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    Friday, February 27, 2009
    On my way driving back home yesterday, I was thinking about how many dreams I have let go.

    Once, we were just kids. There were so many possibilities. Things to be explore, talent to be discovered. There were so many dreams. The only things that would bother us would be when mommy refused to let us watch our favourite tv programs, doing the chores that we hate, have to study hard, and of course the rejection look that mommy gave when we asked for extra pocket money.

    Everything seem possibles. We could grow up to be anything These dreams I have to bean actress, an astronaut, and not forgetting, to be a private investigator [thanks to the Hardy Boys and Nancy Drew's series].

    Now, we are left with so many worries, and shattered dreams. We are stuck at the decision that we have made and the time that has forever gone.

    If I had one wish, I wish that I would still have the passion of an eight-year-old-girl.

    Oh, how I wish!

    www.tips-fb.com Fun Video

    Wednesday, February 25, 2009


    www.tips-fb.com Pasal Melayu Kita

    Tuesday, February 24, 2009
    Sekarang kalau tengok politik Malaysia, aku hanya mampu geleng kepala. Satu aku tak faham akan sandiwara yang berlaku, satu lagi sebab aku sedih dengan ayat-ayat yang dihamburkan dari mulut bangsa melayu kita. Perkataan yang aku anggap kesat, low-class, tak membawa faedah seperti bangsat, barua, dajal, semua dihamburkan seolah-olah perkara biasa. Marah sana, marah sini, kemarahan membuak di mana-mana. Melayu menyalahkan Cina, India dan sebaliknya. Tak kurang juga melayu bercakaran dengan melayu. Tuduhan dihamburkan sesuka hati, seolah-olah sudah hilang pekerti kita sebagai manusia. Mudah benar melenting. Kononnya tecabar maruah dan sebagainya, lantas maki-makian dihambur.

    Aku sedih setiap kali membaca komen-komen di blog, di surat khabar, di kaca televisyen. Penat telinga nak mendengar perkara yang sama. Aku di antara penduduk Malaysia yang selalu mengeluh melihat telatah masyarakat sekarang. Pelbagai taktik digunakan untuk memancing pengaruh. Dan kita, pemerhati dari jauh, pening memikirkan siapa salah, siapa betul, kenapa jadi begini.

    Aku hidup dalam suasana bercampur gaul. Teman rapat terdiri dari pelbagai bangsa, kekadang bila dicanangkan racism di sana-sini, aku malas nak ambil peduli, sebab aku lihat keadaan masih aman. Mereka yang bersorak gempak itu yang membuat riuh, membuat kecoh, mengganggu gugat ketenangan hidup kami. kami bangun tido, bekerja, dan balik rumah berhibur bersama keluarga, di sana mereka mengadakan perhumpunan haram di sana sini. melaungkan bantahan demi bantahan. Semuanya belandaskan satu perkara, kegilaan mendapatkan kuasa. Yang menjadi mangsa penyokong dan orang bawahan.

    Aku rindukan pemimpin yang dapat berhujah secara intelek. Pemimpin yang boleh kulihat sebagai pengemudi negara, bebas dari anasir dengki, gila kuasa, saling menyalahkan. Pihak pembangkang dan kerajaan sama saja. Kekadang sesuatu isu itu betul pun dibidas hanya disebabkan tidak dtg dr pihak yang sama. Nasib baiklah isu Palestine semua bersatu hati. Apa tidaknya, berani cakap sebaliknya, sudah pasti digelar tidak berperikemanuasiaan dan dibenci.

    Satu sahaja harapanku, janganlah semua isu dipolitikkan. Aku selaku rakyat biasa yang makin menyampah melihat keadaan politik semasa, hanya mengharapkan kepentingan kami dijaga. Jgn asyik berpolitik merebut kuasa hingga kami dilupakan.

    ** Ini hanya pendapat penulis sahaja, tiada kaitan dengan mana-mana pihak. **

    www.tips-fb.com Dying

    There are two ways of dying that I always scared of. When I am driving, I'm afraid that the other car would crash towards mine, or if I'll collide with a trailer. The other thing I fear of is, got bitten by snake when I am in the bathroom at my hometown or while walking near bushes.

    The main reason for my fear is, on both occasion which I mostly do, I have no control, and it will happen so abruptly. There are lots of other way we could die, but this two scare me most.

    (-S

    www.tips-fb.com Jai Ho [AR Rahman]

    Monday, February 23, 2009
    Song from the best motion Picture, Slumdog Millionaire - with translation



    Download This Song

    Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS!,IT ROCKS!,IT ROCKS!,OH IT ROCKS!)
    Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale
    (COME ON MY LIFE, JOIN ME UNDER THE BIG ROOF)
    Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale
    (COME JOIN ME UNDER THE GLITTERING BLUE SKY)
    Jai Ho Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS..OH IT ROCKS!)

    Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale
    (COME ON MY LIFE, JOIN ME UNDER THE BIG ROOF)
    Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale
    (COME JOIN ME UNDER THE GLITTERING BLUE SKY)
    Jai Ho Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS..OH IT ROCKS!)
    Jai Ho Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS..OH IT ROCKS!)

    Ratti Ratti Sachi Maine Jaan Gavayi Hai
    (NIGHT AFTER NIGHT I TRULY DIED..)
    Nach Nach Koylo Pe Raat Bitayi Hai
    (SPENT THE NIGHTS DANCING ON HOT COALS..)
    Akhiyon Ki Neend Maine Phoonko Se Uda Di
    (I BLEW AWAY THE SLEEP IN MY EYES..)
    Neele Neele Tare Maine Ungli Jalayi Hai
    (I BURNT MY FINGERS TRYING TO TOUCH THE STARS..)
    Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale
    (COME ON MY LIFE, JOIN ME UNDER THE BIG ROOF)
    Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale
    (COME JOIN ME UNDER THE GLITTERING BLUE SKY)
    Jai Ho Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS..OH IT ROCKS!)
    Jai Ho Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS..OH IT ROCKS!)

    [The Spanish part]

    Baila! Baila!
    (Dance! Dance!)

    Ahora conmigo, tu baila para hoy
    (Now with me, you dance for today)

    Por nuestro dia olvidas,
    (For our day, just forget..)

    los problemas que sean
    (whatever problems there may be)

    Salud!
    (Cheers!)

    Baila! Baila!
    (Dance! Dance!)

    Jai Ho Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS..OH IT ROCKS!)
    Jai Ho Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS..OH IT ROCKS!)
    Chakh Le Ho Chakh Le Ye Raat Shahad Hai Chakh Le
    (TASTE IT, O TASTE IT, THE NIGHT IS HONEY, TASTE IT)
    Rakh Le Haan Dil Hai Dil Aakhri Had Hai Rakh Le
    (KEEP MY HEART, IT IS THE LAST LIMIT, YEAH KEEP IT)
    Kala Kala, Kajal Tera Koi Kala Jadoo Hai Na
    (DARK, THIS EYELINER OF YOURS, IS LIKE A MAGICAL SPELL)

    Kala Kala Kajal Tera Koi Kala Jadoo Hai Na
    (DARK, THIS EYELINER OF YOURS, IS LIKE A MAGICAL SPELL)
    Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale
    (COME ON MY LIFE, JOIN ME UNDER THE BIG ROOF)
    Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale, Jai Ho, Jai Ho
    (COME JOIN ME UNDER THE GLITTER BLUE SKY,.. IT ROCKS!IT ROCKS!)
    Jai Ho Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS!..)
    Jai Ho Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS!..)

    Kab Se Han Kab Se Jo Lab Pe Ruki Hai Keh De
    (FOR SO LONG, YES FOR SO LONG, WHAT'S BEEN KEPT FROM YOUR LIPS, SAY IT)
    Keh De Ha Keh De Ab Aankh Jhuki Hai.. Keh De
    (SAY IT, O SAY IT, NOW THAT YOUR EYES ARE SHOWING IT..SAY IT!)
    Aisi Aisi, Roshan Aankhe, Roshan Dono heeray, Hai Kya
    (SUCH, AH SUCH LIT-UP EYES (OF YOURS), BRIGHT AS DIAMONDS, AREN'T THEY? )
    Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale
    (COME ON MY LIFE, JOIN ME UNDER THE BIG ROOF)
    Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale
    (COME JOIN ME UNDER THE GLITTERING BLUE SKY)
    Jai Ho.. Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS!..OH IT ROCKS!)

    Baila baila (Spanish)
    (Dance! Dance!)
    Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS!..)
    Baila baila (Spanish)
    (Dance! Dance!)
    Jai Ho
    (IT ROCKS!..)

    www.tips-fb.com 81st Academy Awards WINNERS

    And the Oscar goes to:

    Performance by an actor in a leading role
    - Sean Penn in "Milk" (Focus Features)

    Performance by an actor in a supporting role
    - Heath Ledger in "The Dark Knight" (Warner Bros.)

    Performance by an actress in a leading role
    - Kate Winslet in "The Reader" (The Weinstein Company)

    Performance by an actress in a supporting role
    - Penélope Cruz in "Vicky Cristina Barcelona" (The Weinstein Company)

    Best animated feature film of the year
    - WALL-E (Walt Disney)

    Achievement in art direction
    - The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (Paramount and Warner Bros.) Art Direction: Donald Graham Burt Set Decoration: Victor J. Zolfo

    Achievement in cinematography
    - Slumdog Millionaire (Fox Searchlight) Anthony Dod Mantle

    Achievement in costume design
    - The Duchess (Paramount Vantage, Pathé and BBC Films) Michael O'Connor

    Achievement in directing
    - Slumdog Millionaire (Fox Searchlight) Danny Boyle

    Best documentary feature
    - Man on Wire (Magnolia Pictures) A Wall to Wall Production James Marsh and Simon Chinn

    Best documentary short subject
    - Smile Pinki A Principe Production Megan Mylan

    Achievement in film editing
    - Slumdog Millionaire (Fox Searchlight) Chris Dickens

    Best foreign language film of the year
    - Departures (Regent Releasing) A Departures Film Partners Production - Japan

    Achievement in makeup
    - "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" (Paramount and Warner Bros.) Greg Cannom

    Achievement in music written for motion pictures (Original score)
    - Slumdog Millionaire (Fox Searchlight) A.R. Rahman

    Achievement in music written for motion pictures (Original song)
    - "Jai Ho" from "Slumdog Millionaire" (Fox Searchlight). Music by A.R. Rahman. Lyrics by Gulzar

    Best motion picture of the year
    - Slumdog Millionaire (Fox Searchlight)

    Best animated short film
    - "La Maison en Petits Cubes" A Robot Communications Production Kunio Kato

    Best live action short film
    - "Spielzeugland (Toyland)" A Mephisto Film Production Jochen Alexander Freydank

    Achievement in sound editing
    - The Dark Knight (Warner Bros.) Richard King

    Achievement in sound mixing
    - Slumdog Millionaire (Fox Searchlight) Ian Tapp, Richard Pryke and Resul Pookutty

    Achievement in visual effects
    - The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (Paramount and Warner Bros.) Eric Barba, Steve Preeg, Burt Dalton and Craig Barron

    Adapted screenplay
    - Slumdog Millionaire (Fox Searchlight) Screenplay by Simon Beaufoy

    Original screenplay
    - Milk (Focus Features) Written by Dustin Lance Black

    www.tips-fb.com This manage to get in the lil column of the news paper today



    There's a lot of people suffer depression out there LOL

    www.tips-fb.com Chatting Words.. ;)

    My monday.. except for doing jobs, in between googling and listening to britney, let me enhance the vocab using thru the net or in d IM

    LOL - laughing out loud
    IMAO - in my arrogant opinion
    TTYL- talk to you later
    AAMOF- as a matter of fact
    AFK- away from keyboard
    BRB- be right back
    BYTM- better you than me
    DL- download
    IMCO - in my considered opinion
    IMHO- in my humble opinion
    JMHO- Just my humble opinion
    KIT - keep in touch
    LMHO- laughing my head off
    QT- cutie
    SOL- seriously out of luck
    TYT - take ur time
    UL- upload
    VSF - very sad face
    XOXO - hugs n kisses
    YSW- yeah sure whatever

    www.tips-fb.com You Belong With Me [Taylor Swift]

    Friday, February 20, 2009


    Download This Song

    You're on the phone with your girlfriend
    She's upset.
    She's going off about something that you said
    'Cuz she doesn't get your humor like I do...
    I'm in the room
    It's a typical Tuesday night
    I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
    And she'll never know your story like I do'

    But she wears short skirts
    I wear T-shirts
    She's cheer captain
    And I'm on the bleachers
    Dreaming about the day when you wake up
    And find that what you're looking for has been here the whole time

    If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
    Been here all along so why can't you see
    You belong with me
    You belong with me

    Walk in the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
    I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
    Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
    Hey isn't this easy?

    And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
    I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
    You say your fine
    I know you better than that
    Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that

    She wears high heels
    I wear sneakers
    She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
    Dreaming about the day when you wake up
    And find that what you're looking for has been here the whole time

    If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
    Been here all along so why can't you see
    You belong with me

    Standing by and waiting at your back door
    All this time how could you not know
    Baby...
    You belong with me
    You belong with me

    Oh'
    I remember you drivin' to my house in the middle of the night
    I'm the one who makes you laugh
    When you know you're about to cry
    And I know your favorite songs
    And you tell me about your dreams
    I think I know where you belong
    I think I know it's with me...

    Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you
    Been here all along
    So why can't you see
    You belong with me

    Standing by and waiting at your back door
    All this time
    How could you not know
    Baby you belong with me
    You belong with me

    You belong with me
    Have you ever thought just maybe
    You belong with me?

    www.tips-fb.com Good Bye [The Melody]



    Oh I love you
    Endless time
    I lose my mind
    Because of you
    Oh I want to kill myself
    You are the only love
    In my life
    The only thing there is night
    My love you are every
    Breath that I
    Take oh I love you

    If you go say good bye
    But you know this
    I will always love you
    Bye bye if you go
    Say goodbye
    But you know this
    I will always love you

    Otton maldo hagi himdul ttae
    Ddo kudae-ga pugo shipul ttae
    Amuron maldo
    Amuron haeng-dongdo
    Mu-otdo nan hal su optjanha

    (Translation: When it’s hard to say anything
    And when I want to see you
    Can’t say anything
    Can’t do anything
    I can’t do anything at all)

    Everyday every night
    Every single day I want you
    Please don’t leave me alone
    Don’t leave me alone
    I want you
    I need you love you
    I’m gonna take you

    If you go say good bye
    But you know this
    I will always love you
    Bye bye if u go
    Say good bye
    But you know this
    I will always love you

    Oh I want to kill myself
    I am just singing
    I love you

    www.tips-fb.com Last Nite

    Me : did u read my blog?
    Mr Darling : yea, but i dont get it.
    Me: what
    Mr Darling: what did they take from you?
    Me: LOL. That is depend on the reader interpretation. U see like when you see a movie and the end like just hanging there. And you will go, what the hell...
    Mr Darling: hurm
    Me: Oh well, I also donno what I am writing sometime. What I know is I love you so much.
    Mr Darling: I love you too

    www.tips-fb.com It's Mine.

    Thursday, February 19, 2009
    That thing belong to me. They have stolen it from me. And now, they claim that it is their. No,no, it is mine. Always have and always will be mine. They torture me. Bad-mouthed me, call me a liar, a thief. They say I have forgotten my place. Yes, I know. I am a bottom dweller. Altho I am far below them. I exist. I am real. Why are those freak keep cursing me for? Is it so good being on top? I bet they say they have the greatest view, but it is them who forgot. Before they climb onto the top, they were once a bottom dweller too.

    I don't care what they say about me. I just want what is mine back. Because it is mine. I have develop an invisible tie of right onto it.

    Mine, mine , its mine,
    always be, always have,
    say what you want,
    do what you have,
    I want what's mine back,
    it's mine

    "You crazy bitch" they say I am. Cursed them. Who's crazy here if not them their self. I would fight them. Even my life would be the price for it. That thing belong to me. Even if I lose, I would take the thing with me. Forever, the thing will be mine. It's mine.


    Ok,ok... harini aku merasakan kegilaan emosi aku mengganas tanpa sebab. [mungkin aku tahu sebabnya] ..mungkin tidak.. peduli apa. Aku ingin coretkan sesuatu, ingin melunaskan perasaan yang terbeban, namun jika tiada sebab musababnya, kegilaan apa yg aku ingin canangkan ke dunia.

    Oh ye.. tadi dapat call , bgtao yang ahad depan ada kelas kraftangan. Buat bakul dr suratkhabar. Aku plak mcm.. biar betul.. camne buat bakul dr surat khabar, yang rendam2 surat khabar dengan kanji tu ke? macam yg penah buat zaman sekolah2 dolu.. then aku pun dengan rajinnyer g lar google camne lar rupa bentuk bakul suratkhabar nie..




    oo ..begini rupenyer. Dorang kata bakul surat khabar nie tgh "in" skang. Tak tahulah..tapi memang cantik. I doubt I could make that pretty.. tapi mmg nice. Tak sabar pulak nak belajar.

    OK, Honestly I still don't know/ see how they transform a pile of newspaper into that. hahaha..

    www.tips-fb.com How to Commit Suicide

    Just a Joke PEOPLE.. **LOL (^^)

    www.tips-fb.com Betrayal Of Trust

    If you’ve had your trust betrayed then you know how hard it can be to let go, move on and fix the relationship. More often than not the burned person just wants to cut their losses and end the relationship, and who could blame them?

    So how do you move past a major burn and put things back on track? It’s hard but it can be done and these three pointers can help.

    Let your anger out.

    -In a quest to save a relationship people who have been hurt often bend over backwards to please their betrayer. Why? Because when we have been betrayed or burned the person who hurts us has sent a clear message that on some level we don’t matter to them as much as they matter to us. In a rebound state of fear of loss this often translates in to the hurt party trying to earn back the other person’s good opinion. It is a knee-jerk reaction and always ends in resentment. The best way to start the healing process is to acknowledge that there has been pain, betrayal and a loss of trust. Once the cards are on the table everybody will have a clearer picture of what they need to do to set things right.

    Resolve to let it out and then let it go.

    -Once you let your feelings out you need to let the incident go. This does not mean blind forgiveness, but there is an element of forgiveness involved in this step. If the person who hurt you apologizes and you accept then you need to never rehash the incident. Doing so will only bring back your anger and keep you in emotional limbo. Don’t bring it up as a weapon. Don’t hold it over the other person every time you feel wronged in the future. Acknowledge that it happened, make your feelings and expectations known, and then stop focusing on what damaged the trust and set your sights on rebuilding. You’re only human, you may slip up and throw the incident in the face of your betrayer and if you do don’t beat yourself up over it, apologize and move on. While this step may seem like letting the person who hurt you get off easy in reality you are making things easier on your self by allowing yourself to be hurt and moving past it.

    Know that things can never go back to the way they once were and keep your eyes wide open to future betrayals.

    -The sad reality is that once trust has been damaged it can’t simply go back to the way it once was, no matter how much both parties may want it to. People who do not value trust enough to respect it in the first place more often than not continue that pattern in the future. This doesn’t mean that it is a waste of time trying to rebuild trust it just means that the new trust has to be different. Call it a more mature trust. While trusting a person who has hurt you isn’t impossible it will never be the same kind of wide-eyed trust we give to people when we first let them in. This is not really a bad thing even though it may seem like a loss. Seeing people for who they really are rather than through rose-colored lenses can be a healthy thing. So when you decide to try to give trust a second chance just know that you will be more sensitive to the prospect of another betrayal and forgive yourself if doubt seeps in without real reason.

    source from About.Com

    www.tips-fb.com Silly Lily - Bunk Face



    Because I don't have any idea to write today.. and I'm freaking bored. Miss Mr. Darling soooo muchh!!!

    www.tips-fb.com 28 Days

    Wednesday, February 18, 2009
    That was the movie which I watched last nite. 28 Days was produced in 2000, but until last night, I never even heard about it. Well, I found the movie quite interesting, as it cater people with problem, some willing to be cure, but some juz submit themself to the worst of it, DEATH. A brief synopsis I've taken from it website

    After getting into a car accident while drunk on the day of her sister's wedding, Gwen Cummings is given a choice between prison or a rehab center. She chooses rehab, but is extremely resistant to taking part in any of the treatment programs they have to offer, refusing to admit that she has an alcohol addiction. After getting to know some of the other patients, Gwen gradually begins to re-examine her life and see that she does, in fact, have a serious problem. The path to recovery will not be easy, and success will not be guaranteed or even likely, but she is now willing to give it a try.

    The movie is revealing, and some scene are quite disturbing, especially when there's a girl cutting herself inside the toilet. She say "I am not trying to end this you know" Her friend ask her " Is it painful?" She reply " It makes me feel better" . That scene really remind me of me. And I know its wrong. But believe me, if your innerself is in such pain, the physical pain not going to register much.

    Anyway, there still moral value in the story. Admit that you need help. Let other people take charge while you learn to let go.

    Overal, I enjoy the movie. I am a fan of Sandra Bullock, and her character in 28 days really leave a mark in me.

    www.tips-fb.com The Astrology Say

    March 26 Birthday Astrology


    An Aries born on March 26 will be a bright individual [Am I bright? But I am sure I am not stupid :D]. Although they appear capable, they possess a deep insecurity [do sound like me] that can create emotional distress [it is me alright]. They are unlikely to reveal these vulnerabilities, preferring to solve their own problems.

    Despite a well-earned reputation as leaders, March 26 individuals have a strong dependence upon the people they love [that y u would find me always cling on u] and care about. The love life of March 26 natives has an enduring quality. Their marriage relationships are typically warm, long-lived, and fulfilling, both physically and spiritually [cant really say how my marriage life would look like yet]

    No matter how often March 26 natives are separated from their family, they will always experience a tug that brings them all together again. They may not feel a strong motivation to become parents, but if they do they will give the job their full attention. [That would say, I am in no rushing of being a parent :P]

    March 26 individuals believe in their own ability to make things happen, yet they have a strict set of standards and never deviate in order to make their dreams come true. If something cannot be accomplished according to their own concepts of honesty and integrity, they would just as soon not see their goals reach fruition.

    Dont really believe into astrology, but sometimes I do find it disturbingly true.

    Source from howstuffworks

    www.tips-fb.com All I Need Is You

    Tuesday, February 17, 2009
    Not to look into your eyes is burden,
    Not able to touch your skin is punishment,
    Not able to hear you voice is torture,
    Not able to be with you is a sin.

    I long for your present,
    to calm the thunderstorm within me,
    in every beats of this lonely heart,
    is howling your name,
    over and over,
    till it would finally come to rest.

    This,
    has eaten me inside out,
    I am fading little by little,
    till there's not much left of me,
    and all i am saying,
    all I need is you...

    www.tips-fb.com Unstable Substance

    Time has long ago been lost. Never ever be gain again. The space I see before me have changed. From a shape I used to find comfort with, to something I cannot find any familiarity within. He told me what an icy queen I am. Always being typically cold-hearted and selfish. The care that I have are only for my own selfish self. But ain't him who so-called selfless are same as I am for wanting me to be exactly what he expected me to be?

    If I had to
    I would put myself right beside you
    So let me ask
    Would you like that?
    Would you like that?

    He would like it, I know. To posses my body even the soul would never belong to him. Because all of that didn't matter anymore. The damaged has been done. It's better to salvage anything he could. He asked me "What soul did you still clinging on as I know you have none"

    And I don't mind
    If you say this love is the last time
    So now I'll ask
    Do you like that?
    Do you like that?

    I look for a glimpse of hope for him to understand. It is not cruelty that I have presented, it was my own way of keeping myself for further damage. He love me, he said. But why couldn't I see any truth in that. Why do I keep seeing the flashes of past, the ruin of a blissful bind it once had been.

    Try to find out what makes you tick.
    As I lie down
    Sore and sick.
    Do you like that?
    Do you like that?

    There's a fine line between love and hate.
    And I don't mind.
    Just let me say that
    I like that
    I like that

    It has been in my knowledge for quite some time, the only things I could do was finding what would make him finally resent me. Not simply holding his feeling of displeasure towards me, but hate me with all that he might have left. Yes, I know the powerful truth about a line that separate the feeling of love and hate. He already have make that mistake about me. I may have hate him, but I may have only love him more truly than anything else. For that doubt, it is better to leave the mess, and save my self from a deeper downfall. Let me not wonder anymore about what might have become and choose another path of lie, not life.

    Desperate, I will crawl
    Waiting for so long
    No love, there is no love.
    Die for anyone
    What have I become?

    DO not hate me, for I just, an unstable substance. Of misery. Of forgetful past. Of diluted future.

    #The lyric is taken from one of my favourite song, Diary of Jane by Breaking Benjamin

    www.tips-fb.com She

    Monday, February 16, 2009
    I could see a glimpse of sadness in her eyes. Even when she smile, there's always something else she was trying to hide. I know she has been lying all this time. Not to me, I know that. But to herself. Her eyes now has dark circle around it. I couldn't remember the last time I see her alive. Vivid with laughter and she was perfectly beautiful. The grief has taken over her, long time ago. Now, what left of her, didn't even leave any single mark of how wonderful her life use to be.

    She never told me much about her. Whenever I asked her about what has happen, she just smile and say nothing. The burden I felt her carrying, make me feel so sorry towards her. I wanted to make her happy, to make her believe that she can live again. Not just breathing.

    She has been much quieter than yesterday. Usually, I could see a fine line across her face, which she called it a smile in her desperate attempt to make me believe that she's okay.

    "What is it now?"

    "Nothing"

    "You seem much quieter today. Is something bothering you?"

    "Thanks for being a good friend. I am leaving"

    "So soon?"

    "No, I am leaving this place. For good."

    Then she just wave goodbye without giving me any chance to ask her anything else.

    That was the last time I saw her.And I wonder, if she ever coming back. Is she much happier now? Or did the grief finally swallow her whole. As I am thinking of her, I could feel tears running silently down my cheeks. And I cry.

    www.tips-fb.com I'm Only Me When I'm With You [Taylor Swift]



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    Friday night beneath the stars,
    in a field behind your yard,
    you and I are paintin' pictures in the sky.
    And sometimes we don't say a thing;
    just listen to the crickets sing.
    Everything I need is right here by my side.
    And I know everything about you
    I don't wanna live without you.

    [Chorus:]
    I'm only up when you're not down.
    Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
    It's like no matter what I do.
    Well you drive me crazy half the time;
    the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
    And I'm only me when I'm with you.

    Just a small town boy and girl
    livin' in a crazy world.
    Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true.
    And I don't try to hide my tears.
    The secrets or my deepest fears.
    Through it all nobody gets me like you do.
    And you know everything about me.
    You say you can't live without me.

    [Chorus]

    When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself.
    Only you can tell.

    [Chorus:]
    That I'm only up when you're not down.
    Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
    It's like no matter what I do.
    Well you drive me crazy half the time;
    the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
    And I'm only me
    Who I wanna be
    Well, I'm only me when I'm with you
    With you
    Uh huh
    Yeah

    www.tips-fb.com whatever

    me, you, him, her.. whoever.. still feel god damn lonely. you could succumbed to your lack of sanity, or just keep your head low, total ignorant.

    Stupid girl, cruelty that come in difference faces, but still based on one simply root, there is no one here that understand.

    Blame me, blame him, blame everything coz I am so freaking mad. I realized till now, I have lost mostly everything but gain nothing in return..

    Stop playing that same ol boring record again. Tired of listening the same ol thing. Over. Over and over again. Didn't I told you its over the first time its over. Oh please, I dont need a rewind.

    There's nothing as good as it used to be. Nothing gonna changed. When I got home, seeing the same life I have been living for the past 27 years. Wondering, when would it end...

    www.tips-fb.com Another Confession

    Friday, February 13, 2009
    There something stuck between my throat. My heart was pumping fast, and my face blushed under the bright blue sky. The kisses that just landed on my lips completely make me light-headed and my sight suddenly turn blurry.

    I hear about it before. Stories of how it all started. The first crush. The first kiss. Never imagine that it would ever happen to me. At last, it's my story, mine to tell any soul I wish to. He still looking at me. Waited patiently as I catch my breath. Hoping that he did it right. Hopes that I would like it. Afraid whether I would mind it or not. How could I confess to him. It's perfectly flawless. This moment, the kiss, us being where we are now. I would never want this feeling to ever has to end.

    I have always love him. From the moment we first lay eyes on each other. Then I hold his hand, and confess " I love you, always have, please kiss me again".

    He smile and pull my face near. His lip touch mine. And like magic, we were transfer to another world. The kiss was deep and intense. And in my heart I confess again "I love you so much, please kiss me again".

    www.tips-fb.com Its Magic

    Tuesday, February 10, 2009
    The magic that last forever, each time when the two lips met. Lock close in intimacy, where the world fell silent behind, and the only sound that pierce so loud, are the thudding of two hearts beats as one.

    The magical moment, cast spell to the two lovers, in hoping to live and die together, they swear, spilling blood to the cup of oath, and let not the cup be broken, because the bind that ties the oath, are meant to last forever.

    When one lover finally fallen, deep into the misery of death, the other shall take the sword, thrust straight to the heart, and forever as promise, they will be together.

    www.tips-fb.com Should've Said No- Taylor Swift

    Awesome performance by Taylor. I simply love her. She's hot and has a very good voice



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    It's strange to think the songs we used to sing,
    The smiles, the flowers, everything,
    Is gone.
    Yesterday I found out about you,
    Even now just looking at you,
    Feels wrong.
    You say, that you'd take it all back,
    Given one chance, it was a moment of weakness,
    And you said yes

    You should've said no,
    You should've gone home,
    You should have thought twice before you let it all go.
    You should've known that word 'bout what you did with her'd, get back to me.
    And I should've been there, in the back of your mind,
    Shouldn't be asking myself why,
    You shouldn't be begging for forgivness at my feet,
    You should've said no
    Baby and you might still have me.

    You can see that I've been cryin',
    Baby you know all the right things,
    To say.
    But do you, honestly,
    Expect me, to believe,
    We could ever be the same.
    You say, that the past is the past,
    You need one chance, it was a moment of weakness,
    And you said yes


    You should've said no,
    You should've gone home,
    You should have thought twice before you let it all go.
    You should've known that word 'bout what you did with her'd, get back to me.
    And I should've been there, in the back of your mind
    Shouldn't be asking myself why,
    You shouldn't be begging for forgivness at my feet,
    You should've said no
    Baby and you might still have me..

    I can't resist,
    Before you go tell me this,
    Was it worth it,
    Was she worth this.

    No, no, no, no

    You should've said no,
    You should've gone home,
    You should have thought twice before you let it all go.
    You should've known that word 'bout what you did with her'd, get back to me.
    And I should've been there, in the back of your mind
    Shouldn't be asking myself why,
    You shouldn't be begging for forgivness at my feet,
    You should've said no
    Baby and you might still have me..

    www.tips-fb.com Bunga Telur

    Monday, February 09, 2009
    Bila difikir kembali, memang aku tak pernah menyebut soal majlis perkahwinanku di sini. Apa lagi bercerita mengenai persiapannya. yalah sekarang pun dah bulan Febuari. Bukan taknak cerita, tapi Mr. Darling xpernah memberi confirmation untuk tarikh dan planning macam mana. kang aku aje r yang poyo. I understand status Mr. Darling yang sekrang baru ja bertukar pekerjaan. Biarlah dia stabil dulu. Sambil2 tu, aku dah mula mensurvey apa yang patut. Contohnya, make-up artist, doorgift, pakaian pengantin.

    Bercakap pasal doorgift, memula aku pun fikir nak memberi satu cenderahati, tapi seorang memberku bertanya "tao xnape kenduri kawin orang bagi telur?" Aku jawab tak tao. Menurutnya telur/ bunga telur sebenarnya melambangkan kesuburan, so kira kasik bunga telur nie seolah2 menyaran/ mendoakan yang pasangan pengantin nie dapat anak ramai. Disebabkan aku nie tak le terlalu moden sangat, kegkadang benda tradisi camnie, bess gak ikut. So aku putuskan nanti xusahlah susah-susah nak bagi doorgift apa.. bagi bunga telur saja dah cukop.

    Aku pun terfikir, bagus jugak kalo bunga telur nie aku cuba buat sendiri. Sket2 setiap hari, majlis pun lambat lagi, sempatlah. Aku memang berkenan dengan bunga dip dan bunga stoking, so mungkin pasnie aku cube cari bahan2 kat kedai bunga. Try buat sikit dolu, kalo jadik, boleh teruskan, kalo tak jadi.. hahahakss.. kat kedai pun banyak. Tapi biarlah cuba buat dolu. Aku pun sebenarnya memang suka benda DIY nie.. sebab ini melambnagkan keikhlasan. Dari dolu lagi, aku amat appreciate benda DIY yang org kasik aku.. xkisahlah, kad ke, gelang tangan ke, loket ke (antara benda/hadiah DIY yang aku pernah dapat)...

    Tapi lebih seronok kalo perasaan ini dapat dikongsi. Yalah, kat sini aku sengsorang jerr.. memang ler lonely. .. hurm..takpe..sabar..sabar...

    Hopefully semuanya berjalan lancar. Ameen!

    www.tips-fb.com Viva La Vida [Coldplay]



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    I used to rule the world
    Seas would rise when I gave the word
    Now in the morning I sleep alone
    Sweep the streets I used to own

    I used to roll the dice
    Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
    Listen as the crowd would sing
    "Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

    One minute I held the key
    Next the walls were closed on me
    And I discovered that my castles stand
    Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

    I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
    Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
    Be my mirror, my sword and shield
    My missionaries in a foreign field

    For some reason I can't explain
    Once you go there was never
    Never an honest word
    And that was when I ruled the world

    It was the wicked and wild wind
    Blew down the doors to let me in
    Shattered windows and the sound of drums
    People couldn't believe what I'd become

    Revolutionaries wait
    For my head on a silver plate
    Just a puppet on a lonely string
    Oh who would ever want to be king?

    I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
    Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
    Be my mirror, my sword and shield
    My missionaries in a foreign field

    For some reason I can't explain
    I know Saint Peter won't call my name
    Never an honest word
    But that was when I ruled the world

    I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
    Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
    Be my mirror, my sword and shield
    My missionaries in a foreign field

    For some reason I can't explain
    I know Saint Peter won't call my name
    Never an honest word
    But that was when I ruled the world

    www.tips-fb.com Menutup aib sendiri dan orang lain

    Sekadar ingatan untuk diri sendiri dan rakan-rakan.

    DALAM satu hadis Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda, maksudnya: "Sesiapa yang menutup keaiban saudaranya sesama Muslim, kelak Alah akan tutup aibnya di akhirat."
    Cuba kita sama-sama teliti satu kisah di zaman Nabi Musa a.s. Pada suatu ketika Bani Israel ditimpa musim kemarau yang berpanjangan. Mereka berkumpul dan datang menemui nabi.

    Mereka berkata: "Ya Kaliimallah! Berdoalah kepada Tuhanmu agar Dia menurunkan hujan kepada kami."

    Berangkatlah Nabi Musa bersama kaumnya menuju ke padang pasir yang luas. Dengan jumlah yang ramai itu mereka berdoa dalam keadaan lusuh dan penuh debu, haus serta lapar.

    Nabi Musa berdoa: "Ilaahi! Asqinaa ghaitsak...wansyur 'alaina rahmatak..."

    Selepas itu langit tetap saja terang benderang, matahari pun bersinar makin berkilauan. Maknanya segumpal awan pun tidak muncul jua.

    Kemudian Nabi Musa berdoa lagi: "Ilaahi...asqinaa..."

    Allah pun berfirman kepada Nabi Musa, maksudnya: "Bagaimana Aku akan menurunkan hujan kepada kalian sedangkan di antara kalian ada seorang hamba di kalangan yang hadir berdoa bermaksiat sejak 40 tahun lalu. Umumkanlah di hadapan manusia agar dia berdiri di hadapan kalian semua. Kerana dialah Aku tidak menurunkan hujan untuk kalian..."

    Lalu Nabi Musa pun berteriak di tengah-tengah kaumnya: "Wahai hamba yang bermaksiat kepada Allah sejak 40 tahun...keluarlah ke hadapan kami...kerana engkaulah hujan tidak turun..."

    Seorang lelaki melirik ke kanan dan kiri. Tidak seorang pun yang keluar di hadapan manusia. Saat itu pula dia sedar kalau dirinyalah yang dimaksud.

    Dia berkata dalam hatinya: "Kalau aku keluar ke hadapan manusia, maka akan terbuka rahasiaku. Kalau aku tidak berterus terang, maka hujan pun tidak akan turun."

    Hatinya pun gundah gulana. Air matanya pun menetes, menyesali perbuatan maksiatnya, sambil berkata di dalam hati: "Ya Allah! Aku sudah bermaksiat kepada-Mu selama 40 tahun. Selama itu pula Engkau menutupi aibku. Sungguh sekarang aku bertaubat kepada-Mu, maka terimalah taubatku."

    Tidak lama selepas pengakuan taubatnya itu, awan-awan tebal pun muncul. Semakin lama semakin tebal menghitam dan akhirnya turunlah hujan.

    Nabi Musa kehairanan. "Ya Allah, Engkau sudah turunkan hujan kepada kami, namun tidak seorang pun yang keluar di hadapan manusia."

    Allah berfirman, maksudnya: "Aku menurunkan hujan kepada kalian oleh sebab hamba yang kerananya hujan tidak kunjung turun."

    Nabi Musa berkata: "Ya Allah! Tunjukkan padaku hamba yang taat itu."

    Allah berfirman, maksudnya: "Ya Musa, Aku tidak membuka aibnya padahal dia bermaksiat kepada-Ku. Apakah Aku membuka aibnya sedangkan dia taat kepada-Ku!"

    www.tips-fb.com The Undomestic Goddess

    Friday, February 06, 2009
    Last nite I juz could not sleep. I closed my eyes and forced myself to sleep but then 10 secs later I end up staring at the white ceiling. So I get up and pick a book to read. The Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella. The moment I pick it up, then I realized, I had the book for almost a year now, but hardly touch it, let alone reading it. So I started reading on my bed.

    The first page was quite interesting and as I move on, it started to get a lil bit funny, and romantic. Not bad. Why I never read this. Half way into the story, I am really wide awake. There's no chance in hell I'm gonna sleep till I finish my reading.

    Ok, let me juz summarized the storyline here for those who haven't read it.

    Samantha is a very workaholic lawyer who is on her way up to become the youngest lawyer ever to receive partnership in a very prestige law firm, CarterSpink. Then she made a mistake, or she think she made a mistake, and cost a 50 millions pound. Out of panic, she ran off to a countryside and ended up mistaken for a housekeeper. In desperate attempt to hide herself, she pretended to be one. Then start her journey as a know-nothing housekeeper as she never did or learn to do any household chores.

    She meet this really handsome and kind gardener who actually turn out to own pubs and has an ambition to open his own nursery, Nataniel. Nathaniel then ask his mother to help Samantha, teaches her how to cook, operate the washing machine, dusting, cleaning, ironing and etc until she actually managed to survive as a housekeeper.

    And so the story say, Nathaniel and Samantha fall in love. When Samantha got use to her new life, she heard the news that one of the senior partner in CarterSpink is resigning. As she dig on, she finally uncovered a plot that ended her losing her job. In determination to clear her name, she when back to London. When the investigator finally proved that she is innocent and there's actually a scam to get that 50 millions, Samantha was offered a full-equity partnership in the law firm, which is the highest level ever a lawyer can achieve, but she turn it down.

    The rejection create a massive reaction from the press, and the press and journalist label her as "I rather cleaning loo" than accepting the partnership. One of the lawyer, Guy finally manage to persuade her to accept the partnership but it cost her, Nathaniel.

    Finally, she did turn down the offer once again, and be with Nathaniel.

    end of story.

    After finished reading the book, once again I try to sleep. I am not sure what time it is that I sleep, but when my alarm rang in the morning, I wish I don't have to get up and continues sleeping, but it Friday again. That should make me feel a lot better already. :P

    www.tips-fb.com So and So

    Thursday, February 05, 2009
    So they say, things always happen for a reason. So they believe, everything gonna get better and better, so they lied that you gonna be ok. Why would they be doing that. They comforted you even they know, they are muttering something utterly nonsense, what they really meant is, "please get off my back and throw your problem somewhere else".

    They are not listening, never really was, they just waiting for their turn to speak. To tell you their stories. To let you know how much bigger problem they have than yours. In other words "Are you freaking deaf! I am telling you, I have much bigger problem, just get lost, I don't want to listen to any of your stories anymore".

    So you cried. So you feel alone. But why should you cry, you are always alone, from the moment you were born to the moment you will die. No one can understand you better than yourself. People will pretend they are with your roller-coaster ride of life, but they just another passenger beside you, not the one really sit in your spot, and feel the very same way you do.

    So you think life is unfair. Well, grow up, life never has been fair to anybody. So you blame yourself, yes you should. Because all of this happen based on whatever action you have taken in life. If you need anyone to blame, point the finger right back at you.

    So you feel pathetic, miserable and the sanity seem to be fading away day by day. Until one day you realize, you are nothing but a walking corpse, rotten inside and decaying in time.. and you will fall, if you let the world gets you, they will win.. they will be laughing at you soulless body.. and so the story goes on....

    www.tips-fb.com Imagine

    Tuesday, February 03, 2009
    Imagine this, being at the edge of a cliff.. and plunge in a deep clear blue water..
    It suicidal... yet the thought of plunging into the water is so refreshing, that you mite think it will be worth it... forget about the danger and dive in...

    **Refreshing..... [I want..I want]**

    www.tips-fb.com Heartless [Kanye West]

    Monday, February 02, 2009


    [Chorus]
    In the night, I hear 'em talk,
    the coldest story ever told
    Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
    How could you be so heartless?
    Oh... How could you be so heartless?

    [Verse 1]
    How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
    Just remember that you talkin' to me though
    You need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
    I mean after all the things that we've been through
    I mean after all the things we got into
    Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
    Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
    And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
    So you walk around like you don't know me
    You got a new friend, well I got homies
    But in the end it's still so lonely

    [Chorus]
    In the night, I hear 'em talk,
    the coldest story ever told
    Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
    How could you be so heartless?
    Oh... How could you be so heartless?

    [Verse 2]
    How could you be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know...
    I decided we weren't gon' speak so
    Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
    Why does she be so mad at me fo'
    Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
    I won't stop, won't mess my groove up
    'Cause I already know how this thing go
    You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
    They say that they don't see what you see in me
    You wait a couple months then you gon' see
    You'll never find nobody better than me

    [Chorus]
    In the night, I hear 'em talk,
    the coldest story ever told
    Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
    How could you be so heartless?
    Oh... How could you be so heartless?

    [Verse 3]
    Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
    Baby let's just knock it off
    They don't know what we been through
    They don't know 'bout me and you
    So I got something new to see
    And you just gon' keep hatin' me
    And we just gon' be enemies
    I know you can't believe
    I could just leave it wrong
    And you can't make it right
    I'm gon' take off tonight
    Into the night....

    [Chorus]
    In the night, I hear 'em talk,
    the coldest story ever told
    Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
    How could you be so heartless?
    Oh... How could you be so heartless?