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    Saturday, August 20, 2005

    well, today i guess is a very pleasant day for me. u sure will feel gud bout urself if u have frens. I luv all my frens. Friendster thingies do help me loads in finding all my ol' skool-mate, i at least didn't feel as lonely as before..maybe dats is wat a fren for.

    Tonite im going to hang out wit AC, one of my ex-mrsmbp skool-mate.cant wait to see a familiar face again after a while. I know, my previous posts picture me as a negative thinker kinda gal. Well, if u are feeling lonely and down and wit out fren, all this negative "aura" will be influencing u and mold u into a very pessimist monster. Hecks, i hope its all over now..the split personality or negative images.

    there are some of da ol'skool boyz and gurls who been contacting me, thank u to all of u for making me realize dats i still have fren after all. And some of them really, are not even close to me in da ol'days.. well guys, really nice to hear from u guys. Wat else to sez, i know my entry today seem a lil' bit boring but watta heck!, i am feeling so sentimental rite now. I have invite several frens which i really wanna see again on this merdeka day at KLCC, i dunno who will shows up, but i hope some are coming.. love to hav chit-chat with them..

    Going back home next friday, on aug 26, miz my parents and bros dearly.cant wait to see them..
    Tuesday, August 16, 2005


    Well, actually I am not a Full House or korean Drama-maniac or s/thing, but I do watch and of Coz enjoyed it, make me feels so mushi-mushi afterwards..heck.. love thingies owezs hav dat kind of effect 2people.. haha.. :))

    I owezs watch it on 8tV and still going-on, i missed a few episodes bcoz s/times i went out after work.. but yesterday, my opismate lend me her FullHouse VCD, aiyarks!! I am so thrill, y.. hehehe..actually cant wait to see how its end..the ending is very important, so i do the marathon thingies to finish all 16 cds.. cant believe there's is so many off-tv-scenes , and its surely funny LOL, cant wait to watch the ending.. look like late staying at nite if i want to finish it b4 tis friday..



    Saturday, August 13, 2005

    Yesterday, i've read an article about cats' psychology. There's a few point i already knew, learned from my past experince with cat. Anyway, wat really interested me is that cat also will seek attention if they're being neglected.

    My kitten, otomen, seem to be hyperactive and has always been bothering me while i asleep. According to the article, hyperactive kitten actually seek attention from their owner because they feel lonely. In my case, I always have to leave otomen lock in my bedroom while I am off for work. Sometimes, at nite also i have to lock her up when i was going out .. there's only a small portion of my time did i spent with her. Poor Otomen, no wonder she has been thrashing out my bedroom, she has no body to play with since i was out a lot.

    Now, I try my best to spent quality time with her, playing..especially in the evening, when i came back from office. Then she will feel tired at nite, and felt content, so she would not be bothering me while i am sleeping..

    I love her so much, I like to see her active and happy, hope i can spent more time with her.
    Friday, August 12, 2005

    still hazy day and more to come...

    today the situation only gone from bad to worse. There are few schools here are closed for the day. The API are gone from unhealthy to very hazardous. For Port klang, already reaches 529 while in Kuala Selangor is 531. Here in subang jaya..well aint that good either with the API ( air pollutant index) read 350. Yesterday in the evening, subang jaya also been hit by a minor hailstorm (hujan ais batu).. i tot dat it wud improved the weather when it rains.. well i tot wrong.. it is getting more and more worrying.. I started to feel sore throat and headache.. hope this haze thingies will be over soon..
    I am going to call my parents so they wud cancel their plan to come here.. it is not healty here. They are old and i tink that the effect to them wud be much greater..
    Thursday, August 11, 2005


    it has been a very hazy week.. today looks like it's getting worst.. arghhh!! i cant breath!! the paper sez dat this haze will continue to hunt our wheather till october.. oh my god.. this thingies will kill my brain cells dead.. oh no!!! i hope the indonesian government will find ways to prevent the open burning in their country.. do something my indonesian friend, u are killing ur neighbours.. !!
    my mom called this morning, at 8.00am, she will be coming here next week on 19th/08.. maybe wit my bro, grandma and nieces and nephews.. so i am planning to bring them for picnicking, but in this kind of wheather, i dunno if they probably coming here or not at all..
    when will this "bad air" crisis end??!!?

    Tuesday, August 09, 2005
    biler difikir sakitnyer ati, ingin sajer kufikir agar dicabut nyawa dari jasad ini, biarku mati saja.. andai benar mati menjemputku, kurasa tiada tangisan bakal mengiringi ku.. apa gunanya mencintai orng yang hanya menganggap kita sebagai bebanan. Tiada pujukan dalam rajukan, tiada perhatian dalam kepinggiran.
    aku bercakap bagaikan orang putus asa.. gila mungkin.. tiada rasional..mungkin betul aku sudah menjadi gila..gila didalam cengkaman stress yang dicipta sendiri..
    bolehkah aku bawa diri.. aku ingin tinggalkan semuanya.. andai aku boleh berlari pergi..dari semua, kerja, dia dan keluarga.. aku tahu, apa guna aku meracau, menangis, menyakiti diri sendiri.. udah pastinya tiada mungkin ada yang peduli atau simpati.. apa aku buat tak pernah cukop bagus.. asyik melakukan kesilapan.. bolehkah aku diselamatkan.. adakah aku akan merosakkan diriku.. yang memagar aku dari keruntuhan hanyalah kerasionalan fikiran.. memikirkan tuhan dan juga keluarga.. andai aku tidak dididik dengan ajaran agama, pastinya sudah kucabut nyawaku ini.. tapi sampai bilakah mampu ku bertahan..aku perlu seseorang yg mampu memahami aku, aku teramat memerlukan kasih sayang....... aku tahu famili menyayangiku..mana mungkin si ibu tidak sayangkan anaknya sendiri, tapi pernahkah mereka berpuas hati dengan apa yang aku ada untuk disumbangkan.. tidak..tidak..aku tidak cukop bagus.. aku tahu si dia mencintaiku, tapi adakah dia berpuas hati dengan aku..tidak,sesungguhnya tidak, bagi manusia seperti aku yang terlalu banyak celanya, mana wajar di love unconditionally... aku hanya disayangi bila aku mengalah, mengikut telunjuk jari, bila aku mula memberontak, semua mula mencaci dan membenci, ada saja yang x kena.. kenapa aku fikirkan mati, mungkin sebab itu kesudahan yang pasti, atleast mereka tidak membenci si mati, mereka sentiasa mengingati si mati, atleast setahun sekali pada masa hari raya aku akan diingati..... diingati sebagai seorang yang baik, orang yang disayangi... arghh!! sungguh stress sekali..!!!


    Suddenly i am tinking of a rose.. y,well its surely have been a very long time ago since i've been given a rose. I always remember my 1st rose. It was given to me when I was in Form 4 in MJSCBP. Wit a note..."friendship forever?"..well, after that, i've been holding on to the rose for an unknown reason. I kept the last petal for years, hoping for that friendship to return to me.. i was so afraid that if i lost the petal,the friendship wud be gone 4eva.. I've been waiting for that friend for so long then i've taken effort to search for him. Lucky for the new information age, finally, i've found him. People change a lot, and i know the frienship wud never be the same. Yes, I've found him, but i now have no importance in his life. He has his own circle of friends which is very hard for me to squeeze in. Maybe becoz of the feeling i used to have for him.. The memories we have sure is very few, but always be played vividly in my head. I can remember every details.. i wonder if he has forgotten it all...
    After that very rose which surely make me realized how much i appreciate him and how important he is in my life, i have received dozens of roses but could never be compared to that one rose-of-friendship. All have been gone now. No more roses for me. During my convocation, i didn't receive even a single rose. I am sad, i love flower, they are full of meaning, they can potrayed love, friendship and even sadness. They can show appreciation and gratituation. I wonder if i would ever receive the rose again. A rose and A friendship... come together in a wonderful and luxurious package..
    Saturday, August 06, 2005

    hahahahahaks..so cute...sweet..nice really the pics.. BUT NOT to my day.. it is so goddamn so unlucky ..
    I am totally mad.. at whom, no body indeed.. i am mad to my self.. y r tis thing owez happen to me...y...oh ...y!!! I asked labu to return the convo "JUbah" today but they dont wanna accept the Jubah, saying i got it stained wit something, maybe paint.. how the paint get there in the first place.. i have no idea..
    I am totally broke rite now .. don even hav the money to claim the convo pics which is rm 50, now i hav to pay another extra rm 50 for nothing.. damn..!!! an it s only a little stained.. argh!!!!
    i am totally so f****** piss off!! and i cant blame anybody.. dat the worsest case!!!
    Enuff sez.. hav to get my mind str8!! i have so many issues rite now and i tink im gonna be crazy..!!
    Thursday, August 04, 2005

    in searching for s/thing in life, i find my self forgetting things like how lucky i am to be bless wit a happy family and people who care about me. I have no rite to complaint .. Thanks to all who always been there to cheer me up and to Labu.. thanks for being patience wit me..

    hembuslah pawana,
    hembus pergilah sengsara ini...
    biar diganti,
    segala keluhan dengan kesyukuran...
    dalam menjejak impian,
    nyaris aku tersasar arah...
    dengan bekalan ilmu secubit,
    ingin daku menduga tuah,
    mencari ketenangan dan kejayaan,
    dicelah cebisan waktu,
    yang berlalu tanpa bertangguh....
    Tuesday, August 02, 2005
    my convo when like wooo.. a major sad story, i felt so sad dats i refused to take pics.. but after a while, who don wanna take pics on their convo..kekekeke.. on sunday i when to genting.. when actually i was planning to take my family thr but bcoz of their absent.. i went there with Labu.. I already booked an apartment, it surely will not be wasted..
    the apartment is surely big..wit a two-bedroom, kitchen, living room and gr8 view.. at 15 floor tho..kekekke..the next day, entered the snowworld.. cant believe da snow ud be so goddamn cold man.. i freeze in there.. my lip and neck felt numb... hahahaha..take a couple of pics in thr.. very nice..
    bcoz i only dapat cuti for one day, kena baleklar... erm.. it wud be so damn gr8 if today is also my cuti-day..