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    Tuesday, March 31, 2009
    I AM SO ANGRY...

    I WONT PICK UP HER CALL AT THE MOMENT. HOW COME SHE BE SO SELFISH...

    URGHH!!!!

    I AM BETTER OFF LIVING FAR AWAY FROM HER.. IT WOULD DO BOTH OF US FAVOR.

    www.tips-fb.com Memory 28032009

    Monday, March 30, 2009


    www.tips-fb.com Hate

    Sunday, March 29, 2009
    There are many types of people in these world. And we re acted differently. Maybe some would still be cool even if they are publicly humiliated while other would burst into tears, or anger or even try to get even.

    I am different. And I know my-type. And seriously, I am not the type, oh-i understand-u-cant-call-me-bcoz-u-outstation, or its-ok-to-have-a-long-distance-relationship or it-is-so-much-fun-that-i-have-my-own-space-now-that-u-far, or i-know-u-miss-me-too-so-its-ok, or as-long-as-u-love-me-there's-no-need-for-continous-show-of-affection or i-understand-that-it-is-too-much-effort-to-make-things-evolve-around-me-the-way-i-wanted-it-too.

    Well, I AM NOT. I seriously not that type. The feeling I have inside me, its gonna explode someday. U think its funny when I say I miss you, or I need you, or what can we do...we are so far away. I have one word for that, "BULLSHIT".

    And u say why cant I understand it, BECAUSE THATS NOT WHO I AM. I dont take bullshit. I miss you so hard, now what I can feel is a lot of anger towards you..

    and

    I HATE YOU!!

    www.tips-fb.com Happy Birthday

    Thursday, March 26, 2009
    Happy Birthday to me :)

    www.tips-fb.com My journey Home

    Wednesday, March 25, 2009



    Guess, what pictures are those? I know, it is obvious. It is the picture of the road I've taken everyday to get to work. I've just take these on my way back from work today. It was almost empty with no sight of any vehicle.

    When I went to work or get back from work, I usually will pass through a herd of buffalos and cows. They will covered the road, and I have to be careful not to drive too fast or I mite ran into one. The cowss and buffalo are so huge. It could simply knock my tiny little car into junk.

    Well, am I a weird person if I say that I love looking at the animals and the smelly smell, feel quite refreshing to me. It is so nature.

    www.tips-fb.com Smile

    The time was around 8.00pm when I was driving out of One Utama Shopping Complex parking space, after my gym session. I was tired and not in a very good mood that day. My mind was telling me that I need to get home ASAP. I was a bit pissed off as one of the car in front of me was driving way slow, and was surely taking his time even to slot in the parking ticket to the machine.

    When I was about to drive to the main road, there's a mother and her kid trying to cross in front of me. Well, despite my judgment to just drive on, I stop to gave way to them to cross first. The lady looked at me and smile, while her kid, frantically waving and smiling at me, he seem so happy crossing the road.

    That simple action, automatically brought a smile to my face. I felt good with myself and I was smiling all the way home. The tiredness and my moodiness seem to vanish and replace by a warm feeling inside of me.

    sometime I forgot, how a simple deed could bring a huge impact. I must do that more often, and smile more. Life could get better.. in some way, I guess..

    :)

    www.tips-fb.com Sorry Sorry - Super Junior =p~



    Download This Awesome Song :)

    www.tips-fb.com How to save a life :)

    I was waiting for my mother in a car, on the roadside, as she has turn back to her house because she forget something. So while waiting, I cast my eyes to every place, simply because there's nothing to do or see. In that small town, nothing would interest you much. And the day was warm.

    Then I heard my step father motorcycle engine. She has finally came back. While she was getting in the car, I saw a tiny, fragile, weak little kitten trying to cross the road (she was in the middle of the road already). It was so tiny, my guess would be two or three weeks old. Before I could think of anything, I open up the door, and ran to fetch it, before any vehicle drive through and might kill it.

    So that day, I ended up, fetching my mom and that tiny little kitten, which I have no idea, how to take care of it. (I already have four adult cats at home and they are all indoor).

    Luckily, my Auntie who was at my grandmother house that day, decided to adopt that cute kitten. I was relief as I knew how good my auntie is with cat.

    Last time when I went to visit my auntie, I saw that tiny kitten has grown healthily and clean. She was very happy, running around, playing, teasing her adopted sister, and I feel good. Good to know that because of my small deed, I have save a life. And most importantly, I have given myself and my auntie a chance to be charmed by the cute little angel.

    :)

    www.tips-fb.com Empty

    Tuesday, March 24, 2009
    I have deleted what suppose to be written here tonite. I just decide, well maybe not tonight. I am tired.

    Maybe I wrote something tomorrow. :)

    Good Nite!

    www.tips-fb.com Envious

    Monday, March 23, 2009
    People who travel a lot have so much thing to share(write). and I envy them, cause I am stuck here and juz talking nonsense... while there're millions of different things happening in the world, at precisely fifteen seconds ago..

    urgh!! talk bout being green wif envy!!!

    www.tips-fb.com My Darlings

    Saturday, March 21, 2009


    Sorry bout the video quality, it's taken at nite time, juz via my camera phone. :D

    www.tips-fb.com Honesty

    Here we go again. another lonely saturday nite. What tha song playing on my pc, hell, like I give it a damn. I should juz turn it off.

    ~turning the music off~

    Now, juz listening to the water, pumping from the aquarium filter, sound kinda pathetic, not mentioning that tonight is quite warm. The fan is at it full speed, yet I am sweating. I really doesn't have anything to write, but I just feel like writing. You know, when you suddenly have the urge of throwing out all your pathethic thought to the cyber community. As if people would read this crap. Anyway, that's never was the point. The point here is just I need to write.

    I have a story. Everyone does. I am not gonna share it tonight, but keeping it mum is not easy. So I do what I always do best. Telling another crap to bury my sense of honesty and keep it in a lockdown.

    ~wait.. i open up the door first to let the cool night air in, it is getting warmer inside, I'm suffocating~

    I was wondering, when can I truly be honest with myself. Why are there so many at stakes, honesty does have a hefty price tag that I am not sure I could bear to pay. Come to think, how many are there, people I mean, that were truly honest with themself. Juz forget other people, forget the moral or civic value, forget about everything else, juz concentrate in our self and be honest. What we truly feel inside? No, we can't do that, we have Religion, Morale, Family, Community, Law, Rules etc... and we are bound by all of it, making us, all just hypocrite people who trying to prove that we are better than the worst people.

    Better than murderer, rapist, whore, slut, bitch, bastard, jerks... We are what we are.. we sure are... we are on a lifetime conquest just to prove that. ain't we?

    Like Dean say in Supernatural " You tell people the truth, they'll put you in a strapped jacket" or something like that.

    :D

    One thing that is perfectly clear is, we are always the hero, the victim, the innocent one and the other party, always the villain, the cause, the source, the evil one.

    Sometime it just doesn't seem fair at all...

    www.tips-fb.com Stupid

    Friday, March 20, 2009
    Nobody was ever born stupid, but the capacity of absorbing information, plus our determination in achieving our unconscious mindset, make us somewhat intelligent and others stupid.

    One people stupidity could be other people intellectual gain.

    Conclusion, " I am writing something utterly rubbish again"

    www.tips-fb.com The Two Prominent Side of Me

    Wednesday, March 18, 2009
    First Side:
    I'm 27, haven't had any real accomplishment, always angry as hell, always like blaming the world, easily submit to utter depression, tend to hurt myself,
    hate advice, hate explanation, hate reasoning, hate having to explain myself, hate ignorant people,
    hate judgmental people, hate people, hate myself, hate being hypocrite,
    I'm selfish, I'm defensive, I'm cold towards people I don't like, I have quick temper.
    if people hurt me, I hurt them worst, I can be cruel to those who hurt me,
    I hold vengeance towards those who did me wrong, I lied, I'm egoistic

    Second Side:
    I'm almost 27, I have a secured job, a loving family, my lovely cats, I have a car, I have a driving license, like laughing a loud,
    I have a motorcycle, I have a place to live, I eat well, I can go to see movie, I can read, I enjoy watching movies,
    I have friends who are willing to listen and help me if I ask them, I am not stupid, I am not a slave,
    I am loved, I'm animal lover, I'm willing to help others if I can,
    I put the one I love first before me, I am not stingy, I respect my family more than anything else,
    once I love someone, I will always love them, I can say I'm sorry, I can tolerate a lot of thing as long as its not too much, I am dependent, I am not scared, I'm adaptable, no matter how hard, I know I survive

    www.tips-fb.com Thing on my mind today

    the past could never represent the future..
    thus making the present vital to it very core..

    www.tips-fb.com Good Night, Good Night [Maroon 5]

    Tuesday, March 17, 2009


    You left me hanging from a thread we once swung from together
    I’ve lick my wounds but I can’t ever see them getting better
    Something’s gotta change
    Things cannot stay the same

    Her hair was pressed against her face, her eyes were red with anger
    Enraged by things unsaid and empty beds and bad behavior
    Something’s gotta change
    It must be rearranged, oh

    I’m sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
    It’s beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world
    So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
    Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
    Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah
    Whoa

    The room was silent as we all tried so hard to remember
    The way it feels to be alive
    The day that he first met her
    Something’s gotta change
    Things cannot stay the same

    You make me think of someone wonderful, but I can’t place her
    I wake up every morning wishing one more time to face her
    Something’s gotta change
    It must be rearranged, oh

    I’m sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
    It’s beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of a heavy world
    So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
    Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
    Goodnight, hope that things work out all right

    So much to love
    So much to learn
    But I won’t be there to teach you, oh
    I know I can be close
    But I try my best to reach you

    I’m so sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
    It’s beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of a heavy world
    So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
    Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
    Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
    Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah
    Whoa, oh

    www.tips-fb.com My lil angel

    Monday, March 16, 2009

    Those dark blue eyes,
    the furry innocent face,
    that little paws,
    I know I will surely miss.

    The voice so sweet,
    delicate as cotton candy,
    in your brownish colour,
    you've stolen my heart.

    I lay a kiss on you,
    your tiny leg gently pushing my face away,
    although they said my heart is cold,
    but never would i be cold to you.

    My little angel,
    grow strong, cute and cuddly,
    Mika, Sachii, Aiko,
    I will always be with you.

    www.tips-fb.com Is there a wrong reason for love?

    Friday, March 13, 2009
    Did I love you for the right reason?

    Did my reason to love are just petty excuses in acknowledging that I'm human?

    www.tips-fb.com Forgive me for being mad at you

    I love you, I always have. It has been program into my head since child birth. But the time is 12.33 pm and I am still wide awake, feeling a surge of anger towards you. I am so sorry about our last conversation, but sometimes it is very hard to be tolerance with you.

    You never really know how to show your love. Sometime I would feel as if I am being neglected and you would not care about me. I have tried to be as understanding as I can be. You know, since my childhood, you have made it clear to us that money would always be a big issue. Each time some thing involved money, I would end up feeling sad and miserable, I miss out lots of things, but I understand your hardship. I know, you teach me to be independent, or in other word, I was forced to be independent to survive. Yes, some people show the compassion towards me, but I hated them for pitying me, because for me, only pathetic people would need other people sympathy. But it is okay, in the outside, deep within me, without any intention of yours or mine, I have develop a dark personality, full of hatred, anger, low self-esteem, depression and I am really good at lying. Just to put a perfect show for everyone so they know that I am okay and I don’t need any sympathy at all, or help.

    I know all of these years you have change a lot. I can see that you are now aware of how important it is to show your love, but sometimes, you did forget and it hurt. You never ask me if I ever need any help, you don’t even know how many times I have hurt myself out of depression, you always assume that I am some kind of super child who is capable to do all without any guidance from you. Yes, most of thing in life I have to learn by myself, that include how to solat, arrange my school application, applying for scholarship, manage my own study. You even LOAN me some money for my university’s used that I later work as part time to pay you back. But it is okay. I don’t mind that.

    But tonight, please forgive me for being angry at you. I am angry because after this years, you still couldn’t appreciate what I’ve did. You refused to understand the tight situation I am in right now. And it just because of money… and it always have been, and I am left feeling sad… and I really hope, among so many people, you would understand. I make a lot of mistake simply because I am learning alone, so do not punish me for something you never told me before. Come to think of it, I am feeling sadder than angry. I just wish, for one time, you would consider about me, and not just yourself. And please, don’t treat me like the way you should when I was 8-year-old, it is too late now, treat me like I am 27.

    Could you at least do that for me???????????????????????????????

    www.tips-fb.com 100 years without you.

    Thursday, March 12, 2009
    I never thought that we were in love. All this time, what we do is just fighting. We are too deep in ourself to realise the feeling that reside, buried so long within us. Now that we no longer together, I realized, all I ever wanted of you. I would change one day of peaceful life, with 100years fighting with you. At least, I am not alone.

    Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku
    Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu
    Kini kau pergi dari hidupku
    Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau

    Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
    Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
    Tak ada lagi cahaya suci
    Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

    Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku
    Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
    Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
    Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukan waktu

    Berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati
    Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
    Takada lagi cahaya suci
    Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi
    ~matahariku~agnes monica~

    www.tips-fb.com Hitohira no hanabira [Stereo Pony] - Bleach

    Wednesday, March 11, 2009
    Currently, this is my favourite Anime Song from Bleach. DOWNLOAD HERE



    Hitohira no hanabira ga yurete iru boku no tonari de ima
    Machigatta koi datta sonna koto omoitaku wa nai

    Tel no mukou kurai kao shiteru
    Kiridasu kotoba ni obietenda
    Ittai itsu kara bokura konna kimochi ni
    Kizukanai furi tsuzukete tanda
    Deatta hi no you na ano suki tooru kaze no naka de
    Yarinaoseru no nara mou ichido dakishimetai

    Hitohira no hanabira ga yurete iru boku no tonari de ima
    Machigatta koi datta sonna koto omoitaku wa nai

    Suki datta hazu datta itsu datte koe ga kikitaku naru hodo
    Sore nanoni te ga todoku saki no kimi ga mienaku narisouda

    Heiki datte sugu gaman shiteta nowa
    Kitto bokutachi no warui toko de
    Itsumo issho ni itaitte omotteta noni
    Surechigai wa genjitsu wo kaeta
    Deatta hi no you na ano yawaraka na egao datte
    Sugu ni tori modoseru ki ga shiteta dakishimetai

    Hitohira no hanabira ga yurete iru boku no tonari de ima
    Machigatta koi datta sonna koto omoitaku wa nai

    Damatta mama no kimi no te no hira
    Tadori tsuita namida ga hajiketa
    Konna bokutachi no jikan wo maki modoshite

    Hitohira no hanabira ga mai ochita boku no tonari de ima
    Machigatta koi datta nante wasurerareru hazu wa nainda

    Suki datta suki datta ima datte sugari tsukitaku naru hodo
    Sore nanoni te ga todoku saki no kimi ga mienaku narisouda



    Translation
    A single flower petal brushes against my skin
    I don’t want to believe
    our romance was a mistake

    You have a dark face, on the other side of the phone
    You were scared of the words that were to come out

    From when did we try not to realize feelings like this?
    In the clear wind, like the day we met
    if we can do it all over
    I want to be with you

    A single flower petal brushes against my skin
    I don’t want to believe
    our romance was a mistake
    I should have been in love
    so much that if I wanted to hear your voice anytime
    Even though my hands reach out
    you seem to be fading away

    We’ve got a bad, bad habit of saying “everything’s fine” and bottling it up
    I always thought about how i wanted to be with you forever
    but we don’t see eye to eye
    I assumed i could always make you smile
    in that soft, gentle way of yours
    like when we first met
    I want to hold you…

    A single flower petal brushes against my skin
    I don’t want to believe
    our romance was a mistake

    The palm of yours
    who has kept it silent
    the tears that reached they splashed
    Please rewind time for us who’ve become like this

    A single flower fluttered down beside me now
    I can’t possibly forget it
    thinking it was a mistake
    I thought I loved you
    I wanted to hear your voice more and more
    and while my hand still reaches yours,
    I can’t see what your future holds.

    www.tips-fb.com Kitten's name

    Today the kitten already 11-day-old. All of them have open up their eyes. Their red nose has change it color to black and the fur now has darken a bit to display their beautiful brownish. Yes, I already have names for them.

    They are called Aiko (little love one), Mika (beautiful/sweet smell), Sachii (child of Joy) and Hime (Princess). Yet I haven't determine their gender. Hope Hime is a princess, if not I have to change her name. :)

    www.tips-fb.com Sepintas Lalu

    Tuesday, March 10, 2009
    Look deep, look hard.. u still can't seem to see me?
    U know why, because I'm not there, I never was...
    I never has a place in your heart...

    www.tips-fb.com The Gummy Bear

    Tuesday, March 03, 2009



    Oh.. I Love Gummy Gummy... yummy!

    www.tips-fb.com Just Dance - [Lady Gaga]

    www.tips-fb.com BackDated Post 1 Mac

    Monday, March 02, 2009
    Wake up early today for my craft class. And because of me being rushing and everything, I left my purse at home and luckily, I have one colleague living in Kulim, so I had to borrow her money first to pay for the class fee. To turn back home, is too far away, and I won't make it on time.

    So, to cut the story short, here are some picture of what I have made.

    Warning. U might not call this a craft. Keep in mind that this is a handmade item of a clueless beginner who actually found out that all those auntie and grannies, make better product than her :P





    www.tips-fb.com BackDated Post 28 Febuary -

    Today, supposely I went to the Zoom Travel Fair in QB Mall with my frens and then to the USM Career Fair, but I had a changed of plan bcoz my mom asked me to take her to the Hospital to see my step father [ his daughter said that he had been admitted to the hospital]. So I drive back to hometown early in the morning. But when we arrived at the hospital, his daughter said that he already went back home. Kinda make me angry you see, waste my time and energy and money [for travelling lah], and I think they bluffing about their father being admitted to the hospital. As soon as we heard that news, we went to his daughter house. And my mom end up staying there, and me sending my grandmother home afterward. Feeling disgusted by their behaviour, not mentioning the tiredness I felt, I just cant wait to get home.

    As I enter my house, I was greeted with a wonderful news. My Bhutan has gave birth to four very cute kittens. I was so thrill as I have been waiting for this. Cant wait to see them grew up.




    They are cute right. All four has the some colour. :D

    www.tips-fb.com Money (That's What I want) -[Beatles]

    The best things in life are free
    But you can keep 'em for the birds and bees
    Now give me money (that's what I want)
    That's what I want (that's what I want)
    That's what I want (that's what I want), yeah
    That's what I want

    Your lovin' gives me a thrill
    But your lovin' don't pay my bills
    Now give me money (that's what I want)
    That's what I want (that's what I want)
    That's what I want (that's what I want), yeah
    That's what I want

    Money don't get everything, it's true
    What it don't get, I can't use
    Now give me money (that's what I want)
    That's what I want (that's what I want)
    That's what I want (that's what I want), yeah
    That's what I want

    Money don't get everything, it's true
    What it don't get, I can't use
    Now give me money (that's what I want)
    That's what I want (that's what I want)
    That's what I want (that's what I want), yeah
    That's what I want

    Well, now give me money (that's what I want)
    A lot of money (that's what I want)
    Whoa, yeah, I wanna be free (that's what I want)
    Whoa, a lot of money (that's what I want)
    That's what I want (that's what I want), yeah
    That's what I want

    Well, now give me money (that's what I want)
    A lot of money (that's what I want)
    Whoa, yeah, you owe me money (that's what I want)
    Oh, now give me money (that's what I want)
    That's what I want (that's what I want), yeah
    That's what I want.

    www.tips-fb.com Tired

    I'm tired..
    I'm seriously feel so tired ..
    yea.. yea ..its my fault..
    but i just couldn't take it anymore..
    I am so tired of debt..
    will it ever end!!

    Now the Beatles song keep on playing on and on in my head...



    I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink
    I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink
    I wonder should I get up and fix myself a drink
    No,no,no.

    I'm so tired I don't know what to do
    I'm so tired my mind is set on you
    I wonder should I call you but I know what you would do

    You'd say I'm putting you on
    But it's no joke, it's doing me harm
    You know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brain
    You know it's three weeks, I'm going insane
    You know I'd give you everything I've got
    for a little peace of mind

    I'm so tired, I'm feeling so upset
    Although I'm so tired I'll have another cigarette
    And curse Sir Walter Raleigh
    He was such a stupid git.

    You'd say I'm putting you on
    But it's no joke, it's doing me harm
    You know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brain
    You know it's three weeks, I'm going insane
    You know I'd give you everything I've got
    for a little peace of mind
    I'd give you everything I've got for a little peace of mind
    I'd give you everything I've got for a little peace of mind
    (mumbling)




    ANY IDEA ON HOW TO EARN EXTRA CASH?? :(