blah ontime arinie.. malas dh nak mikir.. buntu dah.. kiter tgg esok jerr... keje?? waste another 1 day..esok lusa, ader training..so khamis baru sambung buat balek... hahahaaakss...

nex week kilang shutdown.. kena work from home... bagus jugak kena keje.. kalo tak abess cuti sebab kena amek force leave... khamis dan jumaat, office shutdown , tapi kena masuk ofice sebab production jalan, org office je kena cuti... so kena dtg wat keje kat office la.. hahaa.. xleh nak ngelat lelama yer... sila jgn over deadline yer...

Keje memang best... yg tak bestnye bile keje tu dihalang menda yang tak sepatutnyer.. sabar je lah...

MovieDay: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows [Part 2]

2011-07-21T15:24:00.001+08:00

Frankly speaking, I was too darn excited to watch the final installment of Harry Potter. I've read the book like 8,9, 10 times? Well who's keeping the score. However the excitement really make me nervous. Of course I tried to get the early ticket to watch it on the day of the release, sadly, during my online e-payment with TGV, the website prompt out error. Sadly, eventhough has error, they still deduct the money in my account (I use MBB Debit Card). After calling them, they promised to refund the money within 3 weeks time. such a long time to wait. And more sad story, that was the only amount of money I have in my bank, (I don't like multiple withdrawal from ATM) I purposely left it there to buy Harry Potter ticket.

Enough with the sad story, because I was so darn piss off and frustrated with the TGV Online Ticketing, I decide to just bought the ticket at the counter, so last weekend on Sunday, we went to Jusco Bkt Tinggi (to buy the kitty litter sands and renew my PLC membership too), we drop by the cinema to get the ticket. No surprise tho that the ticket mostly sold out and the available one all in front of the screen, so we bought the ticket for wednesday (because it's cheaper!!! and has a nice seat ;)). Feel so happy to get the ticket.

After watching the movie last night, I was so happy. I always like the character in Harry Potter. The casting selection is excellent. (Except for Ginny, never like Bonnie Wright playing that role, she always look so emotionless... but did I ever mention that I am a big fan of Helena Bonham Carter.. yeah.. Bellatrix Lestrange... always been the one character I can't wait for the appearance).

The movie kick off from the end of Part 1, where Voldemort took the Elder Wand from Dumbledore Tomb. My most awaited scene would be when they broke into Gringott was brilliant. Helena play an excellent part being Hermione under the polyjuice influence, transforming to Bellatrix Lestrage. The waterfall, the roller coster ride, Dragon, Geminion spell which cause multiplication. Oh... and when Potter and his friends escape from Gringott. The frustration on Voldermolt face expression when he knew they have been destroying the Hocruxes...

And the King Cross scene seem so familiar, where did I saw it before?? Oh yeah, right in my head.. LOL... They maybe cut a lot of conversation and push some of the detail out (you really need to read the books to really understand each character, of why and why they did this and that), and straight away focus on the main story... the action... but I would say a very befitting ending, the Final Battle was captured just nicely (eventho not as detail in the books, but we already would be expecting something like that) with Prof McGinagall casting the Piertotum Locomotor spell and commanded the statues to defend Hogwart. And the protection spells cast to protect Hogwart... while Voldemort and Death Eater destroyed it and marched to attack. The refusal of Elder Wand to obey Voldemort...

Can you hear my excitement of seeing the characters in Harry Potter book comes alive?? Neville Longbottom stands up before Voldemort, Luna Lovegood trying to make Harry listen to her, Prof McGonagall duelling with Prof Snape, Bellatrix Lestrage vs Molly Weasley and beautiful Helena Ravenclaw ghost and much much more ...

Hehe.. enough say.. oh yeah... and this installment really make me cry, although we already know the ending, of who will die and story behind it, it still so sad and touching...

Harry Potter.. I give 5 big shiny stars..simply because I love it..love it and love it :)

p/s: The ending look funny tho cause it doesn't look like they've aged much !!

Good Night Sleep???

2011-07-18T13:41:00.003+08:00

We have finally managed to install aircond in our room (finally, after much procrastinating .. hehe)

Well, it surely make me have a better sleeping quality and I can get to sleep more easily this day, 10pm already feel so sleepy and already went to bed. The thing is now, I always wake up around 3-3.30am. And it feels so fresh like I already have all the sleep I needed. but of course, it is really early, and I need to force myself back to sleep to wake up at 6.00am.

At 6.00am when the alarm rung, I felt so lazy to get up and just want to sleep a bit more. I feel tired like I did not have enough sleep. So... should I immediately wake up at 3am, instead of go back to sleep and try to wake up at 6am... gosh, my body clock is all messed up :p

The First Two

2011-07-12T19:54:00.003+08:00

Nak tao ape agenda kitorang skang... hehe... ini dia... ta daaaaa!!!

Van Milo... dah berjaya redeem 2... another 4 to go... chaiyok!! Harus kumpul keenam-enam becoz so cute!! I loike so much!

Nasib baek Mr Hubby pun sama2 nak kumpul points Milo, kalo aku sorang2..teruk jugak nak kumpul 240points. Skang pun another 160points to go.. takpa..kita kumpul tetiap bulan slow2 naa... untuk bulan ini dan bulan akan datang... minuman wajib, panas atau sejuk.. MILO... hahahaahaaaaaa....

New Additional Blog

2011-07-07T18:30:00.003+08:00

Hi UOLS ^_^

Baru2 nie aku tetiber je teringin nak buat blog pasal masakan dan jugak tempat jalan2 cari makan. Maka dengan itu lahir lah:

SUE-LOVE-COOKING

Sile2 dan sudi-sudilah menjenguk yer...

Peace No War XOXO

Depression (How it's start)

2011-07-07T17:12:00.000+08:00

Stress build up until whatever you wanna do is to block any light from entering your sight. If you are in a well lighted area, you would resort to putting a pillow, blanket or your hands over your eyes to block the light. Just keeping your lits shut would not be enough.

Then come the surge of self-helplessness. You feel so low in moral and your brain keep on condemning how terrible person you are. Whatever negative feeling you've felt before, would form an association and attack your innerself. Then you resort to locking your lips tight to hold down this emotion before it lash out and hurt everything around you. While keeping your lips tight, you are begging for help. Any sign of love and affection to sooth your soul so all rages would cool off, and you can calm down until you can open up your mouth again to speak.

Usually people wouldn't understand. They would force you to speak up. Because of the force that was put on you, the negative emotion would grow stronger. Whatever they said would sound like a criticism that feed your negative emotion like a hungry beast. Out of control, you started to plan ways to hurt yourself, so the physical pain would ease out the emotional burden. while you are calculating and rationalizing your action, you become more and more desperate.

This is when you do stupid things to hurt yourself or the weakness would take over your body. Your brain shutdown and all of your energy fade away from you. Every bones in your body is aching, every muscles weaken and as you know it, you found yourself lying on the floor, praying for the help to come.

Bukan Siapa-Siapa

2011-07-06T17:16:00.003+08:00

Aku ini bukan siapa-siapa. Suara aku, hak aku, pendirian aku bagaimanapun adalah milik aku. Dalam erti kata lain, aku ini bebas dan bukan hamba siapa-siapa. Hanya hamba Allah yang sentiasa cuba menjalani hidup seperti orang-orang biasa.

Aku adalah seorang antara jutaan penduduk Malaysia yang amat sukakan keselesaan dan keamanan yang dikecapi sejak kemerdekaan pada tanggal tahun 1957. Aku mendapat pendidikan yang sepatutnya, bergraduasi, memperoleh pekerjaan, cukup makan minum dan pakaian, ada tempat tinggal, dan tidak ditindas mahupun menindas siapa-siapa.

Aku tak suka sesiapa pun yang cuba-cuba mengganggu-gugat keselesaan yang dikecapi. Tidak kisahlah samada dari pihak kiri atau kanan. Selagi aku rasa hak aku tidak dicabuli dan selagi tiada siapa-siapa menyekat aku dari bersuara, aku rasa sudah cukup baik.

Mahu tidak mahu kita perlukan seorang pemimpin yang mampu memberikan kita hak-hak ini. Selagi pemimpin itu mampu mengawal situasi semasa dari segi sosial mahupun ekonomi, itu sudah cukup baik. Setiap organisasi pasti ada "black sheep"nya, point of weakness, yang mencemari organisasi dan memburukkan reputasinya, itu masih boleh diterima sekiranya kebaikan melebihi keburukan organisasi itu. Kita nampak matlamatnya. Kita nampak tunjak perjuangannya.

Aku tak faham mengapa sesetengah orang begitu taksub dengan seseorang pemimpin. Bagi aku setiap pemimpin ada buruk baiknya. Mereka hanya manusia macam kita-kita juga.

Aku juga tak faham kenapa kita cepat sangat mengikut cara salah walaupun ia nampak sangat mudah, tapi kesannya bakal dirasa dalam tempoh sangat lama. Nanti aku boleh hilang kerja tao.. boleh hilang makan, pakai... siapa tahu, mungkin juga hilang tempat tinggal jika tergadai negara...

Niat tak pernah menghalalkan cara. Biar apa jua alasannya, yang salah tetap salah. Tak payahlah nak digula-gulakan. Perkara sebegini, pasti ada saja pihak yang mempunyai kepentingan sendiri, akan mengambil kesempatan melaksanakan agenda mereka... ada mereka fikir pasal kita? ada mereka bantu jika kita susah nanti?

Memang aku bukan siapa-siapa, tapi Malaysia ini juga milik aku. Bersyukur sangat yang buruk dapat dielakkan. kan bagus kalau semua boleh dilaksanakan secara aman.. :)

Berita Hari Ini

2011-07-05T20:19:00.002+08:00

Hari nie macam biasa, lepas lunch je mulala aktiviti aku membrowsing news online. Yang aku selalu buka Harian Metro dan The Star. Berita kat metro, macam iasa laa..sentiasa mensensasikan berita-berita yang aku rasa memang banyak berlaku dalam masyarakat kita hari ini.

Berita hari nie memaparkan pasal suami yang sanggup menumbuk, memukul dan memijak perut isterinya yang sedang mengandung 7 bulan, gara-gara si isteri mendesak suami membeli barangan menyambut bayi sulung mereka nie. Wahai sang suami, biarpun menghadapi masalah kewangan, biarpun serabut dengan seribu satu masalah, bagaimana tergamaknya memijak perut isteri yang mengandungkan anak sendiri.

Satu lagi berita pasal si suami membelasah isteri gara-gara cemburu melihat isteri keluar makan bersama teman sekerja lelaki. Memang si isteri salah juga, sebab kalau suami tak benarkan keluar berdua je makan tengahari walaupun, dengan rakan office, berdosa buat macam tu, tapi membelasah isteri, dikhalayak ramai, tanpa perbincangan dulu sangat tidak patut...kan?

Dunia sekarang, orang cepat marah, penuh dengan stress, cepat betul hilang pertimbangan. Dalam diam-diam, aku rasa bersyukur sangat sebab suamiku bukan jenis cepat naik tangan atau panas baran. Kalau tak, susah jugak...

banyak orang.. banyak betul ragam nyer... hurm...

MovieDay: Transformers: Dark of the Moon (3D)

2011-07-02T20:50:00.002+08:00

Today, finally, the most awaited movie of the year (beside the final chapter of Harry Potter coming out soon), is HERE!! We are so excited about this movie...Why not, nobody does it like hollywood and Transformers is consider one of the masterpiece, with the details and advance CGI technology and all.

My personal opinion on this movie.. LOVE IT.. LOVE IT.. LOVE IT!!!

Although it doesn't have the best fight scenes compared to previous episode, but the storyline is totally THERE. The conspiracy, conflic, humor, hot babes (better than megan fox, IMAO :p), super SEXY cars...

The 3D, at the beginning, not much.. and seriously, I hate the 3D SUBTITLE SO MUCH!!! I prefer watching a 3D movie without the annoying and disturbing appearance of subtitle, when the 3D not as popular as it is nowadays. However, near ending, when they were fighting in Ground Zero Chicago to destroy the main pillar, the 3D was awesome. Must see scene for me is when the Decepticon tore down the Trump Tower. I really like that scene.. and when they do the rescue thingy.

Don't worry, no spoiler. I don't like giving spoiler or synopsis in my blog... just to say that I enjoy the movie (but not the guy behind me who keep on kicking my chair because he is so BIG and FAT!!!) Poor guy, must be really uncomfortable sitting in that tiny space of his...

Conclusion, not the best Transformer movie but still a must see at the cinema. Come on guys, after all we are talking about transformer here, there's no way watching it in the DVD would be better.. unless you have a huge screen and super cool sound system...

I gave 4 big shining stars for this :)

Kucing Saya

2011-07-01T18:42:00.003+08:00

hari nie nak cerita pasal kucing saya.. hehe...

Currently I have 6 cats at home, 1 adult, 1 big kitten, and 4 small kitten. Yang adult tu nama dia bhutan. Memang nilah penenmanku yang paling setia dan manja sekali. Tapi dengan aku je tao... dan beberapa orang yang dh lama dia kenal. Ramai orang konon nak test power ngn Bhutan, abess di cakarnyerr..hehe... waktu kenduri aku kat kampung dulu pun, habis tangan tukang pasang khemah tu kena cakar dan gigit. Bhutan nie nampak je macam manja, kalu orang pergi dekat pun tak lari... tapi cube sentuh dia... hurm kan dah kena...

Kalau balik kg salu kena bagi warning dan jaga2 takut bebudak main, kang kena cakar, tak pasal2 mak budak marahkan bhutan plak..sian bhutan...

Dolu ada sorang kawan mak, kononnye macam bomoh lah... katanya semua kucing sukakan dia. Aku dah cakap, bhutan nie garang, dia xpercaya...so dia suruh aku letak bhutan kat riba dia..masa mula2, aku still usap2 bhutan bagi dia tenang dan tak gigit orang tu. Lepas tu kawan mak macam berbangga la plak bhutan tak gigit dia so dia nak try angkat bhutan. Apa lagi Bhutan terus la gigit tanpa warning. Sekali kawan mak tu pukul Bhutan. Nak marah juga sebenarnye sebab dia yang cari pasal dolu... anyway..lepas tu puas memujuk bhutan sebab dengan aku2 dia marah xbagi pegang.. dah hilang percaya la tu... huhuu....

Okay, berbalik pada yang 5 ekor lagi, semua anak Bhutan. Yang empat tu baru lahir, baru sebulan, tapi dah menampakkan kebuasan masing2. Si abangnyer plak, si Kopi O, bukan main seronok ada budak kecik dia boleh buli. Selalunye dia main ngn Bhutan teruk dia kena sebab Bhutan memang main kasar. Tapi yang 4 ekor nie nanti semua nak bagi orang, bukan tak sayang, tapi tak mampu nak jaga banyak2. lagi pun nie batch terakhir anak2 Bhutan. Lepas nie dah takde dah.

Yang gray tu kena paksa tangkap gambar, tu yang muka tak bestt tu..

Hehe.. bebudak nie dah beratur elok2 jer, posing untuk tangkap gambar

Bhutan menumpang kasih kat KopiO sambil menyusu budak2 kecik tu

Kata ayah dulu, bela kucing nie murah rezeki. Bagi aku pula, bela binatang nie bagus, terutama untuk budak-budak. tapi kena pantau la. Sebab dari sini boleh pupuk rasa kasih sayang, then rasa tanggungjawab. kalau boleh sayangkan binatang, mestilah boleh sayangkan orang lebih2 lagilah kan :)

Change of Life Style

2011-06-30T18:29:00.003+08:00

Senangnye cakap... susahnyer nak buat kan.. especially if wanna change the lifestyle to the healthy one..why.. for person like me who really love food and has been brought up by family who also love to eat... susahnyerrr.... camne yek... badan makin membesar... nak diet.. cam susah jer.. nak exercise..cam xder masa jer... alasan2.. teruk kan?? :p

Quick Update

2011-06-27T17:54:00.004+08:00

Okay.. super quickie.. update weekend lepas.....

Jumaat (after work):
1- @Carrefour beli bahan2 nak picnic keesokannya

Sabtu:
1- Brunch kat Mamak Asiba - kedai mamak feberet kami laki bini pasal kuah kari dia punyer lerr pekat (last time I used to hate curry.. can you ever believe it.. hehe).. makan nasi kandaq... aku amek kari kambing.. sedhapnyerr layan.. =p~
2- Mr Hubby g setelkan kete dia yang overheat kat bengkel
3- Aku start masak for picnic - Lasagna ngn Tempura Prawn. End up kena masak sengsorang juga sebab Mr Hubby tak abess2 lagi setelkan kete. Lepas setel keta, dia layan hindustan plak.. huhu
4- Petang dalam pukul 5.30, bertolak ke lokasi picnic bersama bekalan. Dekat tasik Shah Alam je... bentang tikar mengadap tasik.. dan makan.. pastu lawan cari perkataan dalam WordSearch.. confirm2 aku menang.... hahahhaaa. Ternampak orang naik perahu dan kayak.. so nampaknya aktiviti seterusnya, haruslah pegi berperahu atau berkayak kat tasik tu plak :p
5- Dah maghrib, masa untuk pulang rumah.... dan tunggu hari esoknyerrr

Ahad:
1- Breakfast makan lasagna semalam sebab buat banyak giler.. hehe then semalam makan tak banyak pasal dah kenyang pekena nasi kandaq
2- Keluar dalam pukul 10 pagi ke Summit, semangat giler nak dermakan darah nie. Kuar lambat sebab merata rumah carik buku donor tak jumpe. Aku punya nasib baik last2 jumpe, Mr Hubby terpakse buat buku baru sebab xjumpe buku dia. Arrive kat summit, pusing punyer pusing cari booth derma darah. Aku tao pasal blood donation nie pun sebab semak laman web Pusat Darah Negara. Kira penat jugalah berpusing akhirnya kami jumper. Alhamdulillah orang tak ramai. 1st - Form; 2nd- Weight; 3rd- BloodType; 4th- blood pressure; 5th- Verified; 6th- proceed to donater chair cum bed. Yg lawaknya, dorang boleh switch borang aku n mr hubby masa ambil berat, so waktu kaunter amek blood pressure, dia terkejut tengok nama kat form aku, baru perasan borang tertukar, kelam-kabut tukar balik dan betulkan info.. hehe.... last skali dapatla biscuit, folic asic, iron tablet, dan air 100Plus satu tin.

Mr Macho Man yg baru selesai derma darah... :)

3- Merayau-rayau survey harga aircond - ye dah lama dah planning nak pasang aircond nie.. biler ntah nak pasang... :D
4- Balik masak keowteow tomyam untuk dinner

Next week time for Transformers... bessnyerr... tak sabar nak gie tengok.. tiket pun dah beli.. oF COURSE its 3D.. harap2 3D dia okay..

Chow!! ;)

Durian..Durian...

2011-06-23T13:34:00.006+08:00

Alhamdulillah... last night Mr Hubby and I finally got to devour the King of all Fruit, all that we can eat... and it's all F.O.C!!!!

Freshly imported from Balik Pulau, Penang... there were severals type of durian.. high graded one... we have the D604, Tumeric King, Musang King, Red Prawn, and many more la ... which unfortunately I cannot recognised one.. hahahaa... I only know how to eat.

Oh yea.. where did we luckily landed the invitation from? Yes, Thanks to Maxis for organizing the Maxis Customer Appreciation Party and invite Spansion (I am Spansion representative anyway to the event, not many people wanna volunteer to come, I wonder why??).. where the theme of the night is Meet the King: Maxis Durian Party. The Durian party was held at Mount Kiara Equestrian & Country Resort by the poolside. Make you wonder, maybe after all the heatiness from eating durian, you might find yourself jump into the pool to cool off :p

I must say that I ENJOYED the durians VERY MUCH. The aromatic smell, the creamy, bittersweet taste, the tender flesh... it's truly the KING!! Mr Hubby and I ate about four durians (very big size one) ... never think that I could be so full of durian. You know why.. because each time you think you had enough, then you say.. maybe I have just one final piece and you end up eating more and more... hahahahaakss.

Some of the durians that we had... enjoy the pixs!! (^^)....

Which channel???

2011-06-22T15:33:00.002+08:00

All this built up frustration and anger, expanding every second of the day... where could I posibbly channel it to..?? aishh.. tension jerr...

Selamat Hari Bapa - 19June 2011

2011-06-20T17:13:00.003+08:00

Semalam merupakan Hari Bapa. Mr Hubby memula rancang nak masakkan char Keow Teow kat my FIL, but last2, my FIL terpaksa attend delegasi Nigeria yang nak ke Genting.. xsempat pun masakkan. Kitorang masakkan untuk family yg ader jer.. heehee... sedap ke tak, entahlah..depend kat lidah yang rasa.. lagipun pakai premix jek... kuah segera yang diimport khas original mai dari Penang :)

Bercakap pasal bapa, of course lah agak sayu hati bile teringatkan my late father. He passed away in 2005, masa minggu terakhir berpuasa. Moga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.

My father, seorang yang sayangkan anak-anaknya. Kitorang boleh bersembang apapun dengan ayah sebab ayah sporting. Ayah jarang marah berbanding dengan mak. Tapi sekali ayah marah, kami adik-beradik semua diam, tak berani langsung melawan.

Ingat lagi, dolu nak pergi ke mana-manapun, naik motor dengan ayah sebab kami tak ade kereta. Ayahlah yang jadi pemandu setia aku menghadiri mana2 motivasi atao camping. Ayah sangat suka menonton movie, aku rasa bab nie, memang aku ngn ayah sama ja. Lagi satu, ayah sangat sukakan kucing. Sebab itulah akupun jadik sukakan kucing. Sebenarnya bukan kucing saja, hampir semua binatang ternakan ayah suka. Ayah bela itik nila, itik jawa, angsa, ayam, puyuh, arnab, ayam belanda, ayam selasih, ayam botak(hehe..nama apa ntah), ayam gajah, ayam daging, kambing... rasanya sebab tu juga aku pun sukakan binatang...

Masa aku kecil dan kami tinggal di Butterworth, ayah pernah membawa aku dan kakak ke Bukit bendera dengan berpakaian selekeh, sampai sana, beli baju baru, kata ayah, barulah nampak macam orang local.. hahaha..

Ayah juga kekadang berperangai macam anak kecil, merajuknya boleh tahan. Ingat sewaktu kami pulang dari Pahang. Kami naik bas sampai KL untuk ambil train ke Butterworth. Time tu ayah merajuk dengan mak, aku lupa dah sebab ape ntah... ayah taknak balik. Tiba-tiba ayah takde, kami semua sibuk cari mana ayah, rupa-rupanya, ayah merajuk dan duduk bersembang dengan seorang penjaja jalanan. Lepas dipujuk mak, baru ayah okay...

Walaupun tua dan kerap sakit, ayah tak pernah duduk diam. Ayah sangat rajin. Kekadang aku pun marahkan ayah sebab masih mahu buat kerja berat sedangkan badan sudah sakit2. Tapi ayah tetap dengan perangainya. Sewaktu ayah masih ada, kawasan semak-samun hutan sekeliling rumah, semua cerah. Ayah tanam sayur-sayur. Ayah memang suka sangat berkebun. Dolu aku pun selalu tolong ayah, sebab aku tak suka buat kerja rumah (mengemas, cuci pinggan etc), aku lagi suka duduk luar tolong ayah bagi ayam, itik makan, menggembur tanah, cari cacing bagi anak itik makan, atau bagi kambing makan.

Ayah suka bercerita perihal zaman jepun. Yalah, ayah dilahirkan pada tahun 1935. Masa zaman jepun, ayah time tu dah budak2. Ayah cerita pasal kena menyanyi lagu jepun, kena salute jepun, kena makan ubi kayu saja.

Disebabkan ayah berkerja sebagai guard, ayah selalu tidur atas kerusi je. Ayah takut kalau tidur dekat tilam, nanti terlalu lena, apa-apa pun boleh jadik. Tidur di kerusi senang nak berjaga. Aku tak pernah malu dengan ayah biarpun kami miskin sebab ayah sentiasa berusaha bekerja keras mencari rezeki untuk kami keluarga. Kekadang bila melihat peminta sedekah yang tua, aku teringatkan ayah. Walaupun dolu ayah susah dan sudah tua, ayah tak pernah meminta-minta dengan orang. Semua duit ayah hasil titik peluhnya sendiri.

Aku tak sempat nak membalas jasa ayah yang menggunung tinggi. Tak sempat nak memberikannya hidup yang senang. Aku doakan semoga ayah ditempatkan dikalangan orang yang soleh dan beriman. Aku rindu ayah. Aku sayang ayah.

Selamat hari Bapa buat semua ayah-ayah diseluruh dunia.

U.B.A.T

2011-06-16T20:59:00.004+08:00

Balik kerja... g klinik... tak tahan dah batuk ngn selsema nie... huhu...

so taa daaa... nie lah ubat yg doktor kasi...

-antibiotik-batuk (request tablet punyer, tak suker la ubat liquid)-sakit tekak-

-selsema (malam)- selsema (pagi)-demam-

dinner sudah.. time for ubat malam punya... Mohon pada Allah supaya disegerakan sembuh sakitnya.. Insya-Allah...

SNeeeZZeee!!!

2011-06-14T19:16:00.004+08:00

sneeze...sneeze .. sneeze...

aaa...syuh!!! aaa..syuh!!

Runny nose!! throbbing head!!

I hate COLD!! Please go away soonest!! :(

Sakit Tekak

2011-06-13T19:17:00.003+08:00

Skang nie maybe musim sakit tekak dan batuk kot. kat office... asyik dengar orang batuk sana sini... aku tak terkecuali... semalam macam nak demam... kat office tadi pun sebab sejuk aircond.. bertambah2 ler selsema dan sakit tekak dan batuk... aduhai... nak bagi lengkap laei pakej... sakit kepala sekali... terpaksa juga memaksa diri yang sedia maklum malas untuk terus bekerja demi negara...hehe....

Semalam, my sister's family singgah rumah kejap, on da way balik melaka... sebelum balek tu.. dorang join skali kitorang g memancing udang.. dalam nak demam dan sakit tekak... sanggup jugak aku nie nak pergi memancing. Nasib baik petang, so tak panas... yang geramnya, kitorang beli joran baru, yg 4 meter punya.. tapi joran itu hanya mampu menaikkan 4 ekor udang sahaja... bayangkanlah.. ada sedikit sakit hati dan jelous di situ, sebab my sis yang pakai joran lama kitorang, asyik dapat udang jer.. takpelah.. bagi chance kat dorang...

okaylah.. takde menda pun nak cerita... saja ja nak tulis entry sambil2 tunggu mr hubby balik keja... nasi dan lauk dah sejuk.. batang hidung dia tak nampak laei.. nasib laa..

MovieDay: XMEN First Class

2011-06-11T21:21:00.002+08:00

Because my youngest brother is here and I don't know where else to bawa him jalan2.. so as usual.. we end up planning for a movie.. the choices are XMen, Kungfu Panda 2 or ... (can't remember the other choice).. majority wins.. we pick XMen..

I was a bit sceptical.. yea.. the story al, about the youngling.. the start point at where the becoming the XMen and how prof X and Magneto no longer see eyes to eyes.. so I do not expect much action...

After movie.. the movie is revealing... like always I love how Mystique change form.. and Xaxier was so gentlemen.. and to see Hank turn to the Beast... Magneto was handsome..

and a glimpse of the hearthrob of most ladies, Wolverine...

The submarine act was superb... lifting a submarine into the air.. wow.. so cool.. and vanishing act by azazel.. do I need to say more..

Overally.. I enjoy the movie.. I would give it 3 and 1/2 star... simply because there's more story than action... :)

Worth watching at the cinema tho.. while we wait for Transformers and Harry Potter to be out.. and I do look forward for Green Lantern as well.. the trailer really something :)

Super GT JAPAN ROUND 3 Sepang.. Here we come ... :)

2011-06-11T20:52:00.007+08:00

KAMI ADA 4 jer tickets lagi untuk di let go dengan 1/2 price [xtermasuk cap n t-shirt]!!!
Sapa2 berminat boleh email atao tinggalkan komen... :)

TICKET SOLD OUT!!! -update 15June2011-

Needless for words.. hehe... :)

Jumpa di Sepang (^^)

Happy Milk Day...

2011-06-01T13:33:00.003+08:00

Semua-semua.. mari kita minum susu.. susu nie bukan saja baik untuk tulang (kalsium) dan gigi, juga bagus utk kulit... nanti kulit cantik la kalu rajin minum susu... hehehekss..

Sempena hari susu sedunia nie, aku dedicatekan entry nie semua dairy product yang aku suka sangat makan/minum :)

Ranking ke-5:

Ini Kraft Single Hi-Calcium Cheese... boleh kata hampir setiap hari makan nie ngn roti campur daun salad untuk breakfast... aku memang sangat gilakan cheese.. apa2 cheese pun layan..

Ranking ke-4:

Yogurt Low Fat dari Marigold.. aku suka hampir semua perisa, tapi yang paling suka adalah kalo perasa daripada suku sakat buah berry.. xkisahlah.. blueberry ke..rasberry ke..strawberry ke.. semua2 berries lah.. :p

Ranking ke-3:
Minuman Yogurt Nestle Bliss... especially perisa buah-buahan campuran... memang terbaek!!

Ranking ke-2

Susu UHT Marigold HL perasa asli... xmo yg strawberry atao coklat... memang sangat bess sebab dia ader manis sket2... macam bervanilla cenggitu...

Ranking 1ST:

Inilah susu yang paling aku suka... DutchLady perasa Chocolate.. sedapnyer xterkata... kalo beli, minum jap jer dah habis.. lagi bess kalo campur dalam cereal Fitness... sgt syiok dan sihat.

Sebagai seorang peminum susu yang tegar... aku nak seru semua supaya banyak2 lah minum susu... supaya kita tak terkena penyakit osteoporosis (betul ke eja nie??) atau kerapuhan tulang.... MINUM SUSU ANDA JADI SIHAT DAN CANTIK :)

MovieDay: Karak- Laluan Puaka

2011-06-01T07:55:00.003+08:00

The story is from KRU production, so of course the expectation is a bit high. IMAO, I think it's quite good. Not a major dissapointment.

The scoring point would be:
1) very nice sound effect
2) some of the ghosts is pretty decent
3) there's storyline, bukan hantam kromo carca marba belaka.. :p
4) I like they put Tok Malam character as native people... but his roles in the film not much.. kinda funny the way he helped them
5) The suspense element is there, enough to scare people in some of the part
6) The opening was really good
7) The headbanging ghost.. that's pretty funny LOL

The major downpoint:
1) the ending is so cheesy, should improve like there's no script needed and the Nik guy should juz vanish like that while Zura was looking at the corpse, that should wrap it out cool (we the audience are intelligent enough to figure it out ourself)
2) the script was really shaggy... saper penulis skrip nie.. aduhai
3) the actor and actresses.. well they can pick better but they are not that bad.. i dont really like Jack character when he turn to ghost... not scary dol
4) Oh yeah.. there's also bunch of Monkeys loose in the cinema.. (kenapalah asal tengok cerita hantu melayu, mesti ader monkey, hallo... if you don't know how to enjoy scary movie.. don't watch it okay... kita-kita nie xperlu sound effect tambahan dari monyet-monyet okay)

Overall, aku kira leh enjoy jugak ah movie nie. It is slightly above the par if we are to compare it with other Malay Ghost movie (jgn compare dengan filem2 luar yer) :)

Stressful Tuesday

2011-05-31T13:23:00.002+08:00

aku benci hari ini. Aku betul2 xder mood hari ini. (nasib baik malam ni g tengok movie)

nape aku stress? hurm...

nak balik umah jer.. aku malas nak menatap wajah siapa siapa pun...

pejam mata.. pekak kan telinga... tidur

bessnyer kalau dapat tidur

MovieDay: Pirate of Caribbeans - On Stranger Tides

2011-05-30T13:23:00.002+08:00

We actually watch this movie on last Wednesday (purposely wait for Wednesday for cheaper tixs.. hehe) but becoz I always blur2 one this few days, so the entry I put on pending mode first...

To say about this movie, it was the worst of all the POTC movie... the only joy to my eyes are dear Mr Depp, the ever witty Jack Sparrow, still he is too kind in the movie... I don't like the character of Blackbeard daughter as well, Angelica... the storyline is not solid enough for me, and the action only plenty...

Speaking of the legendary pirates, Edward Teach, aka Blackbeard, doesn't seem that gruesome. Blackbeard is the most cruel and terrifying privates ever live and the movie doesn't describe him as he is. Why do I complaint this much... I think mostly because of the storyline... too much of unnessary script and too less action.. everyone has their own opinion, and I am still a fan of pirates movie.

The mermaid however is very nicely done. Their faces was so pure and innocent, before they turn into flesh eating monster. They were all beautiful.

Frankly, I hope they will not make anymore POTC movie if all of it just gonna have very modest storyline like this one. still, after much2 complaining, I did enjoy the movie. What can I say, I am a big fan of Jack Sparrow after all !! :)

Buat Excel Loader

2011-05-26T14:05:00.003+08:00

Aku memang tak pandai guna Macro utk Excel. Xpenah buat pun... pakai VBA lak tu.. manalah aku tao...

Tapi aku berjaya jugak buat... hahahahakss... once you know, xder la susah sangat.. cuma bertatih2 la sket.. orang dah terrer mesti gelak je kat aku kan.. :)

Sebenarnyer nak tulis entry pasal tengok wayang malam tadi.. tapi sebab dok perah otak buat Excel Loader dan mengadap coding nie, jadik blur plak.. ilang segale idea..

ah ... biarkan... nanti2 lah aku update...

SAAT TERAKHIR (ST12 - OST NIKITA)

2011-05-20T18:33:00.006+08:00

sayangku... kau sentiasa diingatan...

Tak pernah terpikir olehku
Tak sedikitpun ku bayangkan
Kau akan pergi tinggalkan kusendiri

Begitu sulit kubayangkan
Begitu sakit ku rasakan
Kau akan pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri

Dibawah batu nisan kini
Kau tlah sandarkan
Kasih sayang kamu begitu dalam
sungguh ku tak sanggup
Ini terjadi karna ku sangat cinta

Inilah saat terakhirku melihat kamu
Jatuh air mataku menangis pilu
Hanya mampu ucapkan
Selamat jalan kasih

Satu jam saja kutelah bisa cintai kamu;kamu;kamu di hatiku
Namun bagiku melupaknmu butuh waktuku seumur hidup

Satu jam saja kutelah bisa sayangi kamu… di hatiku
Namun bagiku melupaknmu butuh waktuku seumur hidup
di nanti ku..

Click SINI untuk layan lagu nie

Planning...

2011-05-20T14:06:00.003+08:00

Friday come again but I dont know why, today doesn't feel like Friday at all. every single bones in my body are giving distress signal. This week although has ended again, still not much work has been completed. Most of it just planning.

The plans:
1) Finalized project timeline - done for part 1
2) Plan next step in development (code programming) - work in progress
3) Plan to arrive before 8am to work - successful
4) Plan to exercise daily - not very successful

Next plan:
1) Daily exercize (15-30mins) - make it top priority please
2) Do not eat after 8pm
3) Next holiday destination??
4) Brother's wedding
5) Saving
6) Try to conceive again ???

So many plan... the goal to achieve - a healthier and happier me :)

Keliling-keliling

2011-05-19T13:16:00.002+08:00

Dikeliling, terpandang-pandang,
dikepung sana sini terkongkong
sarat menusuk bagai jarum kecil
makin lama, makin menjalar merata-rata
nak ditepis, gagal..
lolos membolos ke ruang terlarang...

Sia-sia juga usaha
nak lari tujuannya nak ke mana
bayang mengekor bagai kembar kedua
akhirnya
hanya mampu berpaut pada kekuatan yang rapuh
sentiasa membawa diri semula
mengingati yang Maha Kuasa
kerana Dialah pengatur segala...

Lagu kita...

2011-05-18T20:52:00.003+08:00

Sudah kahwin ke belum
Baru jumpa dah senyum
Macam bunga sekuntum
Bau sedap dicium
(petikan lirik Sudah kahwin ke belum - Saloma & ahmad Daud)

Mr Hubby suker sangat nyanyi lagu nie ngn suara sumbangnyerr.. hehe

Entry petang sabtu...

2011-05-14T18:13:00.007+08:00

Aku sedar kebelakangan ini banyak entry blog aku macam kurang semangat jek.. memang bila ada empty space.. a big gaping void di hati, susah utk heal kan... aku pun tak tahu sampai biler hati nie nak rasa kosong. Sampai sekarang, aku masih menangis bile teringatkan baby... mr hubby xnak aku sedih... so aku salu kalo nak bersedih, when i'm alone jek... I dunno how those mother with the same fate go through this, deep inside me.. I am still strugling, trying to push away all the sadness, jelousy and angry and be happy for my friends who is expecting...

The best I can do is what I'm best at doing, ignore my feeling and pretending to be okay, hoping that finally I would be okay for sure.

Okay.. stop.. tak mau cerita sedey-sedey dah... harinie nak story pasal kitorang g klang, cari kedai borong candy untuk wedding my brother on June 5 nanti. Kedai yang dimaksudkan ialah Phong May Pemborong Barangan Runcit dan Makanan Ringan. Aku tahu pasal kedai nie pun atas pertolongan netizen, hasil carian Mr Google. Yang lawaknya, mr hubby boleh plak tinggalkan alamat dan no telefon kedai tu kat rumah, so sampai sana, hampir mati kutu tak tahu nak cari kedai tu kat mana. Nasib baik akhirnya jumpe.

Untuk mereka yang nak pergi ke situ, boleh amek federal highway and exit lepas tol Sg Rasau tak silap aku. follow je signboard ke Meru. Sampai je jalan Meru, ushar2 la belah kanan jalan, kedai nie tepi jalan jek, lepas stesen minyak petronas.. ikut jalan menuju ke highway PLUS.

Ini alamat dan no telefon kedai tu:-
Phong May (M) Sdn Bhd
197, Batu 1 1/2, Jalan Meru,
41050 Klang
Tel: 03-3341 4126

Barangan yang aku beli takde la banyak sangat pun, hehe budget la katakan, cuma sumi jelly ngn gula2, utk bagi kat budak2 time kenduri nanti.

Pas beli barangan tu, kami ke Jusco Bukit Tinggi sebab Mr Hubby nak beli buku Ramlee Awang Murshid (Mr hubby memang peminat RAM, rasanya semua buku tulisan RAM nie dia beli) yang terbaru tuh.. Sutera Bidadari, sambungan Cinta Sufi... aku buku Cinta Sufi pun baca tak habis.. kenapa? sebab plot cerita dia sama jek.. hanya enjoy baca sampai buku ketiga dia je (Hijab Sang Pencita).. ingatke trilogy rupanya makin bertambah2 plak ceritanye... tapi still continue baca lagi tapi tak se excited masa mula2 dolu, nak habiskan cepat2 buku sebab nak tau cerita dia camne..

Selain tu, biasalah Mr Hubby singgah kedai komik beli komik Budak Getah... (ini pun masuk koleksi komik dia yang berkotak2 tu.. huhu.. layan jelah). Aku plak beli benda alah ini... hehehe...

Sementara masih berkobar-kobar nak excercise. Tadi baru buat 30 mins workout dah rasa pening giler dan loya... nampak sangat tak sihat... lepas nie mesti rajin2 excersize agar badan lebih sihat dan minda focus :)

Selepas balik dari Jusco, Mr hubby dah kena bertolak ke Terengganu, dia kena outstation sampai hari Isnin nie.. huhuks.. sedihnyer weeken dok sorang2 kan rumah.. nak wat camne kan.. dah keje..

Apapun, let try to live life the best as we can...

Kawan-kawan

2011-05-10T16:19:00.003+08:00

Skang actually xderlah aktif berfacebook sangat mcam masa mula2 dolu. dok giler main game facebook jer... add beratus2 stranger semata-mata nak cepat naik level. Kenal pun tidak, manusia datang dari serata ceruk... tapi kadang-kadang bila baca wall dorang, bess jugak, get to know how people live on the other side.. yes, I memang suka baca wall orang dan comment orang... hehehe... taklah sampai tahap stalker lagik kot...

Semalam buka-buka facebook ada dua request add friend. One of it is my long lost contact best friend from Secondary School... tengok profile picture, kenallah.. Bessnyer... dia dapat cari aku kat sini.. inilah bagusnya facebook.. dapat cari kawan2 yang dah bertahun2 menghilang.

Lagi satu plak macam tak kenal... sape yer... gambar profile letak gambar anak.. nama pun tak ring a bell pun kat otakku ini. hurm..aku biar jek.. malas nak approve... tup-tup si dia ini hantar mesej kat inbox ku dengan hint-hint yang masih segar dalam ingatanku... wah happynyer... rupanya she is one of my best friend during secondary school jugak. Seronoknya dapat kontek kembali two of my best friend nie.. dolu zaman skolah2 satu geng... ingat lagi dok berbasikal sama2, dok gaduh ngn budak2 laki, masak beger tepi tasik, lepak kat JPS, p camping pengakap sama2...

Dorang dah banyak berubah, dari senakal2 remaja dah jadi seayu-ayu ibu... I'm so happy both of them lead a good life.

harap-harap nanti dapat jumpa dorang face to face. Miss them dearly :) Ooo.. so happy!

Aktiviti Weekend

2011-05-09T12:27:00.002+08:00

Semalam, finally got to watch Thor. Skang jarang dpt ngok movie kat cinema pasal budget, then most movie we either buy dvd or juz download on the net. Luckily got to watch Thor @cinema. bagi aku cerita tu okaylah... best..suka sangat dia nyer scene.. cantik.. penuh imaginasi dan colourful... the hero... yummylicious.. meleleh2 air liur ngok body sixpad dia tuh.. hehee

Lepas ngok movie, kami makan Tutti Frutti.. yummy.. sangat puas hati layan frozen yogurt okay, sebab kami amek semua perisa yang ada... then layan makan lagi kat Eat'N Run, spagethi ngn mushroom sauce with chicken chop, chicken so nice, really crispy... quite cheap only rm8.90 so nanti boleh makan lagi... sayang xbawa camera, if not can take2 colourful picture.. xapalah.. there's always next time.. tapi makanan lain la plak.

Malam tu Mr Hubby kena ke office plak... siapkan presentation utk hari esoknyer.. sian hubby, kena outstation hari Isnin ke T'ganu...

Keje harinie.. biasalah.. busy-busy... tapi kena semangat becoz dun wanna let my team down again.. its so not okay... huhu.. ganbatte Sue.. Yes, I can...!

Masa

2011-05-05T12:31:00.001+08:00

Pasang topeng ke muka, menghadap mereka-mereka dengan raut wajah gembira, gelak-gelak tawa untuk menyenangkan hati.

Tahukah sesekali aku ingin merawat luka? Cemburu melihat mereka-mereka yang bernasib lebih baik dariku. Bukan nak menolak takdir atau melayan emosi, tapi suamiku sayang, aku perlu mencuri sedetik dua untuk berkabung dalam kesedihan, menghitung memori yang sedikit cuma, meluahkan rasa hati yang membuku dihati.

Aku tetap redha. Aku masih mampu senyum dan bergembira. Aku masih bersyukur dengan apa yang aku ada. Cuma aku masih memerlukan sedikit masa dalam seminit dua, untuk melayani kedukaanku, untuk mengingati yang dia pernah ada bersama kita.

Love

2011-04-29T18:47:00.003+08:00

Take love and hold it deep down. Even the strongest hatred could never ever break it down. Once love decide to stay in your heart, it will forever be there, no matter what's the mind say, the heart would know best.

Knowing we love one person, even the person not here with you, take comfort in knowing that how bless it is, to feel and touch love and treasure it forever. Though all the times now are mere memories, take comfort in knowing those memories won't fade away.

Make it 10, 20, 50 or 100 years, the love stays forever. To love one person is to acknowledge his memory, whether you are together no more, he stays, exist in your heart for life time :)

Losing a baby Part II

2011-04-28T21:18:00.004+08:00

How can I deal with my grief over losing a pregnancy?
It's normal to feel shock, grief, depression, guilt, anger, and a sense of failure and vulnerabilty when you lose a pregnancy. The days, weeks, and even months following a loss can be incredibly difficult and painful — even more so if this wasn't your first pregnancy loss, or if you carefully planned this pregnancy and thought you'd done everything "right." Or you may simply feel withdrawn and moody and unable to concentrate or sleep. If you told people you were pregnant, you'll probably worry about announcing this news and you may find even the most sincere expressions of sympathy difficult to take.

A few things to keep in mind as you work through this troubled time:

1)Understand that it's not your fault. Pregnancy loss or complications can strike anyone. Talk openly and honestly with your partner about what's happened and how it's affecting you. Remember, there's no right or wrong way to deal with grief. Accept your feelings as they are and don't judge yourself or your partner for how you respond.

2)Give yourself time to heal. Don't pressure yourself to get past the sadness quickly. Your healing will be more complete if you deal with your grief as it comes. You may find yourself reliving the pain, especially around your due date or other milestones. Over time, things will change and you'll feel better.

3)Take time off from work. Even if you feel physically fine, taking some time away from your job may be helpful. You need a chance to process what's happened, and taking a break from your regular routine will help you acknowledge and accept all that you're going through.

4)Don't expect your partner to grieve in the same way. If your partner doesn't seem to be affected by the loss as deeply as you are, understand that men and women grieve differently. While women tend to express their feelings and look for support from others, men tend to hold their feelings inside and deal with loss on their own. Likewise, men often feel they need to take care of their partners by remaining strong. So don't misread his stoicism as not caring about you or your loss and don't judge yourself for not coping as well as he does. Share your feelings and your needs with your partner but give each other the freedom to experience the loss in your own way.

5)Don't close yourself off from others. Although it may seem painful to talk about, sharing your story will allow you to feel less alone and help you heal. You may be surprised by how many of your co-workers, cousins, neighbors, and friends have their own stories of loss and healing. And you may find understanding and support from unexpected people — which can help make up for the fact that some people you expected to understand don't seem to get how much you're hurting. Someone who hasn't gone through what you're going through really can't know what it's like. Most people want to say something comforting but don't know what to say. Try not to take it personally if they say the wrong thing or nothing at all.

6)Get support. Ask your doctor or midwife about pregnancy-loss support groups in your community. It may take a while to find one that suits you, so don't get discouraged if you don't like the first one you try. Find out in advance about the people in the group to see if you'll fit in. (Have most of them had early or late miscarriages? Is it a group coping primarily with stillbirths?) You may also want to seek out a professional counselor to help you grapple with the difficult emotions you're experiencing right now and, ultimately, to come to terms with your grief

SOURCE FROM BABYCENTER.COM

Losing a baby

2011-04-28T16:48:00.003+08:00

I found myself reading through a lot of article about dealing with the loss of baby or child... and I know, many out there would share the same feeling of sadness and emptiness that I am going through...

I quote here some of the paragraph that I think worth sharing. Some of her words describe exactly what I am feeling

The article from real life experience of Katherine from Mothers35Plus

Those two weeks we spent in intensive care with him were the most frightening we have ever experienced. We lived minute by minute and had our hopes raised and dashed countless times. Our lives, which had been so happy and so full of promise two weeks earlier now seemed bleak and grey. I would wake up every morning and think "my baby died". I wept and wept until I felt no more tears would come, but they did.

I was touched by the number of people who wrote to share their own experiences of miscarriage, stillbirth and cot death. Other people had gone through worse. We had experienced the joy of his birth and ten happy and innocent days with him. All our close family had seen the baby. He had been beautiful and loved. We had some lovely photographs and happy memories to look back on. We were proud of our son.

You never "get over" the death of a child, you just learn to live with your grief. At first I thought about him, his birth and his death, every waking minute. Then I realised that the sad and the frightening memories were fading. I still carry him with me everywhere I go and have a clear image in my mind of his big, blue eyes opening wide before he snuggled up to my breast for a feed. But the fear and raw grief that ruled my life five months ago has now gone.

I often ask myself the question "why". Why did such an innocent little life have to end so quickly? We don't know why Matthew's heart was so badly mis-formed. All we do know is that there was no genetic cause. A baby's heart is fully developed by eight weeks gestation. Sometimes things just get organised the wrong way round. Eight in a thousand babies are born with a heart defect, but this is often a small hole which closes over a time and does not require surgery. We were the one in a thousand chance where major surgery is required.

We have learned a lot about life, and death. We now have immense sympathy for those who have sick children, or who have lost a child. Our most supportive friends have been those who have experienced serious illness and bereavement themselves. The best way to cope is to let grief take its course. There is no right or wrong way to mourn. To weep, to talk. Grief may take a while to emerge, and may appear as anger or jealousy.

Coping with other people's attitudes has been difficult. In the 1990s we are so removed from death, and the death of a baby is a genuine shock to everyone. Some people think that referring to the baby will make you upset. But what I want more than anything is for people to say that they are sorry. I need people to acknowledge my son's short life, and for my role as a mother to be acknowledged. To fail to mention Matthew is to deny his existence, and that hurts. I am proud to show people my lovely photographs. I'm pleased to tell them what happened. I appreciate being asked how I am, and am I coping? If I don't want to open my heart, I won't, but sometimes I do need to talk.

Fathers too, need remembering. The traditional male role is to be strong and to provide support. They are forced to continue their daily roles as normal. But sorrow may creep up at unexpected times and take them unawares. Men do feel that lost promise very deeply. The sight of my own father and brother weeping at Matthew's funeral was hard to bear.

Drifting Away.. If Only..

2011-04-28T14:07:00.002+08:00

When the smile fades away, I tried so hard to replace it with laughter, because there's no sincerity left in that smile, while laughing would cover the fakeness away.

Drift away and fade away, little by little swallowed by unforeseen darkness, while I've taken life for granted, punishing without trial, lie still now, wish I would woke up to the open sky, where brilliant lights of thousands stars, swims in my sight.

Where are the words when I need them, how could I describe what has been keeping me so tormented inside? The burden of heighten misery, fears and terrible feeling of longing that never end.

Put a display of the play, out to be the entertainment of watching eyes. Hoping that somehow and someway, they understand the story behind it, how could there'll be any understanding if there's so much lies, and the only person who know everything, cannot be counted for ...

Sleep tight.. drift away... close the door... shut the ears and eyes... let it be... let it be...

Tioman in Memory (22Apr-25Apr2011)

2011-04-26T13:42:00.003+08:00

PlayTime almost ended...

2011-04-21T14:33:00.004+08:00

Yay... tomorrow Mr Hubby and I are going on our vacation to Tioman Island. At last, finally we are going to breath the salty air of the sea.

I have prepare the motion sickness tablet, juz in case I got sea sick.. and of course we are fully equiped with Sunblock for Body and Face and let not forget aloe vera gel, for any case of sunburn...

And yes, finally I got my haircut, after a very long time. I get my haircut at the Pepito Hair Studio in Carefour Bukit Rimau. The service was nice. And the best thing was they still have this on going promotion of "wash + cut + blow" at ONLY RM18. And if wanna "colour + treatment" only RM88 for first timer of course!! Wow, really make me tempting to re-colour my hair and I almost do it if not for Mr Hubby advice earlier not to colour my hair again. But I just love colour, that's why I wear coloured contact lens... it surely make you feel different.. but its okay.. I do it all for Mr Hubby anyway :)

Really can't wait to be in Tioman. I hope I'll enjoy it as Monday... "Hello, Spansion" again and "Goodbye work-free-day"

Kelam yang mengintai cahaya...

2011-04-18T00:22:00.005+08:00

Damai dicari kian memudar dijamah gelapnya kelam kepiluan jiwa. Jernih air mata mengalir terus tanpa putus, sebak kian lama kian meruntun, memutar-mutar peristiwa dilayar pemikiran, lantaran hati pun terbelah dua, tak terdaya menahan saratnya pedih ngilu yang melara, merebak terus ke seluruh bahagian sendi tubuh. Terkulai lemah tiada lagi berdaya.

Barang yang lepas tidak ingin dikenang, kelak badan jua yang binasa. Sesungguhnya tiadalah untung yang dapat digapai dalam menghitung kesengsaraan ini. Sedang sedihnya masih sama, tidak jua ia berlalu pergi. Bicara manis-manis dilagukan menjadi halwa telinga, diharap bisa menjadi pengubat kepada racun kepiluan ini, mencantum semula semangat yang patah, menghembus keluar nafas-nafas hiba, jauh pergi bersama angin yang berlalu.

Tangan dihulur mengusap sanubari, penuh kesetiaan, penuh kecintaan, cuba merungkai kusutnya benang-benang pemikiran, memimpin diri yang hilang dicelah lautan gelora kehidupan yang membadai ganas, kembali ke laluan asal. Diri mula menerima dengan redha, setiap ribut taufan pastinya akan redah, lautan kembali tenang, mentari menyinar kembali kehangatan nikmat dunia, dihiasi pelangi nan indah yang membawakan seribu pengharapan bahawa pelayaran hidup masih perlu diteruskan, sehingga masa kembali dijemput menemui Tuhan.

After a week goes by...

2011-04-14T15:25:00.008+08:00

Dah seminggu lebih berlalu. Alhamdulillah, aku makin pulih, emotionally and physically. Rajukku dengan mak juga hampir redah. Mungkin juga sebab mak mengambil inisiatif menelefon bertanya khabar. Yes, I admit, aku mmg kuat merajuk dan kekadang cepat marah, tapi selalunya xlama.

Hari-hari aku just lepak di rumah. Berpantang? Ala kadar saja. Awalnya memang rajin, sekarang dah malas sikit. Apalagi bila rasa diri dah kuat sikit kan. :P

Dulu time kena kerja, stress je memanjang, asyik rasa nak gie bercuti je, skang bile terperuk jek kat rumah, bosan juga, Haa itulah, nak cuti sangat kan. [Tapi still rasa nak pergi bercuti... I really need it okay]

Sekarang nie aku cuma nak pandang terus ke hadapan. Aku nak membina diri yang lebih strong and resilient to weakness. Aku nak amalkan hidup lebih sihat. Aku perlu turunkan berat badan. Aku percaya, jika ada rezeki, Allah akan mengurniakan cahaya mata yang sempurna dan comel kepada kami nanti sebagai ganti. Memang rindu sangat dekat baby. Tipulah kalau aku cakap aku tak rindukan perasaan being pregnant. The anticipation of having a baby of my own, but all in time will come true. Aku taknak terlalu terburu-buru. Biarlah betul-betul bersedia kan. Our womb do take sometime to heal.

Hoping for the very best thing to come. I am blessed and very fortunate, because of having to go through all that has happen, I realize how much people love me, especially my husband. His genuine tender loving care make me the luckiest person alive. :)

Di sini lah bersemadinya baby kesayangan kami. Sehingga kita bertemu semula di syuga. Insha-Allah...

Semulajadi

2011-04-12T15:10:00.003+08:00

Dalam sedih, ada air mata,
dalam suka, ada gelak tawanya,
dalam cinta, ada sentuhan mesranya.

Fitrah dan lumrah,
qada dan qadar,
semuanya bertingkah balas,
membina asas hidup.

Setiap peristiwa,
setiap cerita,
ada jalan, ada tafsirannya,
kadang-kala minda menguasai hati,
ada kala berlaku sebaliknya,
tekad dan nekad menentu cara,
biar berputih tulang,
jangan berputih mata.

Kuatkah aku?

2011-04-03T00:26:00.003+08:00

Lagi sehari lagi... sehari lagi aku tidak akan merasai lagi gerakan2 halus di dlm perutku. Biarpun suami sentiasa cuba menenangkan aku, bila aku sendiri, pilu dan pedih, terasa sungguh sakit di bahagian hatiku.

Bukan aku tak cuba untuk tidak memikirkannya.. tapi terasa berdosa.. betulkah apa yang aku lakukan? Berhak kah aku mengakhiri degupan jantungnya?? Setiap kali baby bergerak, terasa sebak di dada. Aku cuba menjadi tabah.. menjadi kuat... positive dalam mengharungi ujian ini, tapi kuatkah aku? Bayi yang begitu kunanti, tak sabar menanti lahirnya... dalam sehari lagi akan pergi... kuatkah aku???

"Ya Allah, tolong... berilah aku kekuatan... aku terasa sungguh kecil dan lemah dalam menghadapi ujianmu ini... Hidarkan aku dari emosi negatif..."

Hanya pada Allah kami berserah...

2011-03-30T16:34:00.004+08:00

Petang hari Isnin yang lalu, tetiba aku rasa sangat lemah, seolah-olah mahu pitam. Mungkinkah kandungan gula dalam darah tinggi atau aku mengalami dehidrasi kerana kekurangan air. Apapun, petang itu, aku tahu aku tak dapat drive balik, so aku call suami untuk mengambilku dari tempat kerja. Kami terus ke Hospital UMRA untuk mendapat pemeriksaan kesihatan. Dadaku memang berdebar-debar, seolah-olah ada sesuatu yang tidak kena. Semasa giliranku dipanggil, aku pun menceritakan perihal yang berlaku kepada doktor. Doktor menasihatkan aku menjaga pemakanan, melakukan senaman ringan seperti berjalan untuk mengatasi masalah keletihan yang aku alami.

Doktor bertanyakan sama ada aku ingin melakukan detail scan memandangkan kandunganku hampir mencecah 5 bulan dan kebetulan, ada pakar scan bertugas. Aku mengiyakan sahaja sebab memang aku agak risau.

Pada mulanya, pakar scan mengatakan bahawa air ketuban atau amniotic fluid aku tiada, mungkin bocor. Kemudian doktor mula mengambil ukuran-ukuran organ dan tulang. Pada masa doktor mengesahkan ada sesuatu yang tak kena pada kidney kandunganku, terasa seperti mahu tercabut jantung dari badan. Doktor mengatakan yang kandunganku menghidapi polycystic kidney, di mana kidney itu bersaiz lebih besar dari normal dan terdapat ketulan-ketulan yang dikenali sebagai cyst di kedua-dua buah pinggang kandunganku. Ya Allah, kedua buah pinggang kandunganku gagal berfungsi, dan itu lah yang menjadi punca mengapa tiada air ketuban. Aku kemudian diberi surat rujukan untuk ke Pusat Perubatan Universiti Malaya (PPUM) untuk berjumpa sonographer specialist di sana untuk mendapat pandangan kedua.

Esoknya, kami ke PPUM tapi gagal menemui specialist kerana tiada specialist yang available. Kami diberi temujanji untuk kembali keesokannya. Hari Rabu, 30 Mac 2011, seawal jam 7.00pagi kami sudah sampai ke PPUM tapi kaunter nombor giliran hanya dibuka jam 7.30pagi. Sememangnya bermacam-macam bermain dikepalaku. Aku memang dapat mengagak apa yang bakal berlaku dan mahu bersedia dari segi mental untuk mendengar sebarang kemungkinan yang berlaku.

Pukul 8pagi, nomborku dipanggil. Selepas membuat pembayaran, kami terus diarah ke bahagian Ultrasound. Tapi kami terpaksa menunggu hingga pukul 9pagi memandangkan doktor hanya datang selepas waktu itu.

Ketika giliranku dipanggil untuk melakukan ultrasound, segalanya bagai mimpi. Satu demi satu ayat-ayat yang pernah kudengar dari mulut pakar sebelum ini diulang. Doktor mengatakan ada tiga sebab mengapa kidney kandunganku boleh rosak.

Satu kemungkinan sejarah family aku atau suami pernah menghidapi masalah kronik buah pinggang yang perlu melalui dialysis... kemungkinan aku dan suami mungkin adalah pembawa, ini dikenali sebagai polycystic kidney, dimana imejnya akan nampak seperti satu objek yang solid.

Kedua, mungkin aku adalah pembawa, dan masalah itu tidak dihidapi aku tapi diturunkan pada kandunganku, tapi kebiasaannya kalau kes sebegini, baby hanya akan menunjukkan simptom bila dewasa. Ia dipanggil sebagai Adult polycystic kidney.

Ketiga, aku dan suami bukan pembawa, tapi ia terjadi juga secara random. Biasanya hanya akan effect salah satu kidney tapi ada juga kes yang effect kedua-dua belah kidney. Ini dekenali sebagai multi-cyst.

Melihat dari segi pattern dan sejarah keluarga kami berdua, doktor mengatakan kemungkinan kandunganku menghidapi simptom yang ketiga, iaitu multicyst kidney.

Kerosakan kedua-dua belah kidney menyebabkan baby tidak mampu kencing, dan menghasilkan air ketuban. Ketiadaan air ketuban akan menyebabkan paru-paru baby gagal membentuk (kecil dan keras), tidak mampu untuk mengembang. 10% baby akan survive sekiranya dimasukkan air ketuban tambahan dan jika tiada jangkitan dan jika paru-paru baby dapat berkembang. Tetapi disebabkan kidney baby keduanya tidak berfungsi, peluang untuk baby survive tiada. Sekiranya salah satu kidney masih berfungsi, kandunganku mungkin mempunyai peluang untuk hidup.

Doktor memberikan kami pilihan, jika diteruskan kandungan, bayi akan hidup selama dia berada di dalam rahim, dan akan meninggal bila dilahirkan. Disebabkan tiada air ketuban, pembedahan akan dilakukan pada bahagian atas rahim(kerana rahim kecil, dan kandungan juga mungkin kecil). Risiko rahim akan pecah dan meninggikan risiko pada kandungan akan datang.

Pilihan yang paling sukar ialah terminate the pregnancy. Untuk menjaga rahim pada kandungan seterusnya. Bersalin secara normal (induce dengan ubat).

Berat mata memandang, berat bahu memikul. Selama ini tidak pernah terbayang bagaimana perasaan ibu-ibu yang mengalami nasib sebegini. Kami harap dugaan ini bakal membuatkan kami lebih mensyukuri kurniaan-Nya dan dapat bersabar menghadapi ujian ini. Walaupun baby hanya dipinjamkan untuk berada beberapa bulan cuma di rahimku, kami harus terus bersyukur dan tabah. Hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui dan semua alam maya ini adalah milik-Nya.

"Wahai bayi ku, Khalilullah... maafkan ibu dan ayah tidak mampu membawa engkau ke dunia ini. Sesungguhnya Allah lebih menyayangimu. Tunggulah kami di sana dan semoga engkau bahagia disamping Yang Maha Penyayang"

Merong Mahawangsa on my birthday...

2011-03-26T21:04:00.005+08:00

Yay.. today is my birthday. Thank you Allah for giving me a chance to celebrate it one more time, with my beloved husband, family and friends.

Actually we have no plan for the day. Mr Hubby still haven't get his salary. Fortunately I already got mine a day before.. hehe..

So this morning, after having breakfast, I bought the movie ticket to see the Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa aka the Malay Chronicles. I was a bit skeptical at first, but the trailer do seem very interesting. I was afraid that I would be dissapointed like watching Cicak Man.. why.. because despite having the movie in CGI, the script was horibble... major dissapoinment... but after watching Merong Mahawangsa....

I was actually feeling a glow of pride on how our cinematic industry has grown. I love the story line (altho at some part a bit off), the script also has seen lot of improvement, the CGI great, the casting excellent, especially for Merong Mahawangsa character and Kamawas. And there's bit of humor... cleverly inserted between the line. I want to give my compliment to KRU production for their bold step in raising the bar of our local movie industry. I actually enjoyed the movie much..much better than Clash of the titans which I think sucks a lot...

After having good time at the movie (early bird ticket, so only few people in the cinema)... we have lunch @ Chicken Rice Shop where I have a nice Steam Chicken Rice (was a bit angry at the waitress because she took like forever to bring me extra chillies.. I normally don't get so work up on things like that, maybe because of hormon). Then we went to Jusco to redeem my Birthday Gift Voucher where I also get RM10 voucher from the Jusco card point (spent in on delicious Korean Strawberry - RM10.90).. and went home as I was feeling very tired already...

So that's all I do today on my birthday. Yesterday also we have a nice birthday celebration in the office where Micheal treat us with Pizza Hut and New York Cheese Cake...

I have a very happy birthday this year and I am very happy to get all those warm birthday wishes!! Thank you!!

(^^)

moody

2011-03-23T20:33:00.003+08:00

Dua tiga menjak nie mood tak bess... stress je memanjang.. xtao punca apa?

maybe sebab rasa xcukop rehat, ada ja aktiviti time weeken... weekday plak keja banyak... stress... boss nak projek jalan... requirement tak complete... production request itu ini nak kena layan..

Baru2 nie boss bagi cadangan keje 6 hari seminggu?? nak cover schedule... alamak..camner...

buat BSP test untuk check gula, ada ja satu bacaan akan mencelah bagi kantoi.. tak masa awal pagi sebelum breakfast, kena plak after lunch.. akibatnyer.. tetiap minggu kena jumpe doctor.. government clinic tahu2 jalah.. ramainya orang.. lamanya tunggu... stress betul..

Cuti dah tinggal sket... asek amik time off untuk g klinik... keje plak cam jauh sangat dah delay...

aduhai... harap2 baby terus bertahan... moga2 stress nie xbagi ape2 effect negative kat baby...

nak sangat lepak bercuti tanpa perlu pikir apa2.. bila tu yek.. tak tahulah... :(

Bodoh (Stupid/ Idiot/ Moronic)

2011-03-17T14:49:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was another day for my clinic visitation to see doctor. Because of having gestational diabetis melitus (GDM), I was schedule to see the doctor once a week until I can get my blood sugar normal, then the visitation would ceased to one per two weeks time.

well... the waiting time was horible because there was a lot of people at the clinic... by the time I reached there around 7.45am, it was already pack of people. It was quite annoying but i undersatnd the situation. It was something that I need to tolerate, because of the free treatment. Our finacial still not too good due to unexpected expenses on car repairment. And despite the queues which sometimes look like forever, the service is good. I mean each visitation, I get my weight, blood pressure, test blood and urine and have ultrasound... all for free... :)

Last visitation also I received the injection (its hurt laa... long time didnot get injected on the shoulder arm) for "kancing gigi" due to starting to feel baby movement or what they call as "quickening".

Okay.. actually I wanna story about one incident that happen while I was waiting at the lab to get my blood and urine tested. Behind me seat an aunty which I assume age aroung early to middle of 40s. Can't help but eavesdropping as she spokes very loud. There's a girl turn to go and "give" her urine sample. The lab's lavatory is occupied, so she take the urine cup to other toilet. That's when I hear this aunty saying

"Haa.. tengok.. bodohnye budak tu, mana boleh pergi tandas lain, kena guna tandas makmal.. nanti macam mana nak bagi air kencing tu"
"Kalau air kencing tumpah macam mana... bodoh betul"
and she keep on nagging on how stupid the girl was... the way she talk really is annoying, as if she's the smartest person there and other people stupid...

when the girl came back with the urine in the cup, she wanna give it at the counter, and the attendant told her to put it at the designated place. No harm done right... but the aunty keep on complaining saying

"kan dah cakap. Kita yang duduk kat sini pun tahu.. apa lah bodoh sangat itu pun tak tahu"

This kind of person also exist. I don't think that the girl act equal to stupidity, she just don't know and was quite resourceful as she able to seek other alternative than waiting on an occupied lavatory. If we don't know.. we ask. By asking, it doesn't mean we are stupid, it just mean that we need assistance to things we are not familiar...

The aunty still complaining about god-knows-who and how stupid the person is when my name was call for me to proceed to test sample. "Thank God" :)

What doctor told me was everything is find except for my sugar level and the placenta is lower that it should be. She said it might not be anything to worry about as the placenta will go up later and she will check the progress (scan) by monthly to ensure everything fine. :)

BreastFeeding Talk 11/03/2011

2011-03-16T13:41:00.002+08:00

Late entries... hehe.. super duper bz week. With the clinic visitation, work, work, work and wedding.... haaaaaaaaa... super duper tired as well..

Talk bout the breastfeeding talk, it is one of the must hear talk during pregnancy. So I was schedule to attend it on that Friday evening, while Mr Hubby already in kajang for my SIL wedding.

So what do I get from the talk?? Quite a lot considering I am a first time mom and has no experience at all. I just wrote down what I remembered:-

- Breastfeeding is very important for you child as it has all the nutrient that is needed for baby growth (such as Colostrum(for imunisation and only available during 1-2 days after labour), DHA (for eyes and brain development))
- maintain a good relationship between mother and child
- cost saving :p
- higher IQs
- Good for mother as it will take care of your "rahim" and can be used as family planning for the first 6 month (*t&c applied :p)
- milk are assure not contaminated (direct feeding)
- save time (no need to wake up and prepared milk)
- prevent swollen breast
- the more you breastfeed, the more milk you will produce
- breastfeed exclusively for the first 6 month (no need additional food, supplement, water, breast milk is sufficient enuff)
- Feed by demand not by time
- additional food can be given when baby is more than 6 month but to continue breastfeed until 2 years is the best way

The talk also teaches us how to breastfeed infant correctly and how to use the breast pump.

That's all for now. I will add more later if I can remember more ;)

~Yes, I support breastfeeding!!~

Diabetic Me

2011-03-09T16:40:00.003+08:00

Bad news all over again. Yesterday did the BSP test and the result not too good. So my session with the doctor today actually addresses the concern and important of how I should control my sugar level to reduce the risk to my precious one.

Worry? Yes I am. The stress also not really helping. Stress never is good for pregnancy and having Mr Hubby sulking to me last night just make me more stressful. I really need to know how little junior is doing but I am only schedule for another scan this Wednesday, after undergoing the BSP test again (this time I ask doctor to let me do it at home using the home glucose meter) on Tuesday. Doctor warn me if I have another bad reading, I would need to be admitted to the hospital. I really don't want that.

To ease my mind, I think I am gonna go to UMRA again today for private scan. Can't wait until Wednesday to know. I know that is not good to undergo scan procedure frequently, but I just need to know.

"Ya Allah, please protect my little junior. Bless him with health and perfection of life. Forgive all my sins and bless all of my family - Amin"

Over the Rainbow

2011-03-05T09:11:00.002+08:00

This is one of my favourite song ever. I've first heard in The Wizard of Oz where Dorothy sing it and fall in love with this song. It so great to see this song sang again in Glee :)

Enjoy!!

LYRICS:
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I dreamed of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

Diabetes Mellitus in Pregnancy

2011-03-02T18:21:00.002+08:00

Copy from HubPages.COM

Gestational Diabetes
What is gestational diabetes?

Gestational diabetes is the diabetes mellitus that develop for the first time during pregnancy. It disappeared 6 weeks after delivery.

How does it occur?
During pregnancy, the placental secretes 3 anti-insulin hormones ® estrogen, hPL(human placental lactogen) & cortisol. These hormones against the function of insulin (The function of insulin is to reduce the blood sugar level). To counter this effect, the pancreas produces and secretes more insulin. Thus, the level of insulin is raised by the action of the placental hormones, placing a burden on the insulin-secreting cells (pancreatic islets). The pancreas may be unable to meet these demands in women genetically predisposed to develop both types of diabetes.

There are 2 scenarios of diabetes in pregnancy:

· Established diabetes

Women who are already diabetic at the start of pregnancy (most cases)

· Gestational diabetes

Development of diabetes for the first time during pregnancy.

Gestational diabetes may or may not disappear following delivery. Repeated pregnancy may increase the likelihood of developing permanent diabetes, particularly in obese women. Studies have shown that some 80% of women with gestational diabetes ultimately develop permanent clinical diabetes requiring treatment.

How to confirm gestational diabetes?
It is diagnosed by a test, called Modified Oral Glucose Tolerance Test (MOGTT), which show raised blood sugar level.

Procedure for MOGTT:

• MOGTT should be done in the morning after at least 3 days of normal diet and usual physical activity

• The test should be proceed by an overnight fast of 10-16 hours during which plain water may be allowed

• Subjects should be at rest for the duration of test. Smoking is not permitted. The presence of factors that influence interpretation of the result of the test must be recorded. (e.g. medication, inactivity, infection)

• After collection of fasting blood sample, the subject is required to drink 75g of anhydrous glucose in 250-300ml water within 10 minutes

• Another blood sample must be collected 2 hrs after finishing glucose drink

It is confirmed if:

• Fasting blood sugar >7.0mmol/L or

• 2 hours Post-sugar - >11.1 mmol/L

1-2% of women will develop gestational diabetes and they are having risk to develop diabetes mellitus type 2 in future.

What are the risk factors?

• Women >35 years old
• Maternal obesity (BMI >30)
• Family background of diabetes mellitus among 1st degree relatives
• Previous history of big baby (>4 kg)
• History of gestational diabetes in previous pregnancy
• History of unexplained fetal death
• History of congenital anomaly in previous pregnancy

What are the symptoms?

• Usually no symptom

• Sometime may develop:
– Excessive passage of urine
– Extreme thirsty
– Excessive passage of urine at night or during sleep
– Extreme hunger
– Infection
– Sweet smelling breath
– Irritability
– Unusual weight loss
– Nausea
– Vomiting

What are the effects to the mother and the baby?

Effects to the pregnant mother

1. Pregnancy induced hypertension (2 times greater risk to develop hypertension compared to non diabetic pregnant mother and it is because of the effect of estrogen hormone and the abnormality of blood vessel)

2. Excessive amniotic fluid + premature rupture of amniotic membrane

3. Premature labour give rise to premature baby

4. Infection

Urinary tract infection (d/t high sugar level in the urine, therefore bacteria are more likely to grow)

Candidiasis of the vulva and vagina

Effects to the fetus/baby

1. Early pregnancy

Spontaneous abortion

Congenital anomalies (heart, limbs, spinal cord)

2. Later pregnancy

Big baby (more than 4kg at birth, it is because when the mother’s blood sugar levels are elevated, the sugar crosses the placenta and cause blood sugar level in fetus increased as well. The fetus in such a setting is “overfed” and grows large, with increased deposits of fat and glycogen. Large baby has a significantly increased risk for birth trauma. Besides that, high blood sugar level in fetus also causing overproduction of insulin in the fetus. Insulin promotes growth, therefore the fetus grow rapidly)

Fetal death (Due to poor oxygen delivery to the fetus)

Polycythemia (A condition marked by an abnormally large number of red blood cells in the circulatory system as a compensation of lack of oxygen.)+ hyperbilirubinemia (excessive bilirubin in blood due to excessive breakdown of the red blood cell and it cause jaundice)

3. After delivery

Low blood sugar level (Fetus exposed to high blood sugar level results in over production of insulin hormone. When it is delivered and the sugar supply is cut off but the insulin secretion persists, the infant can develop extremely low sugar level, especially during the early hours of life. This can be serious since the brain utilizes sugar as a major substrate. Prolonged low blood sugar level can produce brain dysfunction.)

Jaundice (yellowish discoloration of the whites of the eyes, skin, and mucous membranes)

Breathing difficulty (because of delayed fetal lung maturation and the harming effect of insulin hormone on lung maturation)

What should I do to prevent/ overcome this problem?

Principles:

· Control maternal blood sugar levels

· Early delivery (at least not post date) in an appropriate site based on fetal heart testing and lung maturity

BSP (Blood Sugar Profile)

2011-03-02T17:54:00.002+08:00

Oh dear. My MGTT test result are out and because the phone number use belong to Mr. hubby, the nurse just called him today. He message me to let me know that I need to do ~~PSP~~ BSP test.

First I google for PSP and get "Pemeriksaan sendiri payudara" as the result. Weird, so I text him and ask what is PSP? He explain that it's another glucose test.. and I have DIABETES :-O!!!

Bad news..bad news.. so I google and found out that he actually refer to BSP. Its a test to see whether I have gestational diabetes. The test would required my blood to be tested 4x (8am, 11am,5pm and 9pm). I need to do the test because my glucose level in blood is higher than the normal <7 in my last MGTT test.

I really need to control my diet now, because having diabetes is not only dangerous for me, but for our sweet junior. So sad... at least I get to know it early and do what it take to control it from becoming worst.

Please pray everything will go well for me. Amin.