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  • www.tips-fb.com Last Day in Mimos Kulim

    Wednesday, December 23, 2009
    Today is my last day here, before I took a one-week-off and move back to KL (finally). The feeling, I don't know, mostly feel lazy, simply because too many things to do and I am so in holiday mood. Plus, I do not know to begin with what first, and now I end up writing here.

    Tak sabar sebenarnya nak kembali ke pangkuan yang tersayang. The first week of being husband and wife, is full with the feeling of contentment. I feel complete, altho we did have a fight, simply because both of us are still holding on to our ego, but its normal thing I guess. One of my friend did tell me, the secret to a happy marriage is communication and of course patience. If we lose any of those, argument is unavoidable. I do afraid of any heated argument, especially if I am having my PMS, where tolerance would be very hard to achieve and usually, things turn to worse because he did not know how to make me feel better. We both need to learn to be more understanding of each other.

    I think everyone is going thru the same thing, the most important thing of all is that, the mutual feeling of love that we shared. It is the best feeling of all.

    This Friday, I am going to drive to KL, bringing along  my family with me to attend the reception in Kajang. I am so excited, for the wedding, for him, for my family and friends that I am going to see at the function.

    Thanks God for giving me all of this altho most of the time, I feel like I didn't deserve any of this.

    www.tips-fb.com Day 5 of being a wife

    Thursday, December 17, 2009

    On 12.12.2009, finally I am officially belong to my darling. Now I understand, why married people are so happy. You just could not explain the feeling of love, the sense of belonging and most importantly, it felt like one big heavy burden has been lift off from my chest.

    I am so happy. Very happy as for me, everything went well. Alhamdulillah!

    Life after marriage is very different. I admit, I have undergo a drastic change. I could feel the responsibility, and how much I wanted to only be the best for him. People keep saying that I should immediately try to have a baby, but for me, I want us to enjoy this couple life first. Baby, maybe later. I believe in planning but if God think that I am ready, and bless me with a child, I will accept it gratefully. :)

    To my darling, I love you... so much!!

    www.tips-fb.com The Past

    Thursday, December 03, 2009
    Day by day, the past has deserted me, further and further more. My old life, the one that I am quite comfortably confine in, now will has it drastic change. I am happy but very afraid as well.

    My work, I really wish I would get better and better at it. Put more effort and passion into it. I don't know where would this road lead me too, but this is the road that I choose (my career of course). Now I am bumping into another junction, reaching the same destination, but still, I do not know what will I passed through along the road. It did make me kinda worry a bit. I do hope some day, I could reach the expertise level in DotNet framework. Now, still in the mid-level and have a lot of things to learn. Worst part is, sometimes, learning could be very boring.

    These few days has been very stressful. A lot of things has to be done, and I do let my psycho maniac self go out of line a bit. *sigh... will I ever grow out of this? I am glad its almost over now, but every ending is a beginning to something else. No assurance given whether it would be better or worst, just pray to God that, of all the decision I have made in my whole life, let this be the one that I would not be regretting later on.

    Another eight days to be somebody missus, yet, who's counting anyway. As the day is approaching near, my heart nearly explode from the excessive mixture of feeling which I couldn't even describe. I don't know, honestly, I am very, very afraid...

    Am I ready? Do I really sure about this?

    www.tips-fb.com Nine

    Tuesday, December 01, 2009
    Another nine to take the pain away. Is it enuff? I know I still need more. God help me!

    www.tips-fb.com Dexamethasone

    Important safety information:

    Dexamethasone may lower the ability of your body to fight infection. Avoid contact with people who have colds or infections. Tell your doctor if you notice signs of infection like fever, sore throat, rash, or chills.
    Tell your doctor or dentist that you take Dexamethasone before you receive any medical or dental care, emergency care, or surgery.
    Dexamethasone may cause an elevation in blood pressure, salt and water retention, and increased potassium loss. You may need to restrict the use of salt and take a calcium supplement.
    Dexamethasone can cause calcium loss and promote the development of osteoporosis. Take adequate calcium and vitamin D supplements.
    Diabetes patients -- Dexamethasone may affect your blood sugar. Check blood sugar levels closely. Ask your doctor before you change the dose of your diabetes medicine.
    Caution is advised when using Dexamethasone in CHILDREN; they may be more sensitive to its effects.
    Corticosteroids may affect growth rate in CHILDREN and teenagers in some cases. They may need regular growth checks while they take Dexamethasone.
    PREGNANCY and BREAST-FEEDING: It is not known if Dexamethasone can cause harm to the fetus. If you become pregnant, contact your doctor. You will need to discuss the benefits and risks of using Dexamethasone while you are pregnant. Dexamethasone are found in breast milk. Do not breast-feed while taking Dexamethasone.
    Possible side effects of Dexamethasone:

    All medicines may cause side effects, but many people have no, or minor, side effects. Check with your doctor if any of these most COMMON side effects persist or become bothersome:

    Difficulty sleeping; feeling of a whirling motion; increased appetite; increased sweating; indigestion; mood changes; nervousness.

    Seek medical attention right away if any of these SEVERE side effects occur:
    Severe allergic reactions (rash; hives; itching; difficulty breathing; tightness in the chest; swelling of the mouth, face, lips, or tongue); appetite loss; black, tarry stools; changes in menstrual periods; convulsions; depression; diarrhea; dizziness; exaggerated sense of well-being; fever; general body discomfort; headache; increased pressure in the eye; joint or muscle pain; mood swings; muscle weakness; personality changes; prolonged sore throat, cold, or fever; puffing of the face; severe nausea or vomiting; swelling of feet or legs; unusual weight gain; vomiting material that looks like coffee grounds; weakness; weight loss.

    www.tips-fb.com I Wanna Know What Love Is (Mariah Carey)

    I gotta take a little time
    A little time to think things over
    I better read between the lines
    In case I need it when Im colder

    In my life there's been heartache and pain
    I don't know if I can face it again
    Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
    To change this lonely life

    I wanna know what love is.....
    I want you to show me......
    I wanna feel what love is.....
    I know you can show me......

    I'm gonna take a little time
    A little time to look around me....
    Ive got nowhere left to hide
    It looks like love has finally found me....

    In my life! there's been heartache and pain
    I don't know if I can face it again
    I cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
    To change this lonely life!.!.!.!.

    I wanna know what love is.....
    I want you to show me......
    I wanna feel what love is......
    I know you can show me......

    I wanna know what love is....
    I want you to show me....
    And I wanna feel, I want to.... feel what love is....
    And I know, I know you can show me....

    show me

    I wanna know what love is, lets talk about love
    I want you to show me, I wanna feel it too
    I wanna feel what love is, I want to feel it too
    And I know and I know, I know you can show me
    Show me love is real, yeah
    I wanna know what love is...

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    www.tips-fb.com Ikut kata hati...

    He know how I would react if he continue to ignore me. He know what I do if I am feeling stress and yet feel ignored and unloved. But still, that the very thing he do, and I do the very thing that I expected me to do. He is fully sick of my behavior. While my hand trying to reach his, he pull his away and left me alone. 8 tablet of pills didn't work at all. Yes I need more. But my heart and my mind keep on fighting with each other. I know the heart will win, but my mind its the only rational thing I have right now.

    There's only two people who really know who I really am in this world, but even those two cannot be a dependable asset for me to grab on to. Maybe, any other day, it would be my last day. I just hope that it would not be today.

    www.tips-fb.com When I am almost there...

    Wednesday, November 25, 2009
    I am almost there, anticipating another 16 days to come..

    the horror..the horror.. the thrill.. the excitement...


    www.tips-fb.com The Forgotten People 2

    For the first time in his life, he could see colours coming to life. The black and white dancing images on a pale and blurry world's curtain has been lift off. His heart feel warm with anticipation. He was so unsure of his feeling. He never has experience such positive energy before. His heart pounding hard again the chest, his pale face turn to red, his hand shaking nervously while he bend down to pick up the dirty rubbish bag and bring it to the backyard, to be burn.

    While he watches the smokes making their way to the sky, he heard a voice calling his name. He turn around, but no, there is no one in sight. Maybe he was just imagining thing. Then he heard it again. This time the voice is a little harsh. Maybe it was angry that he didn't hear it the first time. He is sure that it was real. He is now listening carefully through the wind. There, the voice speaks again. Still, he could not see to whom does the voice belong too. Now the voice asking him why did he feels so happy? did he forget how suffer his life is? Did he forget that he's not suppose to have any reason to live for, except to serve them? He could not believe it. What kind of evil that could detect such a pure feeling, then deny it to him. He held his hand close to the ear, trying to shut out what it say. But still, the voice creaks and pounded to his brain, like an unstoppable noises that come from an old car's broken engine.

    www.tips-fb.com The Forgotten People

    Thursday, November 19, 2009
    When being asked, he just keep quiet. Muttering silently the curses that did not flew away pass his tight lips. He hated them all, but he know that this people wouldn't care. He was too dependent on them to walk away, yet, how many time has he wishes that he could grab that sharp knife, glittering invitingly under the florescent light, and stab it across their pounding heart. Make it stop. Make them no longer able to hurt him. He can't. He is too dependent on them. That's why he has hated them strongly with all of his heart.

    He know who he is. Among all those forgotten, and powerless people. Who has to bow down to them, in order to make living. In order to breathe this air and not feeling suffocated by the suffering that this life has granted to him. He was born among the bushes, left out like a thrash, then this monster pick him up, and this monster now become his master. He has to serve, no question asked. He owed them that much, and they never will let him forget that.

    He met her that day. She was so beautiful. He looked at himself, hideously dirty and smelly, all sweaty and greasy. She looked at him, not with the same disgusting eyes that those monster always look at him, but with pity in her eyes. He could swear that there's a precious stone in her eyes, glittering under the light, and fade away with a line of silvery liquid, running down her cheek. Is it tears that he seen? She cried for him. He felt strongly towards her, even by that simple gesture. He swear, he would protect her from the monster. Even though it would kill him. Then the monster dragged her away. The moment they share are lost, but he promise to himself, that he would see her again. He was so sure about it, as sure as he, that the sun would rise to shine this forsaken land, when morning come again.


    www.tips-fb.com Thru My Window

    Wednesday, November 18, 2009

    We need each other :)


    Friday, November 13, 2009
    Hehe.. ini  lah dia barangan yang baru ku beli di Avon semalam. Arini dah test pakai, kesimpulannyer... memang best, terasa badan kemas di pegang.

    Sebenarnyer arituh dah pegi ke Avon Kilang Lama tu, memang niat nak beli.. tambahan si Adlina (my officemate) memang ahli Avon, so leh dapat murah (discount 20%). So masa pergi tu, tanyelah adik yang jaga tuh, memula ku minta saiz L, tapi adik tu beria-ia cakap yang badan kecik macam dia pun pakai L, so aku kena pakai XL. so xperlah, aku cuba saiz XL, untuk vest corset diyer. Alamak, memang sedap, tapi ku pakai kancing paling dalam, yang ketiga. Err.. dalam hati, bukan ke pakai corset memang kena bagi ketat. so xperlah.

    Pastu ukur saiz pinggang dan pinggul, ikut pengiraan, girdle pun kena amek saiz L, tapi adik tu lagi sekali beria2 suruh aku amek saiz XL juge. Girdle nie bukan nyer bleh try, so kalo silap beli, ke xpasal2 rugi duit aku xleh pakai. So aku xjadi amek lagi, ingat nak balik buat research dolu.

    So lepas ku google dan baca forum, (xbanyak info pasal pemilihan saiz Aura Shape ni kat internet) so aku amek info yang general, memanh people selalunya amek one size lower, kan kater nak slimming, Minah Salleh dolu2 pun (tengok citer pirate of caribbean) pakai corset ketat gile sampai takleh nafas, so aku nekad nak amek corset and girdle saiz L, laeipun actually badan aku nie bukannye besar sangat.

    Itulah, semalam pegi kat outlet Kilang Lama tu, adik tuh terus bawakan saiz XL untukku. Aku katalah, saya nak saiz L yer. Pastu dia tengok ku semacam jer. Erm.. lantaklah, duit aku, aku bayar, ikut suker akulah.

    So arinie aku try pakai, siap pakai kat kancing ke 3 tu, paling dalam, corset, sangat mantap dan selesa, body pun nampak cantik jer. Girdle lak, ngam2 lah, laeikan fabrik dia strechable. :) so rupanyer aku membuat pilihan yang betul. Nasib baik xikut cakap adik tu. Dah le muka kurang senyum... hurm...

    Hehe, tapi aku beli corset dan girdle jer.. sebab bra dia xder saiz aku... hahhaaakss.. nak wat camner.. dah mantap kata kan.. :P

    www.tips-fb.com Blood

    Thursday, November 12, 2009
    Today, the office is quiet. All the permanent staff went for a Team-Building Session  for three days and one night in Bukit Merah. As for us, the fellow contractors, working under them, we stayed behind, because now that we are growing in number, M***s says that they could no longer afford to bring us along. Not that I give a damn bout it anyway.

    Today also, our neighbour in KHTP are organizing Blood Donation Drive, same as last year. And same as last year also, I went there with Mak Long , Shaq, Kim, Fahim, and a few more of my fellow colleague here. The one who were very excited to donate blood are of course Maklong and myself. We are the first from the office to go there for that reason. After having taken blood sugar level, blood pressure, Hemoglobin count, at the last stage, maklong and I are the one who failed the test and cannot proceed to donate blood. Maklong because having high blood pressure, and for me of course, having a low blood pressure. Being a bit frustrated, I undergo four times to check the blood pressure (rest, eat, drink, try again), but has to admit that this time, I just could not passed the test. Oh well, maybe today not my day. But that what weird about it, recently I always found that my heart (pulse rate) has been a bit high. I always can feel the heart pumping blood harshly, but still, having low blood pressure.. hurm...

    However, I got to eat free food (meehoon goreng and tea). :)

    And I buy a toy (robot), actually its free when register credit card, but we bought it for rm8. Poor that sales person, no credit card registration but still the robots "kena" sold out.. hehe

    During lunch hour, Unid and I went to Avon. I dont really like the service from Avon outlet in Kilang Lama, and prefer the one in Kulim, but I end up buying things from outlet in Kilang Lama, because Kulim Outlet doesnt has credit card service, and I dont have cash with me. (nowadays, cash is very2 important).

    Tomorrow, my darls gonna be here, and we going to watch "2012" . I already bought the ticket. Unfortunately, he has to go back to KL on Saturday because on Sunday, he has to go to Singapore.

    Well... jus another one month to wait for :)

    www.tips-fb.com Bicara

    Friday, November 06, 2009
    Bila mulut petah berbicara, ayat dilontar bertalu-talu umpama peluru buta, hasilnya, belum tentu tembakan mengena. Itu lah jadahnya, jika pandai bercakap sahaja. Perlu juga sedar, betul kah apa yang diutara? Adakah si pendengar mendengar dengan diam sebab menyetujui kita, atau diam kerana melihat kita memperbodohkan diri sendiri.

    Sudahlah, kadang-kala, lebih baik berdiam sahaja. Jangan anggap kau lah makhluk terpandai di dunia.

    www.tips-fb.com How to jump start your car properly

    Thursday, November 05, 2009

    Safe Battery Jump Start Procedure

    If a battery is dead or too low to crank the engine, you can jump start it using a pair of jumper cables to connect the low/dead battery to a good battery in another vehicle.

    Pull the other vehicle as close as possible to the one with the dead/low battery, but DO NOT allow the vehicles to touch. Open the hood on both vehicles, and shut OFF the engine in the other vehicle.

    Jumper cables are color coded, RED for POSITIVE (+) and BLACK for NEGATIVE (-). DO NOT mix up the cables or allow the metal ends to touch together because this may damage the battery, charging system and/or electronics on a vehicle.

    To jump start the battery, proceed as follows:

    1. Connect one end of the RED jumper cable to the POSITIVE (+)post on the dead battery. The POSITIVE battery post will be slightly larger than the NEGATIVE post, and will be marked with a PLUS (+) sign. There may also be a RED plastic protective cover over the positive bttery post.

    2. Connect the other end of the RED jumper cable to the POSITIVE (+) post on the good battery.

    3. Connect one end of the BLACK jumper cable to the NEGATIVE (-) post on the good battery.

    4. Connect the other end of the BLACK jumper cable to a heavy metal ground on the engine or frame of the vehicle with the dead battery. DO NOT make the final jumper connection to the NEGATIVE (-) post on the battery itself because it usually sparks and may ignite hydrogen fumes in the dead battery causing it to explode.

    NOTE: On some vehicles the battery is not easily accessible (because it is located inside a fender panel, trunk, etc.), so there may be special jumper connections in the engine compartment for jump starting the vehicle.

    CAUTION: DO NOT lean directly over the battery while making jumper connections (in case of explosion).

    5. Start the vehicle with the good battery, and run the engine at a fast idle (1200 to 1500 rpm)for a couple of minutes. This will help charge up the low battery and make starting easier.

    6. Now you can start the vehicle with the dead battery. If it does not crank or cranks very slowly, wiggle the jumper connections to make sure they are making good contact. Then try again. The engine should start if there are no other problems (such as a bad starter or ignition circuit problem).

    7. As soon as the engine starts, disconnect both jumper cables. Do not allow the metal ends of the jumper cables to touch each other or the RED cables to touch anything metal on either car.

    8. Keep the engine running 20 to 30 minutes, or drive the car to recharge the battery. During this time, leave the lights, heater, A/C and other electrical accessories off so all of the charging system's output can go into the battery.

    NOTE: If the engine dies shortly after it has been jump started, or as soon as the jumper cables are disconnected, it probably means the charging system is not working (bad alternator, voltage regulator, wiring problem or loose/dirty battery cables).

    If the vehicle runs okay and the battery charges up, you should clean and tighten both battery cables after shutting the engine off. The battery and charging system should also be tested to make sure both are working properly.

    Source from AA1Car.com

    www.tips-fb.com Feel [Robbie Williams]

    Tuesday, November 03, 2009
    Come on hold my hand
    I wanna contact the living
    Not sure I understand
    This role I've been given

    I sit and talk to God
    And he just laughs at my plans
    My head speaks a language
    I don't understand

    I just wanna feel real love
    Feel the home that I live in
    'Cause I got too much life
    Running through my veins, going to waste

    I don't wanna die
    But I ain't keen on living either
    Before I fall in love
    I'm preparing to leave her

    I scare myself to death
    That's why I keep on running
    Before I've arrived
    I can see myself coming

    I just wanna feel real love
    Feel the home that I live in
    'Cause I got too much life
    Running through my veins, going to waste

    And I need to feel
    Real love
    And a life ever after
    I cannot give it up

    I just wanna feel real love
    Feel the home that I live in
    I got too much love
    Running through my veins, to go to waste

    I just wanna feel real love
    In a life ever after, there's a hole in my soul
    You can see it in my face
    It's a real big place

    Come and hold my hand
    I want to contact the living
    Not sure I understand
    This role I've been given

    Not sure I understand
    Not sure I understand
    Not sure I understand
    Not sure I understand

    www.tips-fb.com Day 3

    Friday, October 30, 2009
    I received my new box of SIY on Tuesday and wednesday, I started my diet and my weight measurement is 60kg.(again start of at 60kg :P)

    That Tuesday nite, I consume SIY nite and after breakfast (1 mug of Nesvita Oatmeal), I drink SIY day. Lunch time I drink the Jus Diet Mate 5 (JDM5) and nite I have 1 pack of instant fried noodle plus I pack of snacks (Miow Miow keropok :P) because by this time already so hungry. Before sleep also, I took I bottle of SIY.

    On day 2, start off with 1 mug of oatmeal and SIY day juice, lunch with juice mate 5, dinner with one plate of white rice and 1 bowl of vegie soup (quite oily coz I eat outside) and then take SIY nite before sleep.

    Today, breakfast with 1 mug of oatmeal, then takes SIY juice, and I decided to take lunch because cannot "tahan" taking 2 things at once, plus so hungry lar, so I wanna make it one day SIY and one day JDM5. So for lunch I eat a quater pepper roasted chicken at Rasamas with Ice Lemon Tea. I also measure my weight using the 20sen digital scale outside Giant, and it showed 58.5kg. Dunno whether the machine is correct or not, but if its true, I lost 1.5kg edi. waaa..so happy.

    Tonite I am not going to take SIY juice because I am going to lunch tomorrow with JDM5.

    Chaiyok2 to me.

    p/s: I'll be in KL tomorrow, seeing my fiance always make me extra hungry, hope this time can "TAHAN" la.. haha....

    www.tips-fb.com Cosmetic

    Tuesday, October 27, 2009
    Right now I am a little crazy about cosmetic. Maybe because of the fact that I want to do my own make up on my wedding day. Why? I don't care about what people say, but I juz do not fancy bridal make up, it look all pretty in the picture, but up close, it looks so unnatural. I want people to see me, and not some make up oversized walking doll. No offense ya people!

    Yesterday I went to Jusco Bandar Perda with the girls and bought Kate Gel Eyeline, Red Earth Magic Line Kohl Eyeliner Pencil, (white), Kate Make Up Base UV at Sasa. Actually have wanted to buy Red Earth Perfect Line but they didn't have the Black colour, only brown, and after went to three Sasa (QBMall, SCMall, Jusco), I decided to give up on it. Maybe I buy it later, another time. Then I went to Elianto. I have wanted to try its make up remover. I choose the ELIANTO CRYSTAL BRIGHT CAVIAR and PEARL CLEANSING OIL for face, lips and eyes make up remover. I try it last nite. It is strong enuff to remove my smudge-proof mascara, eyeliner and foundation, but its is very oily. I need to cleanse my face thoroughly to get rid of the oil.

    I am now looking to buy Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer Potion and Coastal Scent Eyeshadow. I need to buy concealer too, but dont know which one is worth it. For foundation, I am looking at Bobbi Brown Liquid Foundation. Gonna buy that next week, I hope still have some money for it.

    Well, my car insurance gonna expired soon, there goes rm1k of my salary this month. Hurm, so many things to buy, so lttle money.. haish!!

    www.tips-fb.com Oh Noo

    Monday, October 26, 2009
    Lama betul tinggalkan diet. Selepas raya sampailah sekarang. Makan memang ikut sedap jer. Tak sedar diri tinggal laei 47 hari jer untuk hari perkahwinan. Sebenarnya agak terkejut lah tengok penimbang berat hari tu. Berat naik balik sehingga 61 kg. Alamak, inilah gara2 tidak berdisiplin jaga makan. So start this week, aku mesti kembali menjaga pemakanan.

    Arituh try SIY. Skang dah beli Jus Diet Mate 5. Tapi belum minum lagilah. Sebab baru ja order laei satu kotak SIY untuk diri sendiri. So aku ingat, nak amalkan SIY dan JDM5 serentak. Hopefully boleh nampak hasilnyer. Takmolah nanti pakai baju pengantin x cantik. Kena tunggu SIY sampai dolu, then baru start serious diet.

    Oleh itu, janjiku pada diri sendiri... mesti diet. Atleast turunkan 5kg berat sebelum majlis. :)

    www.tips-fb.com Preparation

    Tuesday, October 20, 2009
    Orang selalu tanya, macam mana dengan preparation. Yelah, tak sampai laei dua bulan jer for wedding. I admit, if compare to other people, our preparation is really modest, and we haven't done much. But we are not too worried about that. So let me summaries here what have been done.

    All the wedding application form is ready, now waiting to submit. Tok Imam cakap, borang hanya boleh submit sebulan sebelum tarikh akad nikah ke pejabat agama. So I'll need to submit the form after 12 November 2009.

    My wedding dress dah hantar tailor. Just jahit sehelai jer.. for akad nikah dan juga wedding, because we did it all on one day, I don't think we need two dresses for that. One would be enuff. The wedding dress would be ready on 7 Nov 2009.

    The canopy has been booked. Along with Meja Pengantin.

    The curtains already been sent to tailor (btw, my sister's sister in law is the one who help me to sew it).

    And a few little things bought here and there.

    Well... thats it.

    Supposely next week I go to KL to search for hantaran items and to book the wedding dress there for Kajang reception, but my darling will be outstation to Terengganu. So look like another week to postpone. I think I take this weekend to search for Bridal House or Beauty Saloon to do the Henna.

    My darling also insisted to do the Wedding cards by himself. So I hope it will be ready by next month, so I could start to sent it around.

    Really wish everything will went well :)

    www.tips-fb.com Sadness

    Wednesday, October 14, 2009
    Sadness, is not one of the feeling that I should feel right now. I rather be mad than sad. Because the feeling of sadness, its too heavy for me to carry on. They said, the journey towards marriage should be a happy and exciting. Where the groom would lets his bride choose how she would like it to be. The excited bride usually want to live up the feeling, not compress the feeling, and feeling worried and scared all the time. He acted as if he do not care about my feeling. Why does he always failed to comfort me, to give me the assurance that the day would be special for us. Why not he want to be excited as I am? Is he hiding something?

    I am just like any other girl. I seek to be appreciate. Treated like a princess. Honour like a queen. Pampered like a baby. I also have my dream wedding, I push all of it a way, juz to be with him would be the greatest present of all, but that doesn't mean that I do not want it to be special. I am sad.

    Yes, I am sad. Too sad to even have any other feeling. To sad to care about any other things. To sad even to pest him with my continuous calls to seek attention. Too sad even to feel mad anymore.

    Sadness... I shouldn't be feeling it right now. Not tonight. Not when everything should be alright.

    But, there would not be any comfort words for me tonite. He would not call. I know. He doesnt think that I deserve it.

    www.tips-fb.com A Song

    Friday, October 09, 2009
    This is the song that is playing in my radio, while I'm driving during office's lunch time. Haven't hear it for a while and I really enjoyed this song. One marvelous lyric and evergreen song. If only somebody could truly understand its meaning .

    Have You Ever Love A Woman- Bryan Adams

    To really love a woman
    To understand her - you gotta know it deep inside
    Hear every thought - see every dream
    N' give her wings - when she wants to fly
    Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
    You know you really love a woman

    When you love a woman you tell her
    that she's really wanted
    When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
    she needs somebody to tell her
    that it's gonna last forever
    So tell me have you ever really
    - really really ever loved a woman?

    To really love a woman
    Let her hold you -
    til ya know how she needs to be touched
    You've gotta breathe her - really taste her
    Til you can feel her in your blood
    N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
    You know you really love a woman

    When you love a woman
    you tell her that she's really wanted
    When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
    she needs somebody to tell her
    that you'll always be together
    So tell me have you ever really -
    really really ever loved a woman?

    You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
    A little tenderness - gotta treat her right
    She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
    Ya really gotta love your woman...

    Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
    You know you really love a woman
    When you love a woman you tell her
    that she's really wanted
    When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
    she needs somebody to tell her
    that it's gonna last forever
    So tell me have you ever really
    - really really ever loved a woman?

    Just tell me have you ever really,
    really, really, ever loved a woman? You got to tell me
    Just tell me have you ever really,
    really, really, ever loved a woman?

    www.tips-fb.com Treats

    I still remember. Back then when I was still little, until I am in Primary School, the best treats for me was a KFC meal which my mom brought back from her factory, because they were celebrating something.

    My mom used to work as a Factory Operator. If she has Annual Dinner or the boss was giving the employee a treat, my mom would received one box of Dinner Plate meal from KFC.

    She would woke us up in the middle of the nite [she usually reach home around +-12 midnite from work] and told us that she brought KFC back home. She didn't eat it because she wanted to gave to us. All of us would be so happy. While rubbing our eyes, and tearing the KFC box, we would happily eat the delicious KFC.

    Now that I am older, and have my own money, I didn't like KFC that much, but I still remember the feeling, of enjoyment when consuming KFC. A once-a-while treat from mother, although she didn't have the luxury of providing us the expensive stuff that rich kid would enjoy, but she gave us whatever she could afford. Sometimes we tend to forget the big sacrifice, event tho its look so simple.

    For that, I would like to thank my mother. I love you, eventho, I didn't say it much.

    www.tips-fb.com Atos Finally Out

    Thursday, October 08, 2009
    After two month being in the workshop for repair, Atos finally out yesterday. She's so smelly. I have sprayed her with one bottle of FeBreze. This evening gonna take her go mandi.

    I have taken a 1/2 day leave today, to settle my HIV Test for wedding preparation, and also going to wash my car.

    My feeling after getting Atoz back.. I dunno, it feels kinda weird actually, like it is not my car. The feeling really is different. Guess I have to take sometimes to adapt myself to her again.

    related entries A very bad day and Poor Atos

    www.tips-fb.com Destructive

    Wednesday, October 07, 2009
    A thick, black, evil, and tempting feeling of being destructive, resulting from unknown source, therefore will not have any cure.

    It can be keep hidden and suppress, but its there, always there, waiting to emerge.

    www.tips-fb.com PURE ANGER!!

    Tuesday, October 06, 2009
    If u cannot stand five minute of silence, than you would not truly understand me. Believe me, U cannot handle me. Because if you know, it is not silence, its two people, connected on an invisible line, that each one of them is somehow connected, from far, eventho not with words.

    www.tips-fb.com Life has its own planned agenda

    Wednesday, September 30, 2009
    One thing that I felt really good about my life, is how sometimes, without having me lift a finger, all the puzzle pieces of my life, of future plans, fall one by one into places. That is why I guess, I never felt worry about what happen next. Yes, I do not think much about the future. I am more to "right-now" person.

    I am glad. Eventho, things ain't that certain, but I knew, I can always count on luck. Yes, I can be considered lucky, most of the time in my life. Thank God!

    www.tips-fb.com Stupid Thing that I do

    Monday, September 28, 2009
    Being typically me, I never learned! Sometimes its really hard to differentiate between good and bad. To feel guilty and remorse. Especially when you do the thing that you justify as "white sin". This is the last time I... That it won't happen again, yet.. and yet it happen...

    I almost blew everything off. Not because the grass on the otherside is greener, but because I taught it taste better. Yet, once I taste it, I long to be back where I come from. And I'm angry because I let my illusion tricks me again... yet.. I never learned! Never!

    The old book has been burned so many times. From the ashes, I gathered and even I know how dirty my hands will be, I still pick it up, what left of it anyway, simply because I thought that there's something else got left behind. Something I am still failed to comprehend.

    All of the same stories going around and around, is just an evidence of how stupid I am most of the time. But being stupid, does it mean I am being naive, or am I simply just pure evil?

    www.tips-fb.com Salam Aidilfitri

    Tuesday, September 15, 2009
    Laei 5 hari je nak raya, cepat benar masa berlalu. Tak sabar rasanyer nak menyambut lebaran, walaupun tanpa kehadiran Labu atao Atos menemani kali ini. Anyway, kepada semua, saya minta maaf ye, andai kata ada kesalahan, samada sengaja atao tidak.

    Selamat Hari Raya!

    www.tips-fb.com Anger and Me

    Tuesday, September 08, 2009
    True. Lately I have been so cranky. Not just to my darling, but to all. And maybe some won't even notice, because I do keep quite if I am feeling very cranky, because talking itself make me feels angry. The reason? If only I knew why. But I can be sure of the chemical inbalance in me.

    True, I am not in my 100% healthy self. Hard for me to talk because of my coughing. It has been two weeks already, and I juz hate taking anymore medicine, or going too dr. It doesn't seem to work anymore. The flu juz come and goes with a sneeze or maybe a fews sneeze, now and then. I hate it. I still havn't had my period. And it make matter worst. First, the chemical inbalance won't go away, Second, I am fasting (had to fast as no excuse to "ponteng"), so difficult for me to stick to my medicine. I already take medicine to make my period flows, but still, no success. I am miserably awaiting for my period and hope it takes my crankiness away.

    True, after the accident, I haven't once meet my darling. I am sure I don't have any physical injuries, as I am sure I have internal damage. I need to see him, especially in this stressful moment, still, I am all depressingly alone here. Thinking of spending time with friends? Its juz hard. I want my car back. I hate life without car. It is so depressing. I HATE have to depend on people to do my stuff. Hate it so much!!

    Treatment for me? Theraphy?
    I need to see Dr again? For what, waste of money. I hate tis ugly lump on my wrist. Yes, do remind me to go to DR and have it check... I hate DR!! Hate it more because have to ask people to take me to see one. Everything seem three times more depressing when you don't have car. Seriously, If I have car, I wont think twice to go to KL, but to go there by bus, at this fasting month, near Raya already... ughh.. the thought itself make me depress.

    Oh ya, theraphy, I am thinking of re-highlight my hair, and go for perming too. Maybe it will make me feel better.. Maybe!! but still need to ask people to take me go salon.. so so.. don't like it at all!!

    Right now, I hate conversation, I hate talking, I hate have to pretend to be okay.

    Dear, I am so sorry, I know how much you worried about me, and how harsh I treat you lately, but it is out of my control. I am so depress. I am juz glad I am still in control. I do not revert to cigarette or alchohol to ease my idiotic burden, or go swearing at people, and show my middle finger each time people get into my nerve.. atleast, thats what so good about fasting, you have less temptation to do sinful things, and it make your life atleast not that worst.

    I hope all of this bad feeling would go away soon. Please, it really is not fun at all!!

    p.s : don't be mad if I'm seen like didn't wanna entertain a conversation with you. Don't force me to speak, I only gonna be madder!

    and... I love you.. no matter how badly I behave. Bear with me, please!

    www.tips-fb.com Streamyx No More

    Thursday, August 27, 2009
    After two years of subscibing streamyx, I finally can terminate the service. Thank God.

    The reason why I don't want to use it anymore, simply because, I wanna ease my financial burden. Now can deduct RM100 for my monthly bill. :D

    www.tips-fb.com Updates

    Sunday, August 16, 2009
    Sorry that I haven't been updating the progress of SIY. After the accident, I was having a high fever, and my body is weak for a few days that I stop taking SIY for three days.

    Today, finally I have finish the first box of SIY and my weight now maintain at 57kg. I didn't loss any kilos but ain't gaining it either. My eating habits is as usual (still taking one serve of rice during lunch and dinner). Even I stop taking for three days, my weight is still 57kg.

    Tomorrow, I will start on the second box. Hope to see a positive results.

    www.tips-fb.com Just a Note

    It was an understatement, if I said that I truly regret what happen. I am awfully sorry that sometimes I'm such an ignorance ass that was incapable of diplomatic, despite living in compromy and always trying to be liberal and not being too judgemental. Afterall, I am human [really hate that words... juz human], who are bound of making repeated mistakes and only would realize after I've done it.

    Yes, you could hate me. I really don't mind to be hated, even if people ignore me completely, as long as there's some one [ one people is all I need], that I know, whatever happen to me, no matter how ugly I behave, would still love me so, unconditionally. I am blessed in a way, even me myself, sometimes don't understand.

    I would like to say that no matter what happen, there's always rainbow after the rain, but that would be too positive of me. Honestly, I am such a negative person that sometimes, positive thing really make me sick. I am happy being miserable, do you understand me?? I am HAPPY being MISERABLE...

    I miss being in KL. I really wanted to go back there. I miss my friends. I miss the trafic jam, I miss the neon lights, I miss the expensive foods. I really hate living here, but I do amaze me, how patience I am enduring the situation. And I have to wait, not much longer, to be back where I think I belong.

    www.tips-fb.com Lie to me

    Sunday, August 09, 2009
    I do wish sometime people would lie to me.. and tell me what a wonderful and great person I am!

    www.tips-fb.com Strange

    wasn't it,
    when you say you care,
    but you ignore it?

    I would say again,
    why such harden heart,
    when you say it was full of love

    Yes, I would say it strange,
    now I wonder,
    how strange it is for me,
    even to write this....

    www.tips-fb.com Poor Atos

    Saturday, August 08, 2009

    www.tips-fb.com SIY Progress

    Friday, August 07, 2009
    I promised earlier to post the update on my daily consumption on SIY. Today is my fourth day on SIY, so far I could say that I am very positive about SIY. Its good, but still really early to say.
    Oh ya, my weight before taking SIY is 60kg.

    Day 1 (starts on 4 Aug 2009 by consuming SIY nite the nite before)

    Breakfast: 1 slice of papaya

    Lunch: Rice, 1 piece chicken, 2 scoops long beans, 2 pieces of salted fish, 3 pieces of ladies finger, 1 slice of papaya

    Dinner: (taken before 8pm) 1 piece of bread with planta

    Water Intake : ~2500ml

    Excersise : 30 mins walk in Mengkuang Dam (not jog ya.. I juz walk)

    Weight (Morning) : 59kg
    Weight (Night) : 59 kg

    Day 2 (5 Aug 2009)

    Breakfast: 1 piece of bread with planta

    Lunch: Rice, Grill Fish

    Dinner: didn't take any dinner because of accident, I lost my appetite

    Water Intake : ~3000ml

    Excersise :1 game of badminton

    Weight (Morning) : 58kg
    Weight (Night) : 58 kg

    Day 3 (6 Aug 2009)

    Breakfast: (late breakfast at 10am because when to clinic) 1 nasi lemak, 1 hot plain milo

    Lunch: 1 piece of bread

    Dinner: TCRS Honey BBQ Chicken Noodle (dry), lime with sour plum

    Water Intake : ~1000ml (I didn't drink much water because I slept a lot after taking medicine)

    Excersise :No excersice (that nite go watch movie at cinema)

    Weight (Morning) : 57kg
    Weight (Night) : 57.5 kg

    That is what I have so far. Today wake up and weight myself, my current weight is now 57.5 kg.
    Will try to drink a lot of water and then weight myself again before going to bed.

    So far, I have lost 2.5kg. Unbelievable... believe it. Before this, I also went to Keep Slim, I do lost around 1-3kg on each session, but quickly gain it back after I completed the session, I hope SIY will continue to work its wonders. Oh yes, I'll try watch my diet, and the thing I like about SIY, its doesn't make me diarrhea, I do my business every morning, and it do keep the hunger away. (I do finish all my food tho)

    I'll update again later. :)

    www.tips-fb.com A very2x bad day!!

    Wednesday, August 05, 2009
    Today can be consider the worst day in my life. I left my HP at home. After work, rain pour down heavily. And I got badminton tournament. Later, I got into car, start the engine, waiting for my fren to go together to the badminton court in Sirim, suddenly my car engine stop. I try to restart the engine but it won't start. Because I left my HP, I go back inside Mimos, and borrow Fazreil phone to call Unid. She came pick me up and we played badminton. We lost and one player hit the shuttle cock rite to my eyes.. (ouch!!!)

    Then before going home, I asked unid to check my car first to see if I could start it up. Owh, then I realized that I never pull back the gear to N position, no wonder I can't start the car (before my engine dead, I already put gear D and lower my handbreak) so yay... I can drive Atos home!!

    On the way back, i did feel a bit blur and weird. Actually I have the feeling before the badminton game start, but i dismiss it maybe because I worry that Atos wouldn't start. I was driving like usual.. around 80km/h.. it was still raining, but not heavily. Then there's a water pool on the road, I didn't expected it to be deep, next thing I know, I lost control of the car, the car swerve, hit the road side and the next thing I know, I was sitting upside down in the car. First thing come to my mind, please dont explode!

    Then somebody knock on my car window, trying to open the door, i unlock the door, while they trying to open the door which appear to be stuck, I release my seatbelt, and quickly get out of the car as soon as they open the door. I check my self, I didn't feel any pain. The people around me keep asking me, are you okay? do you need to go to hospital? I said.. I'm fine..I'm fine really I'm fine. Now what should I do?

    I look at Atos.. oh dear!! all dented and the mirror is broken to pieces, the side mirror is broken, the tyre flat... and Thank God, I'm Okay, with no injury (as far as I could feel at that time, no blood also..thats good)

    I try call my fiancee but his HP is off. (luckily, unid follow my car, then she stop to help, thats y I could used her phone). Then I asked unid to call the police. After that Unid called Fairus and Irfan. They came and assist us until I make a police report. (Thanks Guys!!) The tow trunk people, the come without having to call.. haha..so fast also.. not even 5 minutes after the incident/ accident. But its okay, they said they can settle everything.

    After making the police report, Unid and I went home. I started to feel the bruises on my hip and a bit pain in stomach. After taking bath, here I am .. writing this blog, trying to digest what just happen to me. I never imagine this could happen to me. I am feeling a bit shocked. I wonder how I could be so calm and even find it exciting when first got involved in accident. Now I feel scared, It could have turn out worst, if the road didn't have the trees to block my car from going to the opposite lane, or I could hit another car and make matter worst. and this really make me realize the important of seatbelt, If I am not wearing any seatbelt, thing could get far worst. I could feel the seatbelt hold me tightly, and firmly attach to the car seat, even when the car overturn.

    altho today is quite unlucky, I do feel I am lucky, atleast to still breathing, and got out of the accident without a scratch.

    Still couldn't contact my fiancee.. I do wish to talk to him badly :(

    www.tips-fb.com Funny!!

    Quote from Alice in Wonderland

    “To begin with,” said the Cat, “a dog’s not mad. Do you grant that?”
    “I suppose so,” said Alice.
    “Well, then,” the Cat went on, “you see a dog growls when it’s angry, and wags it’s tail when it’s pleased. Now I growl when I’m pleased, and wag my tail when I’m angry. Therefore I’m mad.”

    www.tips-fb.com What a blast!!

    Tuesday, August 04, 2009
    last weekend was a blast. I really enjoyed myself, me and my darling went for shopping (window shopping most likely) in QBMall and I found the ring that I think quite nice, and he also finally found a shop that can make his custom made wedding ring. It's been a while since we go dating, and I really missed it.
    On Sunday, me, my darling along with my brother and my nephew went fishing. It was my borther idea. The place was very nice. We do caught a big fish but one of my catch slip away because my fishing line broke. Must be a big fish I guess. Apart from getting the fish, I also got myself a nasty sunburn on my hand. Damn it feel so pain. Imagine staying wide open in the sun for hours. Luckily that I didn't burn my face :D.

    Oh yeah, on Monday, I already received my parcel. I purchase a S.I.Y product. Just wanna give it a try. From what I read from other people testimonial, it is good. People manage to lose their weight and atleast feel they are becoming more healthy. Today is my first day on SIY, I haven't felt much different, but it is too early to say.

    Oh btw, the taste of SIY is really thick. I start with the nite juice last nite, a bit bitter in taste, could taste the thick taste of berries. And this morning, after breakfast, I take the day juice, much2x more thicker than the nite juice and it has a very thick and heavy taste of prune juice. If you've try Brand's InnerShine prune extract before, it taste more less like that, but 3-5 times thicker. Frankly, the taste not too bad after all.

    I will write my progress here, daily, we will see if the SIY product are as good as its reputation.

    All the best of luck to me (in losing weight) :P

    www.tips-fb.com Excess Baggage

    Thursday, July 30, 2009
    A man, standing beside the lamp pole, heavy build with a black shirt on, and a red cap covering his face. The street is empty tonite. Except for the late- niters who has been passing by, now and then. The man was waiting for something. He hold a big plastic bag, tighly helding it, pressing to his chest. His eyes wondered around. Trying to catch a glimpse of sign, so he could make his move.

    His watching eyes now directed at one lonely lady. In the opposite position of his. The lady was wearing a bright yellow sweater, and her dark hair flowing under the moving breeze. The lady seem like she didn't notice his existence there. She was lost in her own thought. He make his move towards her. Still she didn't notice. He was now only inches away from her. She could feel his warmth as he was moving towards her. She look up to him but her eyes was not at his face, she was looking at the plastic bag. Without a single word, he held the bag towards her. Silently, her hand accept the bag while the man started to walk away.

    A trade has been made. Something has somehow changed but nobody even notice, except for the man and the lady. They knew what has just happen. They have give and received the bag, with mutual understanding, even the trading didn't involved the luxury of speech.

    She know now the content of the bag, all of it, has transfer their ownership to her. Although, they are nothing more than a burden, an excessive baggage to her, but she has to accept. It is the nature of human written law than she could not refuse. Slowly, she take a step, follow by another, moving away from where she stand, towards the next destination of the plastic bag, where the ownership will once more change.

    www.tips-fb.com Life

    "Loser say, Life is what happen to me". I heard this quote a while ago, can't remember when or where, but it doesn't matter. Why I wrote the quote here, I also dont know, it does not apply to me.

    I have been a loyal complainer since I can remember, this is not right, that is not fair, f* life, even I always curse my own existence. I always try to find something to hold on, to blame at, or to atleast, throw all my anger and negativity at... and I called it as life.

    People has journey along way. I have spent 27 years of my life now. And not knowing how much I still have. If I know I would be living until I am thirty years old, wouldn't the 27 would be consider a waste, is three years to come enough for me to make amend to all of my wrong. I know the answer, but I would not accept it as an answer.

    What the hell am I trying to say here? No idea, whatsoever. I never did. Mostly I write whatever I felt. Weird, I always find it to be very difficult, even for me to grasp on what am I actually feeling. Love, flirty, naughty, sad and angry. But why?

    I'm singing in the rain
    Just singing in the rain
    What a glorious feelin'
    I'm happy again
    I'm laughing at clouds
    So dark up above
    The sun's in my heart
    And I'm ready for love
    Let the stormy clouds chase
    Everyone from the place
    Come on with the rain
    I've a smile on my face
    I walk down the lane
    With a happy refrain
    Just singin',
    Singin' in the rain

    Now I remember, last night I saw an old movie "The Clockwork Orange", which was release on 1971. It is a story that potray ultra-violent. Why did I like the psycho kind of movie, I also dunno. But what I see last nite, did effect me today.

    Oh enuff of being mental already. I really feel like doing something bad. Maybe that is what I would do. Something to make me feel like a bad girl.

    www.tips-fb.com A nowhere place

    Wednesday, July 29, 2009
    I have turned my head 360 degree. As impossible as it may sound but I did it. What broke my heart is, the sight I expected to see, is far off my imaginary. Where are the big green apple tree, or the yellowish flower covering the field? It is not there.. it is nowhere to be seen. So maybe my eyes have tricked me. Maybe it is there but I couldn't see it.

    I look up expecting to see a clear blue sky, but the sky is coloured in bright red, with not a single cloud in sight. I must be dreaming, this must be a dream, a nightmare to be exact. This is not a familiar place to me. This isn't the place I wanted to be.

    Soon enough, I realised, I'm lost and trapped, in a place called nowhere.

    www.tips-fb.com Fact about Atos

    Monday, July 27, 2009
    Saje lah.. tengah dok tercari-cari info about keta, terjumpe menda alah nie, selama nie.. aku drive atos xpernah tahu pun fakta tentang nyer.. so ku paste kan di sini info nya supaya sekalian kite dapat lebey mengenali Atos.. hehe.. :)

    The Hyundai Atos is a city car produced by the Hyundai Motor Company. The original Atos was introduced in 1997. In 1999, it was joined by the less controversially styled Hyundai Atos Prime. It uses the G4HC Epsilon straight 4 engine. The mkII version comes with a 1086cc G4HG engine.

    Figures as listed for the 2000-2003, 5 door, 1.0i model with GSi trim as sold in the UK (as the Amica), with standard options.

    Length: 3495 mm
    Width: 1495 mm
    Height: 1580 mm
    Wheelbase: 2380 mm
    Unladen weight: 847 kg
    Technical data
    Fuel Delivery: Multi-Point Injection
    Transmission: 5-Speed Manual
    Engine size & layout: 999 cc, 4 cylinders, 12 valves
    Peak Power: 40kW (55 bhp)
    Peak Torque: 82 Nm (60 lb-ft)
    0-60 mph (96 km/h): 14.6 s
    Top Speed: 142 km/h (88 mph)
    Fuel economy: 6.4L/100km (44 UK MPG / 35 US)
    Emissions: 151g CO2/km, other emissions below Euro III standard.
    (Adapted from listing available at [1])

    Other names
    The Atos Prime is marketed as the Hyundai Amica in the United Kingdom, and is also rebadged as the Dodge Atos in Mexico and Kia Visto in Indonesia and South Korea. The original Atos was sold under the Hyundai brand but rebadged as the Atoz (or "AtoZ") in some markets, including the United Kingdom.

    South Asia
    The Hyundai Santro is a rebadged version of the city car Hyundai Atos sold in some Asian markets.

    Hyundai entered the Indian market through the Santro whose main rival at that time was the popular Maruti Suzuki Zen. The company got actor Shah Rukh Khan to endorse the Santro and although the radical styling was not accepted by everyone, the car was an instant hit. It is still undergoing number of improvements and face lifts to suit the Indian customers. The main rival of santro in the current market is Suzuki Wagon R and Maruti Zen Estilo.

    In 2003, older models were replaced by the second generation Atos Prime as Santro Xing which is also very popular in India.

    The Santro was launched in Pakistan in 2000. Having struggled a tough stance and low customer interest initially, the new Santro Club and Santro Exec created an impact in the market, which exists to date.

    In Malaysia, Hyundai Atos is locally assembled by Inokom carrying the badge Inokom Atos. The Inokom Atos Prima was later introduced in 2006 which is has the new Atos Prime front while maintaining the original Atos rear.

    The recently launched Hyundai i10 is seen as an eventual replacement for the Atos in several markets, probably by the later part of 2008. In some markets, like India, the Atos (sold as the Santro Xing) still remains a very popular model, especially after significant price cuts by Hyundai to place it below the i10. Here the Atos and the i10 will co-exist for quite some time to come, with the i10 pitted against the likes of the Maruti Zen Estilo, while the Santro(Atos) is offered as an alternative to the Suzuki Alto.

    Atos EV
    Hyundai unveiled at the 1997 Frankfurt Motor Show an electric vehicle based on the the Atos, the Atos EV. The Atos EV weights 2585 lb (1173 kg), including the battery pack, which holds 24 nickel metal hydride (Ni-MH) batteries. An on-board 6.6 kW conductive charger can fully recharge the Ni-MH batteries in seven hours.

    The Atos EV can travel more than 120 miles (193 km) in stop and go city driving and can reach a top speed of 80 mph (130 km/h).

    Best compact car in Initial Quality 2004, Malaysia Initial Quality Study

    ^ Hyundai Introduces All New Atos Electric Vehicle at Frankfurt Motor Show. prnewswire.com. Retrieved on 2007-12-14.

    External links
    Dodge Atos website
    Hyundai Atos review on motoring.co.za
    Hyundai Santro Xing in India
    Team Hyundai Malaysia 팀 현대 말레이시아

    Tak kenal maka xcinta ... I love my Atos

    www.tips-fb.com why did I write this...

    Thursday, July 23, 2009
    when you worst enemies reside within you, you only left yourself to be blame and to be angry at.
    You neither die nor live, what a pathetic way to pass each day, hoping that someday you'll change.
    yOU said you never meant what you said, yet saying it is what you always did.
    you are tired of explaining everything, repeating the same thing to justify yourself,
    hoping that they understand and won't hate you. Yet, that was the very thing that you did.
    There's no tears running down your cheek, yet inside, you are drowning with emptiness
    and sorrow. Yes, you did hurt the people. Yes, you are the reason for making other people
    stay, and suffer with you. You have no purpose in life, if you have, it is just to masquarade your nothingness.
    Try to hide the fact that within you, there's no love or glory, it just a sad story, that did not
    have a beginning, nor shall it has an ending.

    You try to recall, what make you become the monster you are today, but no answer will knock
    at your door. You are just a sad story. Till the day you die, you'll continue to destroy
    everything, including yourself.

    www.tips-fb.com One Thing Done :)

    Tuesday, July 21, 2009
    Last weekend, on Saturday and Sunday, finally I have attended the pre-wedding course which bring me one -step closer on becoming a Mrs. Khalil. All of us who attend the course felt so happy. Yes, now all of us are certificed bride-to-be (hehe). The course was offered by Hasani Management in Kulim with a fee of RM80, they gave us a RM5 lunch money for the two-day course, which is certainly not enuff (I spent RM5.70 on the first day alone :P).

    The Ustaz were not bad. Some of them are really good (funny, look nice) but some are boring to the ear. Overall, I did learn something and was very glad to have attended it. It would be much nicer if my fiancee could attend it with me, but he was taking the course on the same day, in Bukit Jalil. It's ok. I am quite used to long distance relationship.

    I am happy, excited, nervous, stressful, worried and I am feeling all of it at once due to the wedding preparation. What worry me most is, my mental preparation. It's not easy to be a wife, especially for hot-headed girl like me. But I will give it my best shot. I am going to be a good loving wife, Insya-Allah :)

    www.tips-fb.com Susah jadi perempuan

    Wednesday, July 15, 2009
    Memang pun. Lebih2 lagi, biler orang xfaham kite... Kalo le boleh lepak dan tido je kat rumah, xperlu pergi keje, sampailah mood pulih balik...

    This is me at work wearing my smiley face :)
    This is how I really feel #$%&*#@%#$

    www.tips-fb.com I heard it before

    Haven't I heard that before? Juz like a broken record, playing over and over again...

    I hate it so much! Can't I juz make it shut up.. once and for all....


    www.tips-fb.com Dream

    Tuesday, July 07, 2009
    This ain't a dream anymore.

    It really is happening to me.

    Another 5 months worth waiting for.

    I am ecstatic and overwhelm with happiness.


    www.tips-fb.com This Ain't A Love Story

    Thursday, July 02, 2009
    Isn't this world a happy place,
    full of lovely things to embrace,
    people holding hand saying grace,
    try to make up for all the thing they miss.

    Isn't this world an exciting journey,
    full of richness and glory,
    not the one that come with money,
    but with big humble heart saying " I'm Sorry"

    Such perfect world mold by innocent hand,
    now torn apart by that very hand,
    her heart broken, her world crumble down,
    as she cry and cry all night long,
    this is not how it suppose to be,
    how could this be, this isn't a fairytale love story.

    www.tips-fb.com The Urge

    Friday, June 26, 2009
    Have you ever felt an urge to do something badly, only end up swallowing the guilt and try to dismiss it away? This urge sometimes wouldn't go away and always pestering you around, waiting for you to slip up and the urge gonna take control and submit to it call, that's when you will feel free because you no longer urging for it. But soon enough, you only end up feeling sorry for yourself and blaming yourself for letting it happen.

    " Hi, my name is Sue and I have an urge to ................."

    www.tips-fb.com I am this type of programmer ?? Really??

    Wednesday, June 24, 2009
    Your programmer personality type is:


    You're a Doer.
    You are very quick at getting tasks done. You believe the outcome is the most important part of a task and the faster you can reach that outcome the better. After all, time is money.

    You like coding at a Low level.
    You're from the old school of programming and believe that you should have an intimate relationship with the computer. You don't mind juggling registers around and spending hours getting a 5% performance increase in an algorithm.

    You work best in a Solo situation.
    The best way to program is by yourself. There's no communication problems, you know every part of the code allowing you to write the best programs possible.

    You are a liBeral programmer.
    Programming is a complex task and you should use white space and comments as freely as possible to help simplify the task. We're not writing on paper anymore so we can take up as much room as we need.

    www.tips-fb.com Sorority Life

    Thursday, June 18, 2009
    Okay, I have a confession to make. Recently, I'm kinda addicted to Sorority Life application in facebook... I have added so many new friends who also enjoyed SL to increase the chance of me not being attack all the time by other people house who has so much people in their house.

    You could slap people, have a fight, get them vote for you.. and yes, the more sister you have, the more invincible you'll be. so SISTER is VERY IMPORTANT. We protect each other.

    I'm hook to this apps. but don't know how long it will last.

    Next week Adlina will bring me her Sims 3 CD. Just cant wait to play it. I always enjoy playing Sims, and SIMS3 has so much more features being add on...

    Owh..play time again ! :)

    www.tips-fb.com Panas

    Wednesday, June 17, 2009
    Cuaca skang panas. Temper pun cepat naik. sabar..sabar...
    Malam2 tido pun panas.. dah mandi pun panas... dok dlm aircond sejuk sangat.
    Badan, panas...sejuk...panas...sejuk...

    erm xlama laei meletup lah... hahahakss...

    Miz my darling... Looking forward to color my hair ... :)

    www.tips-fb.com 1115pm

    Tuesday, June 16, 2009
    Time: 11.15pm
    Place: Infront of Idiot box in living room
    Activities: Surfing the net, writing this crap, and watching desperate housewife

    Sometimes, we just know!! It really is incredible!

    www.tips-fb.com This Short Post

    Monday, June 15, 2009
    Eventually with nothing with meaning...
    When U total up all the BS and Crap in the world..
    this is what u get...
    A very Short Post... pointing right at you..
    and say ... "Plz GTFO!!"

    www.tips-fb.com Jumping into conclusion

    Saturday, June 13, 2009
    "U must listen to me. If I said NO, its mean No. Why are u still stubborn, don't u care u r hurting my heart"

    "But it just who I am. I am like this. That's why sometimes I think it's best not to tell"

    "Itu kurang ajar namanya"


    [I do get hurt by how u interpreting our relationship, my loyalty, and ur faith in me... its not because I am frustrated at first because I cant go, but I am frustrated because I really looking forward to this planning, since last week, u should know... still u jump into wrong conclusion and make situation grew worst. I wonder why we think so differently at time, don't u already know how I am??]

    Why are we arguing in the first place? U always blame me for something I have NO INTENTION at all of doing... punishment before the crime...

    www.tips-fb.com The Unseen

    Thursday, June 11, 2009
    Hidden somewhere, not to be found. Locked in somewhere, never to be re-open. It's the unseen, it real, and it exist. But you just wouldn't know it, don't know where to find it. Simply because... U can't see it.

    www.tips-fb.com Drought

    Wednesday, June 10, 2009
    Long since the land has been bless by the luxury of water. The rain has abandon this forsaken land as long as I could remember. So long now that the valley of rivers now left nothing but dust and dirt. All the fishes has gone. The drought has been the worst disaster that ever strike here.

    I looked at my swollen bare feet, I could only dragged it around while searching for water, vainly. When did all of these started, I could not remember. Where were all the people gone? Since I woke up, I could remember nothing except how beautiful these place has been before, where the water rushing fiercely towards West. How long has I been dragging my feet, pitifully, wonder mindlessly, without anywhere to go.

    My tongue was dried. I could no longer bear to walk. I took a handful of dirt and forced it down my throat, expecting to taste a watery sensation that my mind has tricked me to believe in, only to end up, coughing and vomiting it all out. And I fell down to the awaiting soil.

    This was not how I imagine my life would end. This was not how I wanted to die. Yet, I knew my time has drawn closer. I took my last breath as I said good bye to the world.

    This drought will continue while my journey shall end here. Right now.

    www.tips-fb.com Coastal Scents 88 Pallete

    Monday, June 08, 2009
    One of my colleague is going to HK this Firday, and this is what I ask him to get me...

    Coastal Scents 88 make Up Pallette

    I hope he really could find this... and I am glad he don't mind looking for it for me :D

    Just can't wait for him to come back next week and test my new make up..


    www.tips-fb.com Please Dont Leave Me [Pink]

    Saturday, June 06, 2009

    Da da da da, da da da da
    Da da da, da da
    Da da da, da da

    I don't know if I can yell any louder
    How many time I've kicked you outta here?
    Or said something insulting?
    Da da da, da da

    I can be so mean when I wanna be
    I am capable of really anything
    I can cut you into pieces
    But my heart is broken
    Da da da, da da

    Please don't leave me
    Please don't leave me
    I always say how I don't need you
    But it's always gonna come right back to this
    Please, don't leave me

    How did I become so obnoxious?
    What is it with you that makes me act like this?
    I've never been this nasty
    Da da da, da da

    Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
    The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
    But baby I don't mean it
    I mean it, I promise
    Da da da, da da

    Please don't leave me
    Oh please don't leave me
    I always say how I don't need you
    But it's always gonna come right back to this
    Please, don't leave me

    I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
    I cannot be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
    And I need you, I'm sorry
    Da da da, da da

    Da da da da, da da da da
    Da da da, da da
    Please, please don't leave me
    (Da da da, da da)

    Baby please don't leave me
    (Da da da, da da)
    No, don't leave me
    Please don't leave me no no no

    You say I don't need you
    But it's always gonna come right back
    It's gonna come right back to this
    Please, don't leave me

    Please don't leave me, oh no no no.
    I always say how I don't need you
    But it's always gonna come right back to this

    Please don't leave me
    Baby, please, please don't leave me

    www.tips-fb.com Bitter Heart [Zee Avi]

    Thursday, June 04, 2009

    Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground,
    Children spinning around till they fall down down down.
    I wait for you: it's been two hours now,
    You're still somewhere in town,
    Your dinners getting cold.
    I rest my case you are always this late,
    And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round,
    Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
    Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
    Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
    Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.
    And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday,
    So tell me whats her name.
    Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum.
    Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside
    Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
    Bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile,
    Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.

    www.tips-fb.com Unrelentless Effort

    Step into the circle of a never ending evolution that didn't have a beginning nor an ending. My mind felt so blur and confuse.

    My tired eyes always begging for a good nap when the time strike past two. A lot of works to be done, and I tried not too think too much about anything.

    If only I could understand what my heart is trying to tell me, but at the same time also, I am scared that it would be lying to me again....

    www.tips-fb.com Unspoken

    I'm here... wondering
    I'm here... missing something
    I'm here... doing life calculation
    still here...
    maybe one day I'll leave
    and then what is left behind
    are all those unspoken words
    that bind us together...
    yet making us drifted away...
    far, far... and further away from each other
    but at least..
    I am still here...

    www.tips-fb.com I'm Taking Back My Love [Enrique & Ciara]

    Wednesday, June 03, 2009

    Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
    You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
    I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
    So did I deserve to be left here hurt?

    You think I don't know you're out of control
    I ended up finding all of this from my boys
    Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so
    You already know I'm not attached to material

    I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
    I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
    I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
    I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
    My love

    Yeah, what did I do but give love to you?
    I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
    From head to feet, all that's not me
    Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you

    You think that you know
    (I do)
    You've made yourself cold
    (Oh yeah)
    How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl

    You're out of control
    (So what?)
    How could you let go?
    (Oh yeah)
    Don't you know I'm not attached to material?

    I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
    I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
    I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
    I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

    I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
    I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
    I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
    I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

    So all this love I give you, take it away
    (Uh, uh huh)
    You think material's the reason I came
    (Uh, uh huh)

    If I had nothing would you want me to stay
    (Uh, uh huh)
    You keep your money, take it all away

    I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
    I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
    I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
    I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

    I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
    I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
    I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
    I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

    I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
    I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
    I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
    I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

    Ooh, my love
    (I'm taking back my love)
    Ooh, my love

    www.tips-fb.com Do You Believe in Soulmate?

    Tuesday, June 02, 2009
    One theory of soulmates, presented by Aristophanes in Plato's Symposium, is that humans originally consisted of four arms, four legs, and a single head made of two faces, but Zeus feared their power and split them all in half, condemning them to spend their lives searching for the other half to complete them:

    [Primeval man] could walk upright as men now do, backwards or forwards as he pleased, and he could also roll over and over at a great pace, turning on his four hands and four feet, eight in all, like tumblers going over and over with their legs in the air; this was when he wanted to run fast…Terrible was their might and strength, and the thoughts of their hearts were great, and they made an attack upon the gods... Doubt reigned in the celestial councils. Should they kill them and annihilate the race with thunderbolts, as they had done the giants, then there would be an end of the sacrifices and worship which men offered to them; but, on the other hand, the gods could not suffer their insolence to be unrestrained. At last, after a good deal of reflection, Zeus discovered a way. He said: 'Me thinks I have a plan which will humble their pride and improve their manners; men shall continue to exist, but I will cut them in two and then they will be diminished in strength and increased in numbers; this will have the advantage of making them more profitable to us. They shall walk upright on two legs, and if they continue insolent and will not be quiet, I will split them again and they shall hop about on a single leg.'
    —Aristophanes, Plato’s Symposium, [1]

    :D To believe or not to believe... that is the question.

    Source from wikipedia

    www.tips-fb.com And The Love Story Continue...

    The New Moon

    "I couldn't bear to see you, getting hurt because of me, so I am letting you go, but only to find, one day, I'll be running back into your arms"

    www.tips-fb.com A Very Long Meaningless Conversation

    Monday, June 01, 2009
    what we said tonite only ends here, and tomorrow, we acted as nothing has ever been said and done.

    Thats the point of having this very long meaningless conversation

    Between here and there, we are actually somewhere....

    www.tips-fb.com Fish that I have and used to have

    Friday, May 29, 2009
    1) Alligator Gar Fish (Atractosteus spatula)

    Alligator gar are found in the southeastern United States: Texas, Oklahoma, Louisiana, Mississippi, North Carolina, South Carolina, Alabama, Tennessee, Kentucky, Arkansas, Missouri,Florida,Georgia,Maryland, and in Paris, Illinois, in the Twin Lakes area, they have also been recored in Lake Summerset, Illinois. They have also been known occasionally to come as far north as central Kansas, off the Republican River and up into Clarks Creek. They inhabit sluggish pools and backwaters or large rivers, bayous, and lakes. They are rarely found in brackish or saltwater, but are more adaptable to the latter than are other gars. In February 2007, a 1.5-meter Alligator Gar was found roaming far in the city ofJakartaIndonesia, when the city was hit by a major flood (see External Links below). In January 2008, a 3-kg Gator Gar was found by fishermen in Bera, Pahang (East Coast State of Malaysia), when it was caught entangled in a fishing net.

    2) Black Ghost KnifeFish (Apteronotus albifrons)

    The black ghost knifefish,  is a tropical fish belonging to the ghost knifefish family (Apteronotidae). They originate in South America in the Amazon Basin in Peru and from Venezuela through Paraguay in the Paraná Rivers. They are becoming popular in aquaria. The fish is all black except for two white rings on its tail, and a white blaze on its nose, which can occasionally extend into a stripe down its back. It moves mainly by undulating a long fin on its underside. It will grow to a maximum length of 25 inches (60 centimeters). It does not have scales.
    They are nocturnal, but they are weakly electric fish and use an electric organ and receptors distributed over the length of their body in order to locate insect larvae. Along with Peters' elephantnose fish they are the most studied of the active electrosensing fish

    3) Tiger Shovel Nose CatFish (Died) :(

    Originated from Brazil, Amazon River Basin, Argentina, Peru & Venezuela. The typical pet shop offering is a 3 inch fish which can grow to 12 inches or more within a year. In 2 years these fish can reach 24" in length. They can attain a length in excess of 4 feet at maturity.

    4) senegal Bichir (Polypterus senegalus)- Two died, only two remain :(

    The Senegal Bichir can be found all throughout Africa’s rivers and lakes. The Nile River, Lake Chad and Senegal River are just a few of the main bodies of water this fish can be found in. This fish is also known as the dinosaur eel because of its elongated, eel-like body and its serrated dorsal fin that is dinosaur-like. This species, however, is not a true eel. The small pectoral fins of the Senegal Bichir only allow this fish to swim slowly, preventing it from being a better predator. A modified swim bladder gives the Senegal Bichir the ability to breathe atmospheric oxygen.he male Senegal Bichir has a broad anal fin when compared to the females. Females are also noticeably larger than the males. The lifespan for this fish is 12 years or more, depending on how well it is cared for.

    5) Rope Fish ( as mention on earlier post)

    The reedfish, Erpetoichthys calabaricus, ropefish (a name more commonly used in the United States), or snakefish is a species of freshwater fish in the bichir family and order. It is the only member of the genus Erpetoichthys. It is native to West Africa, with its natural habitat stretching from Nigeria to The Congo.

    The reedfish has a maximum total length of 90 centimetres (36 inches)but usually 40 cm in a fish tank. It lives in slow-moving, brackish or fresh water, warm water (22-28 degrees centigrade), and it can breathe atmospheric air (meaning it is able to survive in water with low dissolved oxygen content) using a modified swimbladder which it uses like a pair of lungs. This organ means it can survive for an intermediate amount of time out of water. The reedfish is a nocturnal creature that feeds on annelid worms, crustaceans and insects at night, and it is sometimes displayed in aquariums. Its genus name, Erpetoichthys, derives from the Greek words erpeton ("creeping thing") and ichthys ("fish").

    I want to add a Red Tail catfish to my aquarium, unfortunately, I need to buy a new aquarium to placed my Alligator Gar , which is being postpone because I don't have enuff money yet. Well, one day...

    About Red Tail Catfish

    The redtail catfish, Phractocephalus hemioliopterus, is a pimelodid (long-whiskered) catfish named for its red or orange caudal fin. In Venezuela it is known as cajaro and in Brazil it is known as pirarara.[1] It is the only extant species of the genus Phractocephalus. This fish originates from South America. Despite reaching a large size, this fish is a common aquarium fish.

    www.tips-fb.com My new fish ..I love it.. Erpetoichthys Calabaricus

    Wednesday, May 27, 2009
    Yesterday, I bought myself a new fish. I've seen this fish before and ever since I have been searching for it, that's why, last week when I saw it, I completely fall in love with it. The scientific name is Erpetoichthys Calabaricus  but commonly knwon as Reedfish or Rope Fish. Originated from Cameroon and Niger river in Africa.

    here are the picture of the fish I google out from the net.


    Image Source from  www.petshop-zoomania.com/PREDATORS/

    www.tips-fb.com Self Professed ...

    The Me sounded off by every definition because it is not definite.

    I strongly feels everything, the bad part is, each feels is different at one time, and it was true during that precise time, not before or in the later time.

    Two opposite feels, mold me into two different character each time.

    The question is, which one is truer than the other, and which one is the ME?

    The real me... I also do not have any idea.

    That why, the ME can't be trusted by me...

    Me would be trigger to feel things by scents, memories, and her never rested conscious mind...